Perspicacity
By
Ray Purcell
Prologue
I was sitting at work minding
my own business. It was a Monday, of
all days, when a colleague nonchalantly commented that I looked happy. Just that I looked happy, that was all. Yet I wasn’t aware of it. Any more than I was aware of how I might
have been projecting such an air of bliss.
The preceding Wednesday someone might just as well have commented, in
just as off handed a way, that I looked as if I had a stick up my ass. Where in retrospect they’d have almost
certainly been right, I would have been no more aware. So closely approximated my nose tends to be
to the chalkboard.
I realize that my metaphor
about the chalkboard is both cultural and to a certain extent generation
dependent. Dependent that is on whether
or not you attended parochial school in the Sixties. It’s also a metaphor that should just as well be lost on my
antecedents lest they be subject to the same humiliation and indignity as my cohort. Because, with ones nose to the chalkboard is
where you stood, before your classmates, if you just didn’t see the intended
point or adequately grasp the concept.
Not to be confused with the
commendable diligence that accompanies the commitment to a task where one’s
nose is to the grindstone, and certainly not related to the drama of standing
before the mast. Standing with your
nose to the chalkboard was supposed to precipitate vision, clarity. Yet as many times as I stood with my own
nose to the chalkboard as penance for my own behavioral and intellectual
myopia, I never experienced a single perspicuous spark, though I still can’t
get the smell of chalk dust out of my nose.
The chalkboards in life
continue to have a certain affinity for my nose, a gravitational force perhaps
as great if not greater than a celestial singularity. Though, unless there’s some ruler wielding, knuckle rapping
cosmic force this metaphor now has nothing to do with old parochial school
discipline. The image has become reduced
to representing life’s distractions and obstructions. It’s a metaphor that reflects what I see as a dysfunction of an
over stimulated society. A malady that
has resulted in a syndrome of social apathy and discontent. Not necessarily out of individual
callousness but self-defense. At least
this is one hypothesis for what I see as a collective ethical nearsightedness,
confusion, disenfranchisement, and impotence.
In an ironic way I suppose we penalize ourselves to come to the front of
the class and stand nose to the chalkboard.
Fortunately though, and it has taken some years to learn this,
there are no chalkboards on adventures and wanderings. When I explore, I am free to experience
wondrous flashes of perspicacious relevance, a veritable Tesla Coil like
discharge of perspective- I think.
I
Unfortunately, my view of the
world around me doesn’t broaden right away with the onset of an adventure. No, it’s a gradual progression. You see, that’s because very few therapies
work that fast, it’s a process of healing.
A process not unlike the following experience.
One evening, having just set
out on a journey, I was propped up and reclining comfortably against my
bouldering pad, alternately sipping a Guinness Stout and taking bites of Pad
Thai Noodles. The ground around me was
the burnt orange of the Martian landscape with large smooth alluvial cobbles
strewn about. Stones that had surely
dropped out of the current of some itinerant river an epoch or so ago. Virtually nothing grew in this seemingly
sterile and seared soil. Clouds of dust
blew up and swirled in the buffeting wind.
Various mongrel dogs that were running wildly about in an enthusiastic
add-game of chase kicked up even more dirt.
Where I was camped was
slightly more protected from the elements, and the dogs, by virtue of its
orientation and elevation on a terrace inside a scooped out pit. In fact the whole campground was set up in
what, until not too long ago, was a working quarry. As the Sun began to set on The Pit an eclection of sounds began
to emanate from various and sundry drums, guitars, wooden flutes, not to
mention car stereos. A cacophony of
sounds that, perhaps because of acoustics of this scooped out bit of earth,
seemed to find an odd peace with each other in improbable and disparate
harmony.
An assortment of cars bumped
and rattled past my camp, scuttering over the cobbles and rills of the road
that lead down into the quarry pit. I
suppose to set up camp for the night.
