They�ll stab you in the back Every single chance they have They don�t care if it hurts They never really did before But, they say they�re your friends And they use you, and abuse you I don�t want friends like this And I don�t need them either But, will they admit two faces? Only when out of excuses Unwillingly, not to those they hurt It used to be so different to earn The trust I held close to my heart However, lately I�ve let some in Trusted them, because I care So, they call me namesSay things to put me down Try to make me angry or sad Or trying to make me look bad Slowly, the goodness leaves me And, I�m not sure it will return Each time it takes longer to heal But I grow stronger and one day they�ll see That abusing the friendship I offered Was a mistake because my true friends Would have me to stand beside them No matter what, I don�t back down For my friends, I�d give my life But, would they give theirs for me? Only one would, and I�d marry her if I could But, I guess it�s good to have a best friend Even if it is not a romantic relationship.

Where are the ones you love? When you need somebody to talk to They are the ones who care about you When nobody else seems to know Who you are or where you�re from What you�ve been through or when The details of your life, the tragedies Happy moments, sad times; joy and grief They stand beside you � think and thin They�ll help you when you need it They�re not afraid to ask for help You share secrets, fears, and passions They�ll put their lives on the line In an attempt to save yours Sacrifices are without thought Su much trust, no room for lies Forgiveness is imperative, important Thoughts are unspoken, yet heard They believe in you, encourage you They remain your friend forever Though loves, children, life, death They know when you�re happy, sad They know when you�re healthy, sick They are the blood in your veins And the breath in your lungs Without support, we all suffer So, who are these people I speak of? They are Best Friends� Who else?

We tend to forget too easily The little things that others do Out of the kindness of their heart To help us out or ease our pain But we never seem to forget Those who hurt or anger us Memories that eat away our existence I will not say that I am better Making no claims that I am different Because I keep anger and pain inside Just the same as everybody else However, I try so hard to remember Those minor things, insignificants Seemingly unimportant favors That others do for me, friends Family will do anything possible After all, that is what they�re for My pain and anger builds up Then all comes out at one time Leaving destruction behind I don�t like it this way But, what choice do I have? You cannot answer this Nor can I answer it Just remains to be seen

The snow falls all around me As I drift slowly to the ground Thinking to myself �life�s not so bad� He watched with a sad smile As my legs gave out under me And the world slowed down Almost standing still I watched the trees grow The bushes turn into forests The fresh snow broke my fall And it broke my back I felt nothing more, then I do not worry or fear � I am free Beside me, I hear a loud �thump� So, I look with my mind My body lies motionless It is dead now, still A pistol lying on the ground Smoke rolling from the barrel Silently, I thank him for the release It was not anger or jealousy It was his duty, his job A favor he was repaying I helped him when he was in need A favor for a favor received This, above all, was true friendship Though life isn�t eternal, friendship is Thank you! Thank you! The sun begins to rise I sense it�s yellow warmth But, I do not feel the heat My eyes remain open I see all and know all. Still alive Not living, but still here Still somebody, something Now, I begin to understand My existence has just begun

To new friends, I write these words A promise, like every time before I will stand beside you, for all time No matter where you go, what you do I will always be there for you When you need a shoulder to cry on Or, just somebody to listen to you When there seems like no reason to go on And you need to know that others care I will give you words of encouragement When you aren�t sure you can do something Because I know that you can do it All you really have to do is believe You will always be on my mind A permanent part of my heart and soul A special place in my thoughts I will love you as if you were family And I will trust you with my life I will share with you my fears You will hear my hopes and dreams So, how does it feel to be my friend?

It�s a difficult thing which I must do Though it never seems the right time There is somebody I like, but it won�t work The time isn�t right, the emotions all wrong I am still not healed from so long ago I am not ready, I cannot trust, I cannot love Not yet, maybe not ever, yet still I hope It is not something that she has done or said But I know if I use those words They will be taken wrong, misunderstood So, here I sit, desperately searching now For a way to explain what it is I feel I do not want to lose the friendship However, it is a possibility I can�t deny Without intention, I feel I�ve led her on I just don�t feel anything, although I�ve tried So, how do I tell her, and not break her heart? I certainly wish the answer would appear But, while I wait, I will keep searching Unfortunately, the longer I wait, the worse it�ll be And, I foresee the sad loss of a good and true friend

There are times when I am surprised By my own actions, as if it is instinct Guiding my way, leading me by hand Not affording me any other options As I find myself helplessly drawn in Doing things that are not my way Even though these actions are harmless It still bothers me, that lack of control Not being able to choose what I do, when The usual thought-out plans � wasted; gone This time, the watch stopped for a moment Everything stood completely motionless There was a moment of total perfection Feeling as though nothing could go wrong Knowing only too well, that�s not the way Unexpectedly, something happened, though Unforeseen, yet not unwelcome, eyes met A whole conversation passed between us Though not a single word was spoken It was a rare moment of understanding We both felt the need, the want, the hunger Companionship and a loving, caring hand Each of us yearning for trust, friendship Possibly even something slightly more Neither would know the outcome of our meeting But, it seemed to become clear as time passed In an instant, we were as close as we could be Two strangers meeting, perhaps by chance Or, less likely so, fate may have stepped in Then, as quick as it began, it was over � done There are no hard feelings at all, but� There started a new friendship that night