| Tuesday, May 09, 2000 at 07:31 PM (CDT) Dear Friends, It is with broken hearts that we share the very sad news that Jordyn peacefully left her mother's arms and was carried by the angels into Jesus'arms at 5:00am EST Monday morning, May 8. She was not in any pain and passed quietly in her sleep. Her daddy got home in time from Ohio to lovingly hold her before she was taken to the funeral home. She is now running and playing happily with Morgan and Christopher and all the other precious children who have finished their battles with this beast, and though God did not answer our prayers the way we had so hoped, we know that He has healed her completely and is holding her close in Heaven. We left this afternoon to take Jordyn home to Kansas to be buried with her relatives in the family plot in the cemetary in Christy's hometown. Her viewing will be on Thursday and her service will be on Friday at the funeral home. We will be placing her favorite things with her in her casket; her little bag of wintergreen lifesavers, her Pooh bear, our picture, and her picture of Jesus. Thank you so much for all your love and prayers, we are so very grateful for all of you. Please pray for us as we say goodbye to our beloved Jordyn. Don't think of her as gone away, Her journey's just begun. Life holds so many facets, This earth is only one Think of her as living in the hearts of those she touched. For nothing loved is ever lost and she was loved so much. Our Sweet Angel Jordyn March 30, 1998 to May 8, 2000 We love you so much. Friday, May 12, 2000 at 09:20 PM (CDT) Well, I don't know where to begin. Jordyn passed away Monday May 8, 2000. I was home alone with her, we were sleeping. I woke up at 5:00 am and she had just taken her last breath. We kept her home with us until Chad got her home from Ohio. I had many friends over with us, which helped, some. Jordyn was taken to the funeral home around 2:30 that afternoon. We flew home to Kansas, Tuesday afternoon. We were able to go see her that evening when she got to our funeral home in Holton. Then we had the viewing Thursday from 7-8 pm, and the funeral was today at 1:00 pm. It was very hard to leave her and let them close the casket, I felt like my world had honestly just ended. I really have no words to describe the pain and sadness I have right now. I would do anything to bring her back, but I know that I can't. I do not understand why God had to call her home, I don't feel like it was her time to go, but that was not left up to me, as we can see. Jordyn did go peacefully and had such a wonderful day on Sunday, which we are so very thankful for. I have no regrets with Jordyn. She was my everything, and I would have done it all over again, I was her mommy, nothing else. I am going to try to get the letter/speech I read today at her funeral, and put it on here, along with the poems that were read. I will also list the music that was played. I feel very happy with the way it all went, I think it was a beautiful service and believe it is how Jordyn would have liked it. There was of course a lot of tears, but laughter too! Jordyn was full of laughter and happiness, and I want all to remember that! She has the most beautiful smile any child could have. She knew how to lite up a room when she was in it, and now she is lighting up the sky! When you look up the sky and see the stars twinkling, know that Jordyn is looking down on us! Her smiles will always be here! Remember the good times, the bad were so seldom and few. Look for her smiles and smile too. Hear her laughter, and laugh too! I will try to update early next week, please continue to come here and look at her pictures, I will continue to update them and share with you our beautiful precious "ANGEL"! She now rests peacefully in our Lords arms. Thank you for all your support and love, it has meant so much, please keep sharing with us, we do need a lot of support right now,and reading your loving words does truly help! God Bless all of you and look upon the Lord. Jordyns' mommy forever leukemia free Thursday, May 18, 2000 at 12:29 PM (CDT) Hi everyone, well I have been trying to decide how to do this and what to say, I am going to just go from my heart. I think that many of you were at Jordyns' funeral not physically but spiritually and I want to share it with you, now. This will be long and it may be hard to read, but I pray that you will read it. Coming up is the letter/speech that I wrote and read at her funeral, poems read by Chad, Jordyn's Mammaw ( my mom, Madeline) and her Unlce Fool, ( my brother Phil). There is also a poem one of my best friends wrote, it is a poem that is supposed to be Jordyns' words and ours her parents. I am also inclosing the songs that were played and when. Before I do all of it, I am going to let you know that I will not be proof-reading it, so if there are gramicall errors and spelling just bare with me! I think I will be doing good, just to get it wrote out, ok? Good. Thank you all for your love and prayers. Christy Jordyn Ahsleigh Fitzpatrick was laid to rest on May 12, 2000. She left this earth and joined God and so many others May 8, 2000 at 5:00 am, in her mothers' arms... Prelude...Music... I Will Be Here Song... Holes In the Floor of Heaven Scripture Reading by pastor Terri Eaton Family Realtionship " Prayer " Song....Jesus Wants Me For A