People milled about talking, socializing, and playing games. These comings and goings would be of little
note on the average street corner or public park. But for some reason I’m fascinated by their endeavors, their
comings and goings. I’ve been camping
on the ground in places like The Pit for years. Camps defined by a critical mass of climbers, skiers, and all
manner of wanderers who congregate thus out of thrift, or necessity, and/or the
attraction to some communal aura of eminent adventure.
The vehicles have changed
with time; naturally there are fewer Volvos and VW Buses. These days, it’s fascinating to see young
men in dreadlocks piloting passé family vans, the kind their mothers might just
have taken them to kindergarten in. The
difference is that these rides have been allowed just a modicum of shabbiness,
they are road worn with the proper amount of neglect as befits the respect due
a reverse status symbol. Some of them
even sport creative and ingenious homemade camper conversions-very
Sixties. But, the travelers themselves haven’t
changed. By and large they are still
young, tanned, and seem to be covered by a veneer of magic road dust. They wear the bright expectant expressions
of one always alert for the next awesome thing, the advent of a wondrous
experience. I suppose you could say
places like these are a Never-Never Land, where each new day the Peter’s and
the Wendy’s journey toward “...the second star on the right...”
II
I expanded my perspective and
looked out across the desert to where the Sun had just set over Mt. Tom. The sadly retreating and thinning snows in
the fabled ski descent down Elderberry Canyon reminded me that had this even
been an average snow year, I would by now be on the Sierra High Route. We’d have been at least four days into the
classic traverse of the Sierra Nevada pioneered by David Beck. A ski tour that transects a high crossing
between Shepard’s Pass, north of Mt. Williamson on the east, and Wolverton, in
Sequoia National Park on the west.
I won’t say that I was
cursing what ever fates govern winter storms and the spring snow pack, but I
was still obsessing, and lamenting.
It’s not that the yield of storms that crossed the Sierra this winter
were particularly fecund, but the frequency seemed to be promising, and so my
partner John and I planned for an April crossing of the High Route. Usually an auspicious time of relatively
stable weather and low avalanche risk, this April followed a March with three
weeks of unseasonably warm weather. A
high pressure ridge perched over California like a great ugly road-kill eating
bird, one who’s carrion stink repelled the steady parade of cleansing late
winter and early spring storms that regularly wash over the West Coast from the
Gulf of Alaska.
Much to our credit, as the
snow conditions on the High Route dwindled, from a snowgasmic crossing of
spectacular high passes and cols, to a hike occasionally requiring skis, we
made an alternate plan. To go on an
equally coveted ski tour that crosses Piute Pass from the Bishop Creek Drainage
into Piute Canyon. The route passes
south of Humphreys Basin, and then crosses 12,000-foot Alpine Col between Mt.
Goethe and Muriel Peak. Then it
descends into the upper Evolution Valley, before the route finally ascends over
Lamark Col and back to North Lake.
Despite our adaptability, at the last minute our back up plan was
threatened by a piddley assed little storm with just enough punch to
significantly increase the avalanche risk by wind loading the slopes.
I’d proposed to John that we
leave the wind loaded snow to settle a few days and give the Piute Pass trip
another go, but John had understandably had enough of this winter and moved on
to umpiring spring softball. As for me,
instead of resigning myself to my classroom seat where I could gaze out the
window and on into summer, I was melancholy.
I wanted one last ski tour. A
trip highlighted by snow-covered peaks with spring corn descents, and I wanted
it with the ardor of a young man with a new girlfriend.
Perhaps I really believe good
luck favors the foolish given the snow conditions, but the next morning before
Sunrise I was off to Happy Jacks for a heart attack breakfast. Once sated with eggs, sausage, and hash
browns, side of toast with those grape and strawberry jellies that come in the
little one-serving plastic containers, I headed up Highway 168 west of Bishop
toward the Piute Pass Trailhead at North Lake.
The blustery wind of the day before had died just as capriciously as it
had started. The morning was already
warming as I loaded lunch, a few extra clothes, and my skis into my pack.
The road was closed at the
turn off to North Lake. So, I walked
the mile and a half up to the lake, crossing only a few niggardly and utterly
hopeless discontinuous patches of snow.
