Please touch me - I can’t touch you.
Pick me up - I’m feeling blue.
Lay me down with gentle hands.
Touch the fever in my glands.

Our eyes meet, they touch, caress...
I feel like taking off my dress
But for thoughts of inadequacies…
Exposed - will my body freeze?

Kiss me with your loving lips,
Nestle in my neck,
Explore my body’s mounds and dips
But keep yourself in check.

Let me snuggle in your arms.
Let me sleep there, tight.
Quell my blues and mounting qualms.
Tread lightly o’er my fright.

Make me feel I’m beautiful.
Am I good to kiss?
Do I seem intelligent?
Can you feel my bliss?

When I’m in a room with you,
When I know you’re near,
You make my soul thrill
Through and through – 
I hold your presence dear.

Make me feel I’m wonderful.
Help me find some peace.
Help me lose the quaking feelings.
Make the aching cease.

Help me find my right to life.
Help me stand alone.
Show me how to withstand strife
When you are far and gone.

Love me, momentarily.
I know you can’t do more.
You must be forever free
In case I start to bore…

What a worrywort am I!
What a vast imagination –
Visualising things that aren’t;
Longing for the things you can’t
Give to me, honourably.

Can’t I see that all this would be worthless and void of all respect?
Relief should flood my being when I  realise I’ve checked,
Till now, the urge to attract you to our doom…
But oh, the urge is growing when I feel you in the room.

A touch of eyes and minds, to me, no longer seems enough.
One day you’ll come to realise our friendship was a bluff
To hide a stronger feeling, a burgeoning attraction,
That fills my head with thoughts of you and
Woos me to distraction.

How long can I hold off the thought of making you see me
As the tantalising woman that I long to be?
How long can I live with the stories in my mind,
Before I try to make them real and stumble, like the blind?

So far, we have remained friends – we’ve kept a wall between,
But how much that wall defends cannot be foreseen…
And yet, I cannot live without the knowledge that is you,
And even if you go away I still will manage to
Live my life without you if I know that year by year
I can optimistically hope that you’ll occasionally appear.

Therefore, I cannot make a break, even knowing that I should.
I dare not lose the life you give me, even if I could.