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| by Ocean It's time to break out the coffee (Starbucks preferrably) and some M & M's and start waxing poetic...here we go!! |
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| Cotton new!! All these cotton people One hundred percent pure Twenty five percent sure In the store, on the racks They look so perfect So inviting You take them home Without checking the tag You just know they�re Your size Worn once, washed once Suddenly, they don�t fit anymore Too small, too ugly Choking off your air supply and Blood flow to your brain Can�t turn back No returning them to the store You burned your receipt Give them all to someone else Maybe they�ll fit her. Shattered new!! Sweeping up the shattered vase Tears run down her jaded face Smiling brightly to hide the pain Trying to hide in the pouring rain She searches for her mind and soul But this journey has taken its toll It�s drained her life And filled it with strife Her frail body cannot hold much longer She wishes she could have been stronger Just enough to stop the hurt Just enough to sweep away the dirt Instead she cracked And now for all the world to see She starts to cry And she is me. Epitome new!! I thought you were real I thought you were true The epitome of a friend Was what I saw in you After all this time, Your veil tore away Your face is so dull You have nothing to say Your eyes are blank With meaningless stares All you�ve told me are lies How can this be? You make me want to cry You were so perfect So painfully real Why couldn�t you have been The epitome Of who I wanted to be? Losing new!! I�m losing my smile Losing my touch I�m losing my faith- I haven�t got much. I�m losing my laugh Losing my shine I�m losing my spirit- It�s not so divine. I�m losing my sparkle Losing my soul I�m losing my hope- That wasn�t my goal. I�m losing myself Losing my life I�m losing you- And it�s cutting me like a knife. She When you call her name She runs and appears in front of you Rearranging her life just for you When you ask her for a favor It's done as quickly and as neatly As it could possibly be When you need help She's there guiding you Every step of the way When you need a friend She's there, listening And not judging you But as time goes on Her name wears out And fades away to a Dim glimmer Now when you call her name She's not there When you ask her for a favor She doesn't complete the task When you need help You're on your own When you need a friend She's not all there As time goes on She's blown away With the rest of the words On the page Reality I don't want to hear What she just said Can't it all just be my Imagination in my head? Of course not The cruel bright ray Of reality comes And invades my dark day I'm trying to shut it out And stop the voices But it's not working In my eyes I see no choices Only that blinding ray Beating on my eyes Forcing me to see the truth And see no more lies Trying to force back My smile of pain The tears in my eyes Feel like rain I nod slowly Trying not to wince As i feel my heart broken in two But I will decieve you-I will convince You that I am just fine I could care less That your feelings for me Give me no stress In your eyes I'm your friend Nothing more So that's what I'll be to the very end Untitled I've spent so much time on you My like for you over time grew Into something I couldn't explain But now I realize it was all in vain Now I see there was no chance No single kiss, no one last dance No future together, no fond memories Though I fantasized as much as I pleased I want to let go, I want to be free But I can't let go, you'll always be with me That piece of my heart will never let go Yet I must move on and never let show My feelings for you that I couldn't deny So finally, I now say goodbye Untitled I thought that you were kind and sweet Laying eyes on you was always a treat Back then, a few mere months ago I was young and naive, but I now I know That just because a guy is fine Doesn't mean he'll stay in line You acknowledge my presence When your friends aren't around But when you're with a crowd You act as if we'll never break ground Now that really pisses me off you see You thinking that you can mess with me Think again my friend Your time in my life is at an end But before you go I want to hurt you so Not physically-no, that's so not me But emotionally-yes I want to make you bleed I want to make you feel the pain Or maybe the hurt or maybe the strain But what I want you to feel the most my dear Is the guilt of giving me anguish and fear The guilt of not treating me right The guilt of giving me stress and strife And I want you to regret that you never took the time To get to know a person-me-deep inside Please I'm sitting here thinking and I don't know what to do Will you make what you talk about absolutely come true? I need to find some answers, I have to find out why I have to figure out why you feel you have no one to confide You've talked about doing this so many times before People are beginning to think it's all a great big bore I'm worried about you, I can't stop caring And wondering when you'll shed that dark cloak of death you're wearing You don't need to go yet, you belong here in this world All your future plans have not yet been unfurled So please-please don't leave me I can't act like everything is fine and peachy I will miss your smile And those phone conversations that went on for awhile Don't do this-it's not the answer-don't you see? You'll only make your loved ones bleed. The Moment I must gather up all the courage I can muster I must act cool and aloof and not totally flustered I've waited for this moment for days and for weeks It's what's keeping my life from becoming dull and bleak I've thought it all over and over in my mind It's you I've been seeking and never did find Now I must hope that I won't chicken out Because my mind is filled with fright and doubt Will you think I'm psycho or dumb? Or maybe I'll trip and fall flat on my bum But I will go on With the scene in my head perfectly drawn And I will speak those words to you And hope the scene will come true Untitled Why am I feeling this way about you? I really need to know if these emotions are true I'm spinning around But my feet are still on the ground I blush and look down when you look in my direction Could I maybe-possibly-be the object of your affection? All there is is doubt in my mind What in me could you possibly find? My friends say a lot But I say not But maybe this time things will go right At the end of the tunnel I hope there's a light A Snowflake That day, a snowflake hit my eye And you were still in my life We spun around together Laughing despite the weather Breathless with excitement Nothing could ruin that moment Now I walk alone Without you by my side A snowflake hits my eye And it hurts enough to make me cry Because you are no longer in my life. Torture The day starts out pretty okay But spirits take a quick nosedive When a loud clanging signals my impending doom Defeated, I trudge down the hall A heavy burden on my back I climb onto the smelly bus Before we leave, select people Race away, given sudden freedom I look longingly at those free souls And the bus pulls away Driving me closer and closer to my destination Once entered in the dark slimy building I shed my outer shell Along with my other companions Only to dive into a pool of torture Again and again I shower, trying desperately to Wash the stink of gloom away I emerge from that dark and slimy building Cold, shivering, but with a sense of triumph I am still alive Flicker Creeping so softly Into my head Releasing feelings of Forthcoming dread The candlelight flicker Brings shadows to life Dancing and playing Their way into the night Casting darkness on my features Changing my face The reflection in the mirror Seems out of place My eyes-they turn blue My eyebrows-they arch My nose becomes pointed My face turns white as starch This reflection so sinister Is not my own I stare at it horrified And let out a slight groan A hand reaches out I scream and I scream It grabs my arm This can't be real-it's a dream The grip remains firm Then the lights come on The face, the hand, the arm- It's all gone Bleed This is me Here I am Bleeding on the floor I'm stuck, I can't move Myself toward the door I try to push and I try to pull I try to try and I try to drag But there's a pounding in the back of my skull It's dull at first But my head feels like it's gonna burst And I feel a hungry needy thirst For what I don't know But it lies just beyond that door My thoughts are lost in a flurry of snow Blindly I stumble across the room Trying desperately to escape the gloom And this place that feels like a tomb The door falls away And sunshine appears The start of a brand new day I find the thing to quench my thirst I find myself immersed In what I needed all along For now I'm happy and strong But I may slip back And with a final smack I might begin to bleed again I Thought I thought that you were meant for me But you were always out of reach With every smile, word and touch I began to love you very much It's no use, they all would say He would never love you anyway I got discouraged and started to cry Asking myself, Why me, oh why? Now I see that they were right And even though I lost the fight I love you still Always have and always will |
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