I noticed the snow that punctuated the route gradually got deeper as I
approached the trailhead, and I was teased on by the continuous cover on the
north facing snowfields that I had seen above the brilliant orange of Piute
Crags. Fortunately the patches of snow
were firm and easily trod without the dreaded “postholing”, so I continued to
hike. I cleared the forest and there
was no skiable snow, I climbed the rockband below Loch Levin Lake and still no
skiable snow.
At last I gained Loch Levin
Lake and could begin to ski. Sizing up
the potential avalanche paths I began skiing up the valley toward Piute
Pass. I’ve crossed many a Sierra Pass
but never approached one so... well approachable. It was a leisurely ski, given I was only carrying a daypack with
a can of sardines, some crackers, and a few extra clothes. My legs moved with a reassuring if not
soothing rhythm. One that imparted a
sense of well-being, the kind of succor that accompanies a mother singing, or
the memory of cuddling up to be told a story.
The climbing skins on the
bottoms of my skis made a soft, almost blowing sound with each measured
advance. The kind of subtle whoosh
that’s like a heart murmur. I began to
wonder if part of the attraction of the ski itself wasn’t the opportunity to immerse
myself in the rhythms of ascent and descent, to regain a time when my whole
sentient universe was defined by a rhythmic heartbeat- and of course was so
much simpler.
I traversed a moraine at the
outlet of Piute Lake and found a solitary cabin. In the high altitude light the cedar shake roofing was an almost
iridescent orange with a contrasting stain of burnt brown. The light granite masonry of the wall was
buttressed to the roof to fortify the structure against the crush of more
substantial snows. I skied past the
cabin, and as I did I carried away with me the fantasies of a pleasant summer
spent there. Fantasies of starlight and
wood smoke, soft thick flannel shirts, and thick stew piled on blue enameled
plates. I tucked these images away for
latter use. Cashed them for future
solace, for sustenance as I travel the real world wilderness.
The traverse up the pass was
measured and paid for with the currency standard to all high altitude
efforts. The coin of the realm is the
count of thudding heartbeats and the fullest lung fulls of thin air. At the top of the pass I found an island of
rock cleared of snow so that I could lunch there. As I ate Mt. Humphreys and Emmerson stood to the north, while
Piute Canyon and Humphreys Basin spread out below me to the west. The snow cover at this altitude was
consistent and beckoning. So I was
drawn onward, and traversed above Summit Lake over a lateral moraine and then
down to Muriel Lake. As I skied over
the snow covered lake ice, spectacular Mt. Goethe emerged from behind Muriel
Peak. I eventually got my view of
Alpine Col and wished desperately that I’d come prepared to climb the col and
descend into upper Evolution Valley.
I escaped the siren song of
the col only with the promise to return again, and of the hope of a pleasurable
ski back to the car. Regaining the pass
I stripped the climbing skins from the skis, which made a sizzling sound like
two steaks landing on a seasoned iron skillet.
I zipped up and tucked in my clothes, then pushed off down the fall
line. The descent was intermediate at
best, and the snow was delightfully spring like. Snow that defied my best efforts to ski badly- ego snow they call
it. I felt like my skis were divining
rods that seemed to lead me down as my turns swept over moraines and through
swales. I glided past the cabin at
Piute Lake, and descended back to Loch Levin Lake with just enough red wax to
stride skinless in snug along it’s slushy melting shore.
I’d wanted to ski back along
the north facing slopes that had been icy and inhospitable to a ski ascent that
morning. So, I followed the outlet of
the lake until I found the head of the canyon that the creek had cut for its
course through the rock band. The slot
canyon was perhaps fifteen-feet at its widest and had trapped more than its
fair share of the remaining snow. The
Sun was angled just so and the snow was perfect. Though still not steep, I was concerned that the canyon might
choke or become clogged with alders and willows. I was willing to pay the price of imprudence and started down,
this just looked like too much fun.
