YELL

So what about me
So what about me
I wish I could not longer hear
I wish I was already gone


So I get discriminated from them
Blood that its the same when it comes to them
I wish everybody could care
I wish I had listen to myself
The first time I yelled I'm gonna leave


I learn to yell
For so long I could not accept myself


When I came back
I had to deal with their actitude
I had to listen them yell
And it felt like I could not breath
All the memories came back
I had to leave


Sometimes
I wished I was invisible
I wished they would have never wanted a baby
I wished they could feel
What it felt to see your parents eyes staring
Like you came up horrible
Like they got an angry soul
Like the package got mixed with s*** from behind


When they said I should do whatever they thought I should do
I wish you could hear the words they used
I wish they could have listen to the subliminal messages they were sending
All I ever heard is they wanted to change me
SO many tips so many questions so many advises such an intrusion
When they talked I heard that they didn't like me



Since I was a child I felt they wanted to return me
The fights the blames the yells
I went back because I changed what they taught me
I believed they could change too


But it didn't work
I either felt sorry for myself
Or I left and continued the silence


I wish I could understand what pulls me back
Everytime I think I can forgive.