After a year and a half of knowing. After the visits, the university applications and correspondances, I am finally here. And naturally I don't believe it. Funny thing. It feels like it happened so fast. I can't believe that I am done high school forever. I enjoyed high school. When I was young, I used to marvel at the high schoolers and being one was so much fun.
Anyway, back to picturing where we'll be. Five years from now... I have no clue whatsoever where I'll be. This is both frightening and invigorating. The world is my oyster, there is nothing to hold me back, I can go wherever I want and be whoever I want and do whatever I want. The possibilities are endless. It's such a great big world out there. And I have no clue where to start. Luckily for me, I have a few years to figure that out. Yeah, but seriously, past university I can't see anything, it's like the crest of a hill in front of me, and I can't see the other side but I know it's there and I'm sure that it's bright and promising. I'm excited.
I'm not anxious, just curious. It'll sure be something. It's always something to look back on your life and see where you were at different points of the journey. Remembering how you felt, what you thought, how you perceived the world back then, and what you imagined for your future and how differently it actually turned out.
So many people are afraid of the future, because it is the unknown. I'm afraid of it a bit... Maybe not as much as some people, but to a certain extent I think that it would be hard to find someone who isn't at all. I mean, it's our natural tendancy to fear the unknown.
Oh, I remember how I used to wonder what I would turn out like when I was younger. Wouldn't it be neat if we could have a picture of ourselves as grown-ups when we are young. Just to see. I think that that would be cool. Mind you, then you get into the whole debate about affecting the past with the future and such...
Anyway, I don't know what I'm really trying to say here. If you would have told my grade six self that this is where I would be today I wonder what I would have thought. I know it wasn't what I had pictured, but it's great and I'm glad it worked out the way it did. It's amazing to see how far we've come. From ten years ago, five years ago, three years ago, even just a year ago. Humans are really fascinating creatures, aren't they?
And now we can ponder at what we will be like a year, three years, five years, ten years from now. I can't even imagine. Wow, it'll be an adventure.
Mind you, we can't always spend our time in neither the past nor the future, we need to be in the moment as well, so that life doesn't pass us by. Life sure is a cool thing, isn't it? With all it's ups and downs, twists and turns, man it is never boring. And it's always trying to teach us something.
So where will you be? Will you have learned your lessons or will you have ignored them? Will you see the possibilities ahead of you or will you shut yourself in a pit of discontentedness? Will you choose to go for it or play it safe? Will you be where you want to be? Will you be where you never thought was possible? Will you find the positive side wherever you may be? Will you be better, smarter, stronger. further?
Take a moment to be fascinated with life.