I gained speed as I descended
the slot, banking my turns off the berms of snow that cambered up against the
rock walls. I grinned foolishly and
only stopped to turn around and look back.
A wren flew past me and I thought of Tinkerbelle. Was I Peter Pan, or Michael? I slid a turn to the right, and the creek
canyon opened onto the north facing snow slopes. The remainder of the trip back was just a delightful matter of
traversing across the slopes until I could descend again. At last I was at last out of snow and into
the aspens. I felt giddy, like Scrooge
on Christmas morning, as I took off my skis and boots. I might have looked like Pooh’s Tiger, as I
bounded back to the trailhead.
By the time I’d gotten back
to the car I was ravenously hungry. I
was craving a five-dollar, tear apart, Bar-B-Qed chicken from Von’s and a can
of Guinness Draft... well two cans.
Heading out of Bishop the smell of the warm chicken permeated the car as
I drove north to the hot springs at Mammoth Lakes.
The Sun was just above the
horizon as I settled into the steaming hot water of Hilltop Hot Spring. As I uncoiled and began to poach in the
spring, there were only the whispers of an occasional breeze, the animated
calls of various marsh birds, and the soft buzz of an early hatch of insects to
keep me company. I began sipping my
first Guinness as the Sun set and cast almost theatrical beams of light through
the gunsights and cols that dentate the Sierra horizon. By the time the sky had gone to mauve and
then dusty lavender accented by white cirrus plumes I was on my way back to
camp to tear into the chicken.
I devoured the remains of the
day washed down with a second pint of Guinness, or was it the third, while
listening to the bluesy riffs of guitar music from the camper a respectable
distance away. I considered the ambient
light still cast by the long since set Sun while snow grooming vehicles marched
up and down the ant trails of Mammoth Mountain, their headlights like the
glowing eyes of prowling rodents. As I
sat I wondered if I was bold enough to ski down the Dana Couloir the next
day. After bagging up he chicken bones
I bagged up myself and the ensuing sleep was unhindered by what might or might
not be skied, and certainly without a worldly care- those were a reality away.
III
Awakened again by the predawn
light and the unbridled opportunity of a new day, I was quick to cast my gear
higglty-pigglty into the back of the family wagon. I bumped and swayed out the dirt path to the Benton Crossing
Road, and headed off to breakfast at the Tioga Mobil Mini-Mart. Still a bit bleary with sleep and no morning
coffee I scanned the menu through squinty eyes. After some struggle with the choices, I returned without much
real deliberation to my original choice, the Alpers smoked trout omelet,
stuffed with Monterey Jack Cheese and veggies.
Matt Toomey is the Chef and proprietor of this corner of culinary
heaven, and he came out to greet his early morning patrons. The conversation did not linger over the
food however, since Matt is a skier, and the tour or descent of the day is as
essential an accompaniment of the breakfast as a fine wine is to an offered
dinner.
Of course, the topic of conversation
as we all sipped our coffee was whether or not the Tioga Road would open to the
park entrance. One patron said. “I
heard it had opened days ago.” Another
added. “Tom ran the road yesterday and it was locked.” After a gulp of coffee one person said. “I
could strap my skis to my bike and ride up, and who’d stop me.” Then a new contributor to the
conversation. “I heard that new guy who
bought Tioga Pass Resort passed out keys to all his friends.” One group leader authoritatively
stated. “We’re headed over to Mt.
Gibbs, before it gets too late.”
Too late indeed, time to
hustle before the corn peaks. I threw
my lot with the original plan and headed up toward the gate on 120 in the hopes
that it would be open. Rounding the
turn the gate was locked, and the shoulder of the road was lined with a variety
of vehicles ranging from venerable and battered four-wheel drive camper trucks,
to more contemporary road trip vehicles.
It was a party atmosphere with dogs zigging and zagging, hack circles,
and Frisbee. One tan young fellow with
dreadlocks and a veneer of magic road dust had three snowboards lying against
his car while his posse and he played Grateful Dead Tunes.
I worked the crowd inquiring
of the various rumors about the opening of the road in hopes of discerning what
truth or fact may lie in the middle.
