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WEBMISTRESS kelliethile. 02.08: birthday girl. high school senior. middle child. a girlfriend. a sister. an aunt. a friend. o5o9o3.
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senior post #4. wednesday, august 24, 2005. 4:54pm. this morning i woke up terrified! i forgot i don't have class on wednesday. bf does though. he asked me to tell his dad to come get him at 9:30am. i hurried to change. out of nowhere, all relaxly dressed, he storms into the room. i didn't even has the chance to do change my top, my pants. nothing, haha. it was just 9 o'clock! it annoys me that he spend all yesterday playing games. like, i thought he didn't have any homework. he surprised me when he set the alarm clock at "6am." he's like the laziest pig ever! turned out, he wanted to get up at 6 to do his health class' essay. i was so so so turned off and angry at him for that. i didn't even bother to get up to make him breakfast. instead, i fell back into my dreams. did i mentioned about my research dealing with the fsa (federal students aid)? i requested a pin number from the u.s. department of education. i received it yesterday. so happy! i don't know what to do with it though. i should get my counselor to help me out. seems like i want to do everything by myself now adays. for an example, i'm on the journey to find a job. i don't have any connection right now. if you can hook me up with a job, i will be forever grateful. if not, it's all right. kellie has to find one either way. plus, being independent is a valuable thing. that's why i'm living on my own now.
sometime i feel like i'm living my bf's live. perhaps i am. sometime i feel like i'm living off his property. again with the perhaps i am. i prefer peacefullness over love. with this i mean, i prefer being here, most of the time, isolated because i feel insecere and calm with the house all to myself. no little brothers or niece running around, no sisters or mother complaining about being fat, etc.
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