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| Dead Planet |
| In a crowded room Of family friends I am strangley isolated Alone Alone with my terrible secret Alone with the coldness of sorrow, hate, guilt, and confusion This is the result of my secret Others see a huge warm sun, radiating life and joy I am, in truth a small frozen planet not a strong bright happy sun But a small lonley dead planet Living on the outside peering in Yearning to tell, to unbirden myself My lies facade of my character I am what others would like me to be But I'm not, I am all a pitiful lie Insecure and scared confused and sad cold and alone I want to die The barriers I have put up are powerful to try and brake them is painful It hurts to much I tried but I cannot do it You see I was hurt Someone broke my trust Irionically I cannot trust you enough to tell you I cannot trust that you'll care That you won't hurt me Like the twin towers I cannot be hurt These walls are impenatrable you canot get past As soon as you get to close I turn on my mechanical smile And I am saved from hurt My past has cought up with me I am now suffering the pain That I escaped all those years ago My defense mechanism fails There is no other option But to end it I have tried a few times But failed I pray that next It hase the desired result RELIEF ESCAPE DEATH |
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