As I feared there was none. As I
waited several conspicuously up scale SUVs containing natty fellows, dressed in
the uniform of gentrified trout fisherman, opened the gate and quickly closed
it behind them again while self-consciously avoiding any eye contact with us. I
started to loose hope of skiing Mt. Dana.
Then I came on a cluster of
vehicles, and a tribe of young, bellicose, and energetic men. The kind who I would have more likely as not
to warily avoid under any other circumstances.
They were listening to loud, base driven, intense music and conversing
easily in phrases over the din.
I was surprised to find them
very engaging. One informed me. “Those motherfuckers aren’t going to open
that gate today, that guy at the resort is just letting his friends up.” Another stepped forward to address me and
authoritatively said. “Were going up to
Virginia Lakes.... YOU SHOULD COME WITH US!” So spoke the putative Chief, with excellent,
enthusiastic, and... loud enunciation.
He was charismatic. A medium
height hombre with unzipped and flapping ski bibs, thick wavy hair, and Charlie
Manson eye contact. A look that was
intensified by the raccoon in negative effect caused by a dark tan that
surrounded pale ovals where sunglasses had shielded his eyes.
All of a sudden I had a
tribe, and had been given directions.
To follow them to the top of Conway Summit, and to turn left to Virginia
Lakes, and to park as close to the lake as I could. We convoyed north on 395, and up Conway Grade. Just beyond the grade, as ordered I turned
left at Virginia Lakes. As I drove up
the road the high sage desert gave way to snow and views of more accessible and
quality backcountry skiing opportunities than I had seen away from a lift
served area. Before the cut snow banks
on either side of the road obscured my view I’d seen at least five peaks
offering terrain from backcountry-moderate to outrageous, with plus or minus
pucker points.
The snowplow had cleared the
road shoulders and the parking lot at Virginia Lake. There were vehicles parked everywhere. I eked out an almost parking space. The rest of the tribe was somewhere else. As I had circled around the parking lot by
the lake there were fisherman everywhere with their lines dropped through holes
in the ice covered lake. I didn’t even
know people ice fished in California, but there they were. Snowmobiles zoomed here and there careening
across the frozen lake ferrying fisherman, coolers, Bar-B-Q’s, lawn chairs, and
babushka wearing Michelin people presumably too large to travel under their own
power.
In contrast there were also
skiers and snowboarders, lots of skiers.
Most of the randonee persuasion.
They were either gearing up or heading out. Processions could already be seen skinning up the various
bowls. The whole scene was a weird
cataclysm of Minnesota ice fishing meets Chamonix. The tribe caught up with me just as I was shouldering my
daypack. We stopped to talk, well I
listened. They were working themselves
in to froth over a choice line that looked ass if it just fell off of Red
Mountain.
The tribe talked, I looked at
the line. I listened some more, and
looked at the line again. Then I looked
at the tribe. It was troubling. They were all twenty-something, and really
fit. They also carried way fat randonee
skis and were clearly fearless. A
combination far more disconcerting than the line its self. We all parted in an agreeable suit-yourself
sort of way. I decided to head off to climb
the less imposing and lower altitude South Peak.
I was happy that the morning
was still cool and the snow firm, perfect for skinning. To avoid overheating I dressed light but was
soon unzipping, venting and delayering.
In no time my body went from aerobic to anaerobic metabolism. As I leaned into the grade I gradually
became lost in the hypnotic kettledrum of my heart. I was exhaling air like a subway car pistoning air into a
station. I went from redlining to the
verge of flat lining and stopped to rest.
I wouldn’t have been so frenzied except that spring snow can go to corn
in a mountain heartbeat making the skinning even more arduous, and just as
quickly turn to Cream of Wheat.
From my rest I could see a
party of three rapidly gaining on me, two closer together than the third. At first I almost thought them
separate. Of the closer pair one was a
very tan shirtless man with an enormously muscular chest who was casually
speaking in Italian to his companion.
