CAN I JUST DIE?

can I just die
I keep yelling aloud
I love you all
but you won't see me die
cuz you didn't notice me
suffering


Hell is inside me
my mind is my worst friend
she yells run and enjoy
wasting the last hours you own
And I don't care I'm tearing
cuz you didn't know
the person I am now


you didn't know me at all
and it was not your fault
My decision is decision
My destiny was not wrote
I just regret knowing now
so many things I should
have known back then


And the pain of regretting
the pain of remembering
And I didn't choose you
but I choose to leave
without you
and it's killing me


I don't want you
to follow me
Listen
I don't want you
to follow me this time
I just want you to be happy
and do it cuz I love you
I love you in goods and bads
please don't do what I did
my decision was my decision
I just couldn't deal with it
And I could not deal with you following me


I know you know
the pain of caring even
when they hate you
The pain of thinking they hate you
even when they don't


I just can't deal with me
I'm a perfectionist and it all
went down hills since 2001
I just want to die
can I just die
I just want to stare at the sky and sun
for the rest of my life.