Sunbeam Family Memories Shared: 1) Daddy, Chad read: Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there, I do not sleep. I am a thousand wind that Blow. I am a diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the mornings hush, I am the swift uplifitng rush of quiet birds in circled flight, I am the sft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry, I am not there, I did not DIE. ( not sure of author) Speech/letter by Christy ( mommy): Today as I look at all of you, I see only a part of hte people who loved Jordyn and who Jordyn touched. Jordyn was a little girl with amazing spirit. She may have only been 2 years old, but she lived better than some who live to be over 102! She found ways to make the angriest people happy! Jordyn lit up my life, and by having so many of you here, I know she lit up your life too! Jordyn was more than a child with AML leukemia, she was also a "normal" 2 year old little girl! She threw her temper tantrums, when she didn't get her way. She loved to laugh and smile, and Jordyn was so happy! She loved to have her picture taken! What an amazing girl she was. Jordyn has a best friend her name is Sarah B. Sarah has a rare brain tumor is 1 out of less than 10 surviors. She would ask people, "Please pray for my best friend, Jordyn." Sarah is only 7! As I think back and try to pinpoint those ever so special moments, it's amazing the memories! The first time she said, "mommy, I love you." She wanted some cheese out of the fridge and she got it! :) How when we were in Germany at Homburg University Clinic and she would have tea parties with her dr. Dr. Graf. How she got her Walter Reed dr, Dr. Mosijeck ( I know I misspelled his name, sorry!), and to band down and kiss her hand, after Nurse Debbie taught her to stick her hand out to people! Those are only a few of the thousands of precious memeories I have of my special little girl, Jordyn. Jordyn has 2 dogs and a cat, BJ, Brittany, and Cassie. She loved those animals so very much! She could lay on Cassie, the cat, and that cat would do nothing, but lay there. Every once in a while you would her a slight, meow, but as soon as I would free her, she would be back rubbing against Jordyn! So we stopped saving her! hehe Jordyn loved to drive her Barbie Jeep she got from her Mammaw and Pappaw, loved to be read to, loved stickers. She also, loved "La-La", that is what she called all the Telletubbies, if she wanted to watch them on tv, she would go, "Mommy, La-La!" I can still hear her sweet voice! Also, Jordyn loved, Pooh and Barney! And Jordyn loved to sing! She had the sweeest voice, and I wouldn't be surprised if she is not up there in heaven singing with the angels, on high! If I could tell you one think, it is to remember Jordyn, was happy! Getting chemo, she would be running the halls, laughing, smiling and playing! She never, never stopeed laughing or smiling! Rmember the happiness of a beautiful, sweet, funny, and loving 2 year old little girl, we named Jordyn. Fot those of you who have children, DO NOT take them for granted! They are GODS', and you never know when he may come to bring them home with him again. Love them, cherish them. Raise them under Gods' love, the way God wants us to! Please help us to keep Jordyn alive. Smile and laugh everyday! Just know that she is in heaven and she went in peace. Never again will she feel pain. She will never be poked in the back, or be made to take medicines. She is surrounded in love up there! While she was here she lit up my life, now she lights up heavens. Poem read by her Mammaw Madeline: Don't think of her as gone away, Her journeys' just begun. Lofe holds so many facets, this eath is only one. Think of her as living in the hearts of htose she touched. For nothing loved is ever lost and she was loved so much. Our sweet Angel Jordyn. March30,1998 to May 8, 2000 Thank you Michele ( angel Katies' mom) Uncle Phil read this: "Special Angel" When God calls children to dwell with him above, we mortals sometimes question the wisdom of his love. For no heartache compares with the death of a child, who does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild. Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold, so he picks a rosebud, before it can grow old. God knows how much we need them, so he takes but a few, to make the land of heaven more beautiful to view. Beleiving this is difficult still somehow we must try. The saddest word mankind knows will always be "Goodbye". So weho are left behind must realize that God loves children, "Special Angels" are hard to find. - Author unknown to me- The next poem my friend Kandice wrote for Jordyn, and it was read by Pastor Terri Eaton. "God's Special Angel" A blessing was sent from up above, The day you were born we knew it was love. God sent you to us For us to cherish and learn For his message of prayer was his concern. Such a perfect baby, so cheerful and bright. We never thought you would go to the light. We want you here God wants you there, Where do you go, with whom do you share? I'm only a child, I'm not supposed to choose, To go to heaven or stay here with you? Why god wants me back for reasons I do not know, Just remember, I'll be happy wherever I go. We love you so dear, more than you will ever know, Please stay here, Please do not go. Mommy and Daddy, I'm sorry I have to