WHY DID I FALL INTO THE PAST?

I'm a patient of my own
since I was very young
I've been taking care for myself
since I was very young
I've learnt not to belong


The patrons and processions
are not compatible with my mind
consequences and understandment
kept my health strongly;
I was better dealing
with the difference
of two point views as I moved
carefully to the next situations
with ideas of respect installed in my mind


And I did not want
to reduce my own expectations
So I thought carefully when to
take a dream out of the box;
It was an evolution to hold on
I saw acceptance as my medicine
But my family, friends and nurses
told me what I need
I heard the doctor hear himself
I heard for the first time
when I thought maybe I'm not able no more
I was confuse when they said
The treatment is working fine


And I'm tired of fighting
I'm no one to blame them
I'm sick of hearing people sneaking in
I'm just sick
And all the noises made me deft
I don't hear by choice
and I don't want shots of a treatment I did not choose
Why did I fall into the past
Why did I call them
I can't deal with what they think
They see me as a toy.