The freak was, as I said casually speaking. As in, with the comfortable unlabored effort of a man who could
just as easily be sitting, nonchalantly reclined, and sipping a martini in an
easy chair at sea-level. As I caught
myself gawking, I heard the third partner blurt out with a decently labored
dyspnea, colored by a distinct Scots bur. “What are you two jabbering on
about?”
Then the half man-half
outbuilding said in English, with a Spanish accent, and in an amused sort of way. “You know I also speak English, and we were
just talking about technique.” Soon my
position was over run by the Spaniard and his distractingly beautiful Italian
girlfriend, as well as the fifth wheel Scot.
As it turned out the Italian and Spaniard were from the Bay Area. While the Scot was currently living in the
Sovereign Republic of Berkeley. All
three were avid backcountry skiers and had the sexiest and newest randonee
gear, from avalanche beacons to ski crampons.
We all began to companionably
resume the ascent chatting about mutual interests. In a foolish, and no doubt testosterone impaired fit of
competitiveness I was loath to lag behind or let the exertion show too
much. Then the Spaniard lapsed into
Italian with his girlfriend, which left the Scot and I to keep each other
company. Which was quite pleasant
until she asked if I was camping at the lake that night, in a less than casual
sort of way. Happily married and
increasingly uncomfortable with the turn of the conversation, two sequential
events conspired to allow me a graceful and dignified exit. First the snow suddenly softened and my
skins began to slip, so, second, I had to ascent the last bit to the summit of
South Peak on foot, alone, and at a much more comfortable pace.
Summiting was like climbing
the stairs to the top of the slide at the water park, except that it took three
hours to summit this slide. But like a
giant waterslide you just have to linger a moment, take in the view, savor the
coming descent. Unlike a waterslide you
have to pick your line, and to varying degrees allow you heart to drop back
down into your chest. Sometimes you
have to apply various meditative and calming techniques that have the effect of
jumping up and down on your heart to get it from your throat back into your chest. But not his time.
The descent from the eastside
of South Peak was rated as Class 3, or had it been at a ski area an advanced
run. I pushed off of the summit and at
once felt my legs unweight as they fell away from my hips. I dropped into a genuflected, knee dropped
fore and aft position without any conscious awareness. As I approached my turn I raised up
slightly, planted my downhill ski pole, and again dropped my knees like a
penitent addressing the Crucifix over an alter. The skis obeyed and carved their arc. Perfect spring corn snow cradled the skis and again defied my
best efforts at bad telemark technique.
After five or so repetitions I slid into a stop and gasped for air; I
had forgotten to breathe.
The rest of the descent was a
wonderful, free-falling rhythmic dance.
Three hours up, 45-minutes down, and before I knew it I was spreading
humus and tuna on a piece of pita bread for lunch. As I sat eating I watched as randonee skiers traversed the ridge
west of the summit of South Peak, they paused at the top of the Class 4/5
descent shoots. Then they would drop
down the fall line, carving serpentine lines like a sidewinder wending through
the desert sand.
I was pulled out of my trance
by a booming, “How was your ski?” The
tribe had returned and the chief was in the lead. He swaggered just a bit, clomping along in his ski boots, skis
waving over his shoulder like a standard.
His legion marched in step, a cadre formed to the flanks of Cesar. They all looked like they had just pushed themselves
away from the best meal of their lives.
I replied. “Never skied
better.” With a satisfied grin. The chief reassured me. “Yeah, this place never fails to
please.” Then they marched past.
Epilog
I was on my way home driving
south on Highway 395. A well-worn path
over the years, it’s become my “recreation highway”. Even though I’d worked a season with the Forest Service and lived
in Lone Pine I can’t really say it was work.
Real work has to involve some degree of mental pain and suffering, and
recreation is never that. It may
involve physically arduous activity, but by and large it’s a good kind of
hurt. And, if you’ve done it right you
gain some kind of perspective, learn something new about yourself, take a fresh
perspective.
I was wondering what I had
taken away from this trip just as I was driving past the turn off for Manzanar,
the site of the one of the ten Relocation Camps where Japanese-American
citizens were interned during World War II.
