NO IDEA HOW TO HELP YOU

I felt it on the way
I know you knew I was there
I've been in rides avoiding the road view before
I've kissed goodbye forever before
But losing you was devastating


And I knew it was happening again
I had been in those white halls before
I have said goodbye forever before


And you would think
You get used to the adrenaline by the third time
But you never do
you want to believe so bad that you say we can we can


So that Saturday
I opened the door and I saw you
Like I've seen them before
And ran to hug you and kiss you
I kissed you more times than ever
I didn't know those would be the last times forever
Those times don't seem enough now


I knew you wanted to talk but couldn't
I know you felt me near
I saw you moving your arm
when I was drying my tears


So I ran to hold those precious hands
And I kissed your chick and you blinked
But you never opened your eyes again
You closed your eyes in front of me forever


And I wanted to cure you but
I thought in my mind you could hear me say
You can go if you have to
I love you


And I knew whatever I'd ask for would not help
I remember thinking I don't want you in this bed
I remember saying I hate this place


But now you have been gone for two weeks
And I have a box with your last bends
And I have a cross on my neck
And I'm trying really hard to believe you are in someplace nice
But I have no idea how to help you
I have no idea what to do
I have no idea how to face this guilt.