Oh my! Secrets...
*note to myself* Use spell check next time before I send anyone email *lol*
July 2, 2002 email I sent to a friend... and more notes... Darlene called this afternoon! Told ya the stuff was going to hit the fan! It did *lol*
Hey! Good to hear from you *S* I'm online and even connected to the chat thingie! *amazed*
News! We are planning on making the trip to Oklahoma!!!!
Funny thing is... so is Lisa. Last night we were talking about the wedding and who is standing up with Chris. Aaron and Dustin and someone related to Brenda Collins (Kevin's ex lover). Brenda's kids are up in ********* once in awhile. Sooooooooooo.... all of a sudden I got this thought in my head and I asked what are the chances of Brenda being at the wedding. Welllllll.... I started giggling! Oh my.... *laughing* I was giggling and then the kids started giggling... it's better than a soap opera!!! I laughed so hard I was crying. The kids were laughing... they agreed about the soap opera thing and Kevin was just sitting there shaking his head. He did finally smile *LOL* I was like... Kevin... Brenda... Lisa... and the wife *laughing* Of course, Drew and Taylor had no idea what was so funny... but everyone else did *lol* Oh.... *laughing*
*deep breath* *LOL* Now I can finish my news... oh... Lots of news!!! Branson... 12th - 14th of August, come back to ***** the 15th I think. I'll let you know. Laid back... renting condos at ********. We need to talk to you!!! I'll call after Kevin gets home with his cell phone. I hope 10:00pm isn't too late.
And... HUGE news!!! The stuff is going to hit the fan today!!!!!!!!!! I was talking to ANgie yesterday and she asked how I was. I told her considering all things I'm okay. She asked what I meant... she thought things were good with me and Kevin *lol* That's how good we are at pretending. anyway I told her we were livign seperate under the same roof but now we are sleeping in same bed...although one wouldn't know it. I mean there isn't any contact... not a foot... nothing ever. We sleep in same bed cuz the couch was too uncomfy. soooo... somehow the phone call came up. She mentioned it. So I was like just talking to her... I mean, she mentioned it. I made some sort of statement about how much that hurt to hear lisa say i love you to kevin... and they have a piece of each others hearts. she was like... WHAT????? I said... huh? she's like... back up. I was like.... Isn't that what you were talking about? She was like... back up!!! Tell me what you said.... what are you talking about? Turns out Angie didn't know anything about that phone call at 6:30 am... or the conversation taht lasted for well over an hour after that phone message. I ended up telling Angie a bizillion things... she didn't know. I was bawling... she was shocked... I was like telling her how a month ago when I left Kevin and told him I want a divorce that he had better tell his little girlfriend ....wait... I didn't say that to ANgie... I said I told kevin to make sure lisa tells her mom EVERYTHING... every detail because it's going to come out when I take you guys to the elders. Then I told her that Kevin assured me just one week before Andrea's graduation party that Lisa had told Angie everything. He said.... lisa told him... mom knows all the details. SOOOOOOOOOOO.... last night was Pete's birthday party.... so she was upset but not going to talk to Lisa till today. *tying up the phone line here* I don't want to deal with this. GOing to have to though.
Anyway... we did go to the party at Lisa's. Kevin's been rude... cold... but guess that's what to expect since I told him we have to sell... split the $$ divorce... or he can turn the downstairs into my space... or he can give up Lisa's friendship and we can see if we can salvage this thing we call marriage. Ice Cold. I had my bags packed at Andrea's grad. party...ready to go home with ANYONE that would take me. But thought I better stick around her for the kids till after Chris' wedding on the slim chance I could go to it. Really don't knwo where I am in a marriage... don't know what to do.
Last night Kevin didn't even speak or look at me when I came into Lisa's. He was already there... not a word. Of course then Angie believed me that what we have is a pretend relationship and now we aren't even working on that.
It was a riot last night sitting around here talking about the wedding and the soap opera in RL going on right here. Too funny! I spurted tea all over the couch the second it struck my funny bone... I mean, I said it sarcasticly... then it was just too darn funny when Kevin gave me that first look *rofl* ..... tears.... ........... lol you just gotta love my life 8lol*
*deep breath* I just have too much fun with this *lol*
Well... now that I've written a book of babbling...
Please... please tell me you can do Branson with us!!! HEY!! I think Lisa's going to be there!!!! *lol* Did I tell you she said she'd go to the wedding to represent our family. I was like..........ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh goodness!!!! *GAG* then I was so mad! I told SUsan when she called... she was like.... you can let her know that Chris' family is WELL represented with real family members!!! That's her family, your family, U. Bud & A.Nancy, Aunt Velma, and the Nere's... and whoever else I decide to claim as family just so he has lots of extended family too. Just in case I can't be there.
I told Kevin to tell his little girlfriend she's NOT representing Chris' family even if she does go... then I told ANgie yesterday "You'd BETTER DARN WELL tell Lisa she is NOT representing our family at his wedding.... I can only imagine what Chris will do if she tells him that" Angie was like... I'll be sure to tell her *LOL* I did tell Angie that Lisa is the reason Chris left here... Lisa and Kevin... He couldn't handle that quietly like we were expected to do. WEll, I'm not being quiet about it anymroe eithere. They say it's over... then they whisper and giggle and give each other looks... it's not over. It's not possible for Kevin amd me to have a marriage here with Lisa even if their 'thing' is over. Whatever their thing is... or was... and yes... I do believe they even had sex. I think it was more than an intimate... special friendship. Soooo... I told Angie all this.... I thought she knew. Aparently she didn't. I did tell her about the CD too... she was like... defendign LIsa. Like they said she would copy a song he wanted off it.. I was like... did you know what the song was about???? Anyway....
back to Branson, OK. Mom and Otto and Aunt TIna are coming with us.. SOOOOO Tell your Mom and Dad!!! Can't wait to see you guys!!! I am so excited! I don't know how I'll handle the heat... I get so sick here with my heart in the heat this year.... extreme tired. That's not even the word for how I felt... it's beyond tired... just weak. ANyway... I am planning on going too. Imagine that... traveling with Lisa... and her family and my family *giggling* ALL the IN-LAWS in one little caravan *giggling* ohmygoodness..... soap opera time...
aw... comic relief... does wonders!! *lol* I better get going. So much to do. SO little time before we leave... I will attempt to call tonight if it's not too late. Kevin and his girlfrienda are going to be at the church mowing the lawn tonight... don't know how late he'll be here. If it's nto too late I'll call.
*sending hugs*
Love ya! Cyndi
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