TIRED

My skills I like
Even when my arms can't fly
I see myself as strong as human can get


There are things I can't do
People I have to walk away from
Phone calls I can't answer to
Excuses like I won't break my values
Always the same results keep me awake
But my moral is important to me
Even when it keeps me from success


I know
It's not an universal fault
It's just that
A fault
& it just not me to step in that floor


Even when I'm right
I have to go someplace else
I don't ever care that much
To ache for something
I don't even know I�d like
Fight against 50 year old doctors
Just because I choose not to take my pants out


And when I least expect it
People I don't even know
Start to show me love
They seem so polite
So respectful and caring
But There is only one voice
that could make me smile
But I can't hear it
'own ego thinking'
So I'm here choosing not to
Cuz this time
I don't know that would even work


Well yesterday I didn't fight
I called him a perv in his mouth open face
I followed everything I was taught
He might had missed some ethical classes from med school
But the moral and respect of privacy,
consent I�m sure his mother covered
As my mind so tired starts prejudging
about how he might have been salivating all over her while growing up
as how he saw and felt a nice physiologic difference
that made him think he could get away with whatever he did
I'm sure that's his family fault so many ego feeding compliments
And I know it's love,
even when they helped him
when he should have done things himself
And it's their fault for not seeing
'choosing to be blind'
Nothing is 100% perfect
So it's their fault as much as the piggys
cuz I�m sure they are still really proud of their son
the doc


I'm told not to feel sorry for myself but
I'm not selling myself
All I see is how everyone doesn�t like me
Sometimes I feel like rolling on the floor laughing
But it's actually not funny after seeing all those crazy sings stacked in my front head


What about my support
my family hates me
that's when they don't need anything
They say I fight against everyone
But I just don't like the system


I guess free minds can decide
some go with the flow
others walk away as losers
in the world of the unethical
But The war I see as I stand in the front line
is just there hurting me day pass day
But I can't fight
Cuz I won't die
So I wont fight with you
nor against you either
'even when you yell'
So please don't advice me
Just hear me please
I'm tired
I'm just tired
Let me contradict myself
Let me feel sorry for myself
Let me feel right when
I don't sell myself.