The chill wind stings my eyes, filled with tears But, the coldness inside is so much greater Because the one I love above all others Has gone from my side, disappeared forever It came as a complete surprise to all An untimely death, or was it just her time? I think I shall never really know the truth Oh, why was she taken from me, especially now? With the proof of our love only hours old The fruit of our happiness, our dreams come true Our baby, our beautiful child, our daughter Her mother gave her life, so that our child could live And experience all that life has to offer to her To pass on her wisdom, love and what she�s learned To all who meet her, her children, and her husband As I look around me, I see a city, big and bright The sounds and the sights drowned out by memories Remembering three happy, content years together Not really long enough for us to become one But hour by hour and day by day Our love grew stronger, higher, and truer We opened our hearts, our minds, and our souls To offer to each other those things which only we could And together, we created Autumn Elizabeth A beautiful name for a beautiful face, a beautiful girl A sparkle in my eye and the joy in my heart Never again shall I love another so true Her vision will never fade; she lives on in our baby Mother�s nose and eyes, and her delicate features Her smile, her beauty, so unimaginably similar The pain and despair will lessen in time But, always in my heart, the loneliness will be I�ll never forget the woman who took a chance on me

The sun shines warm against my face For the first time ever, I feel complete Into my world, a child has just come Made from the flesh and love that I share With the woman of my dreams, my dearest She is my daughter, my happiness, and my joy The most beautiful, perfect little girl in the world And nothing on earth could bring me down now From this high that can never be matched I am on top of the world, the king of the hill There are no words to express my true thoughts For the moment, there is no pain, suffering, or death No hate, or despair. No murder, or disease There is only sunshine. Blue skies, puffy clouds Smiling faces everywhere, children playing People are dancing or walking hand in hand Loving and laughing and everything is good I know this is not real, how I see things now But, if it weren�t for dreams and visions There�d be no reason for living, no purpose to life Survival would be an option, and not very popular And our species of humanity would cease to exist What would the planet be like without us here? Maybe it would be better, or maybe worse But let us not worry, because it is not so We are, we were, and we always will be And as long as our individuality is secure So will be our future on this satellite of the Sun

There is a void in my soul, an emptiness of which I do not know the origin. To find that which is missing from my life, I must be patient. It is not something I choose to do, but rather a decision that was made for me to follow. For, if I was the maker of this choice, I would to know now what this hole is and where it came from. To know how to fill in the crack that is the wholeness of he who is myself. Could it be love? And, if so, love for myself or for another? If another, is it a woman or a child? Maybe, more than one of both, or either. I feel as though there is no point in life. As was written or said many times: �The only sure things in life are birth and death�. What lies in-between is unimportant. Who can say what this blackness is that is missing from my entire being? From my life?