leave, Please understand it's God's will for me. I see the Angels, now the time has come, For them to take me to my new home. We love you and if you must go, you will always be in our hearts and souls. You have brought us to God in Prayer You have touched so many lives out there. Please don't worry because the first thing I will do, is to ask God to make me an Angel to watch over you. It won't be my body here on earth, But my spirit will be inside of you For whatever it's worth. For your love brought me here to this earth. Now we can see you at night, dancing in the sky, As the stars twinkle we know that's you passing by. We want to let you know we still pray to our Heavenly Father up above who loves us so dear, who wanted you back so much. He acts in the most mysteriuos ways and we will always wonder: "Why did you take her away?" But we just want to let you know, Even though you are not here, Oh how much we love you so. Mommy and Daddy don't worry i already knew And I want you to know that I Love You, Too! With lots of love and wonderful memories of our Beloved Jordyn Kandice 5-12-00 Song...No Place That Far message... pastor Eaton Song... Tears In Heaven Let There Be Peace On Earth Closing Prayer Postlude... The Dance That was our goodbye. I am shaking and need to go, I will try to write ,more later. That day was full of love, and we feel it honored Jordyn well. We are thankful to Pastor Eaton, who also lost his son almost 2 years ago, to ALL leukemia. He and his wife Sherry have been tremedous support to my family and we are blessed to have them in our lives. Be happy when you think of Jordyn, and know she lived a happy and wonderful life, and we have only wonderful memories of her. God Bless all of you, and please keep my family in your prayers. Christy Saturday, May 27, 2000 at 03:11 PM (CDT) Hi all, well here we are 2 weeks after we buried Jordyn, and let me tell you what: the crap they tell you that it gets easier, WRONG! I miss Jordyn more today than any other day so far, it is only getting harder. I am looking to God for support and praying about a hundred times a day, for him to guide me through each second that I am alive. I feel an emptiness that I never knew existed, and a loneliness that no one can help. I miss and need my little girl, I miss my Jordyn. Jordyn, know that Mommy loves and misses you so much sweetie. I would do anything to have you here, healthy and happy. I miss your beautiful smile, the sound of you singing, I miss EVERYTHING about you. EVERYTHING! You are my everything, and always will be. You are my sweet baby girl! You are missed by so many people, your Daddy, your Mammaw and Pappaw,Unlce Phil (FOOL) aunt Misty, just everyone honey. I feel like I could just wake up and you will be there, but then you are not. I look at your pictures about a thousand times a day. Which is hard not to, because your picture is everywhere here at Mammaw and Pappaw's. And I know that once we get home, you will be there looking at else through your beautiful pics, all over the house. You know what Mommy is singing to you, right now, "You Are My Sunshine, My only sunshine you make me happy when skies are grey. You'll never know dear how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away. The other night while I was sleeping, I dreamed I held you in my arms, but when I woke up,I found you missing and I hung my head and cried" That was the song, Mommy always sang to you. And now looking at those words, oh Jordyn, how I miss you. Well, please we ask that all of you who are here visiting Jordyn's page, to 1. NEVER forget her 2. Spread her love to all 3. Fight for a cure. If there is a Relay For Life in your area, walk in it, raise money and help, all of us find a cure, so we can stop the deaths! This is a war that we MUST win! MUST! There are too many children and over all people dying! TOO MANY! So help us fight! This is a disease that some do beat, but always live in fear of (relapsing). Just please help us. Don't let Jordyn's death go invain. Help us in honor of Jordyn. If you do walk and would like to have a luminary dedicated to Jordyn, let me know and I will get you a picture of her! Spread the word! Jordyn was full of love and happiness. That is what we want people to remember about Jordyn. We have made a Memorial Garden here for Jordyn, and we ask that everyone of you who comes here, at least plant one flower in honor of Jordyn. She loved purple flowers. She was also very found of yellow! But, you know it really doesn't matter, she just loved flowers. She also loved to smell candles, so the next time you burn one, think of Jordyn. Her light is eternal, and she will always glow, long after the fire goes out, she will keep illuminating light! That is our Jordyn. God bless all of you, and maybe next week I will get new pics up of Jordyn. Be on the lookout. Also, if you would like, we have set up a photo album on-line, you will need to e-mail me personally and ask for the address, because I will not be posting it on this site! God BLess all of you, and look to the Lord, he is there, and he is now holding Jordyn close to him. Thank you for all your support, Christy PS, if you missed it, we had Jordyn's Funeral Service on here, so just go to the journal history, it is the one before this one! |
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