STOP IT

The TV and the radio are yelling to me
Move on turn the lights off
And I know I should
Try to sleep without thinking


The clock alarm rings and I walk near it
I laugh at it cuss I was already up
And I don't even bother any more
I'm certainly bending some rules


If I refuse to get help
I know I'm free
But I have lost hope
I've lost the minimum hope I always had
What can you say that would make it come back
I don't think the past will get fix
But I don't believe you can move on in life
If the past is a mess


I mean I'm still thinking about it
You can talk
You can yell
But I'm done
I'm done
I want to sing too
I want to yell too
I'm done with being the only one
Who lives for others


You can say I think I'm an angel
But I know I'm not an angel
I'm a saint
For still thinking of you
You can say I think I'm god
But I know I'm not god
I just tried to make things work
And they didn't
Starting from zero is not a choice
When you can remember it all


And I'm sorry for myself too
For thinking so much in you
For not doing things for fear
For fear of being human


How come I can forgive everybody
But I can't forgive myself
And I'm not an angel
I don't even know why
I focussed all my accumulated energy in you
But I'm no shrink
And you are no shrink either
So stop it.