Are you enjoying this lazy day? I am, and I am hoping that you are having a good swim in my uterus, sipping on raspberry leaf tea! I think last night you must have been dancing on my bladder, because I got up every 20 min. to pee! I guess you are just giving me practice, so that my sleep cycles will be all set for when you arrive! I can't express how joyful I am, even though I try...but I know you feel it within me...its funny, that until we told your fathers mother about pregnancy, I never once felt nauseous or this tired, but I guess that it has nothing to do with that and all to do with the fact you are growing larger and more hungry! I guess it seems a bit more real, now that its official and everyone knows...but I feel I get a bit defensive at times, mothers protective instinct coming out already....especially when I feel attacked for the way I intend to birth you. But I know what you want, and I know in my heart and in my bones what is right...and I will follow that instinct and not be swayed by everyone elses ignorance and fear. Its just hard sometimes to not get angry when I feel interfered with. I know you understand. I am trying my best to remain calm and centered at all times, and I am succeeding
for the most part! I can't wait to hold your precious little body next to mine! How beautiful it will be...and how perfect!
~Your Starmother
to the pitter patter stain
on my little brain,
while I sit and think of you...
I let the wind blow in,
to my happy hungry grin
thru the pore of my skin,
while I feel the beautfy of you...
The sun is hiding today,
speaking in tones of grey
and trying just to say,
that I crave the light of you...
And here I strain my eyes,
to see the smiling skies
to watch the dream pass by,
while embracing the truth of you...
I love you with my beating heart,
I love you with my bodyparts
and with my silly soulspark,
And wait for the birth of you...
~Puella Eterna 22May05