10 PM

I don't know
believe me
I don't know
I wanted you
But I couldn't do it
I can't do it again.

I want you to say something
before I go insane.


All the energy I used
trying to picture us
together and now
I'm empty thinking carefully
of the right terms to tell you
what I needed.


My conclusion is that
I'm not good for you
I realized that sitting in your porch last night
as the lights went on and off
the rain started falling from the sky
and I knocked over and over again
but you were not home at eleven p.m.
And I couldn't tell
what my thoughts were before ten.


I could have waited
but felt like a completely stalker
I'm trying to find the way
the right words to tell you
how I feel about you.


Yesterday I walked away
and today I feel so empty
I gave a conclusion to myself
that was the easy one
the one fear created
this morning I remembered it all
and I'm stuck right were I was
at ten p.m. last night.