It to me occurred that for the past twenty-years I’ve interacted with
this place on some level. When I lived
in Lone Pine, Manzanar was a place to go on hot summer afternoons after
work. You could skinny dip in the
reservoir filled by George Creek and drink beer. Lots of afternoons I’d floated on a cheap airmatress that I’d
bought from Garner’s Hardware, under the relentless Sun of the Owens
Valley. I had gazed off at Mt.
Williamson and been refreshed by the snowmelt off of it’s flanks as I lay lost
in idle thoughts.
In retrospect, I was aware of
the guard shacks that marked the entrance, the granite block ones with the oriental
motif in their design that marked the turn off to my swimming hole. I was aware of the grid of roads that I
drove over to get to the reservoir for a swim. A grid that I had once wandered around in until I got too hot, and
that didn’t take too long. I remember
the foundations, I remember the outline of garden beds, I even remember the
names in the mortar written in English and Asian ideograms. I remember being aware that people of
Japanese ancestry had been “relocated” here during my mother’s and my father’s
war. That’s all that I remembered, and
all that I remember caring.
How that perspective changed
over the years I don’t know. It wasn’t
that I ever believed that Executive Order 9066 was morally or ethically right,
anymore than I could understand my mother’s irrational suspicion and dislike of
Asian people. Nor did I connect with
the stories she told of dancing at the USO with young men. Some of them before
they shipped out to the Pacific Theater from the troop disembarkation piers at
Fort Mason in San Francisco; the so call pier of tears. Many men she vividly remembered, and just
as vividly remembered that didn’t come home.
But, over the years my
perspective did change. It changed as I
learned about life in the relocation camps.
Learned from the exhibits in the Eastern Sierra Museum, in Independence. Learned from documentaries on life at
Manzanar form Huell Hawser’s California Gold.
Saw the camps through the eyes of artists like Chiura Obata. Whose watercolors of the Sierra evoked an
artistically new and fresh perspective on the Range of Light, but later told of
his bleak internment at the Relocation Camp at Topaz Lake Nevada. My perspective changed as my children grew,
it changed each time we’d drive past the site of the Relocation Camp at
Manzanar, and with each retelling the story matured.
It
started out with stories of a summer jobs and the superficial perspective of youth,
of swimming holes on hot July afternoons.
Then as the kids got older, the stories broadened with a perspective
widened by awareness. It became a
story as seen through the lens of my mother, and her bitterness over wartime
loss; the recollections my one time boss, who’s parents lost their property
after they were relocated from their rice farm near Sacramento; from Huell
Hawser’s interviews with the people who’s names are inscribed in the mortar of
Manzanar. The same names inscribed in
the mortar that rimmed the perimeter of that reservoir that I swam in.
In 1992 Manzanar became a
National Historic Site, and came under the auspices of the National Park
Service. Since then I’ve seen greater
visitation at the site, restoration of the grounds, some of the camps original
buildings have even been relocated back to the location and restored. The camp’s auditorium, which was for many
years used by the County of Inyo as a maintenance facility, was even restored
and opened to the public as a visitor center and museum.
Life in the Japanese
Relocation Camps isn’t my story, it wasn’t my experience. But it’s not for only one peoples experience
that we build monuments. It’s for
perspective that we build them. It’s
because of the experiences of the ethnically Japanese citizens of the United
States of America, who’s civil liberties as guaranteed under the Constitution
and the Bill of Rights were suspended at the convenience of a paranoid nation
at war. It’s because of the depth and
intensity of pain, fear, desperation, and loss experienced by a nation at war
that we build these monuments. It also
so we do not forget that as a nation we once too easily accepted an Executive
Decision that caused “liberty and justice for all” to be deprived, and
selectively neglected. Monuments give
us perspective, remind us of our direction at times when day to day maters
obscure that view, are blocked by the chalkboards of life. Monuments allow perspicacity to triumph over
chalkboards, but then so do adventure.
May 2004