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So I sit here watching water turn to wine
And its tasting pretty dry my tears and pack up what's mine
Then try to figure out why she always does this, goes her seperate way
Then screams from the other side with someone else who'll say she lied, she never loved me anyway
Now I sit here watching my T.V.
But there's never anything on and on and on these thoughts run through me
Then suddenly they're gone away I left her for life out there
To be a little more sane or not it was all in vain, for her I would go anywhere
You turned around and walked away without thinking twice
After everything I let you put me through, you know, that's not very nice
Again I sit here, this time not alone, her time has run out west I found someone to call my own
But I dont think I'll ever love a man the way that I loved you, if that makes any sense
I think I'll stay here on this fence...I'm not sure if any of this is true
You turned around and left me with this disease
Photographs, scrap paper and fading memories
Ode, Part II 06/02
She wakes up every morning and brushes her long black hair
Powders and pills and smokes cigarettes while she decides what to wear
She looks beautiful on the outside til' she hangs her head to cry
She says I was born so smart and so pretty and no one knows why
I can't get myself together, but I can't stay like this forever, I'm just not up to the task
I just want a house in the hills, someone to pay all my bills, is that too much to ask?
She lives all by herself now in a little house downtown
Its never a pretty scene anymore when she comes around
There's always gotta be a problem, someone that's done her wrong
Life just so unfair, just one long sad, sad song
Come on, get yourself together or you'll stay like this forever..try to have a little heart
Why don't you try keeping it real, telling me how you feel, 'cause you're tearing me apart
Dont you care about the trail of broken hearts you leave?
Or the people trapped in the tangled web you weave?
Can't you see I love you more than anyone else would dare?
You wanna talk about unfair???
St. Vincent of Apathy 02/04
St. Vincent of apathy doesnt come to see me anymore
He stood behind a closing door years ago
But I miss him so
St. Vincent of apathy decided he'd walk away from me one night
Then come back when it felt right, well, anyway
What can I say?
Now he calls once a year or so
He says he loves me but I dont know if he means it
I guess it kinda seems it could be true
Sometimes I think that I might love him too
St. Vincent of apathy isnt who he used to be unwell
Though sometimes its hard to tell the truth from the lies
When I look in his eyes
St. Vincent of apathy told me that he'd marry me one day
If nothing better came his way, I let it go because
That's just how he was
Now he calls once a year or so
He says he loves me but I dont know if he means it
I guess it kinda seems it could be true
And sometimes I think that I might love him too
