Yesterday I cheated on a friend. He was not a good friend. But an understanding mutual. He knew of me. And her feelings for me. And my feelings for her. I don't know what I was thinkin. Or what I was doing. But I know that she was your love, and even though I had no right or no reason, to have done what I did. I do not believe in what I have just done. I have just become one of the things I hate. A hypocrit, A cheat, An accomplice in a cheat, and an elaborator of the reality. I know saying that she is my true love and that we love each other is no reason or an answer to what I did. Because there was also love in what you had. And I had no right to interfere nor did i have the right to destroy or dismember what I have done. Cause the feeling I have for her will never change. It will never be diminished. But your feelings are also a present day matter, in this horrific discovery upon your part. And I know deep down inside, you could literally kill or diminish me with the palm of your spirits. Cause I know that you are an equilibriam to me. With both having a love shining in the dark. Like a lost soul she does not no which one to choose and I don't know if I should force myself to turn off my light or not.
To a mutual to an equilibriam. I offer my apology. But I beg of you do not expect. Because I deserve to wallow in my shame. I deserve to die with an hopeless cause and a lonley side. For my actions last night. Made me what I choosed not to be. And what had wished never to become. To my mutual I am sorry
Forever A Mutual
Joe Adams a.k.a. bO-bO |
