I know that depression has zapped my motivation the past few days.  Do you ever not want to get out of bed?  Do you ever just sit and waste the day?  That's what I've been up to.  I was even too lazy to blog.  I take medication for depression/anxiety but somedays it just doesn't seem to help.  This is one of those days.

I think that instead of being depressed and feeling hopeless about my troubles, maybe I need to get angry.  It's my understanding that anger can be a good motivator.  What the heck has happened to my anger?  Why don't I get even?  Maybe I know that those things have in the past caused me more problems.  Maybe those problems were better than this?  I can't even remember. 

My advice to me would be to get professional help.  I did that for nearly 20 years.  Now that we are retired we can't afford my psychocologist.  I won't start over with someone new.  So.......I guess that's why I'm writing about the feelings I have.  I hope it helps.  I know it has helped others to write about their pain. 

Today we can't go to the movies or anywhere else that costs money  because we can't afford it.  $%&*@+   Wish WE could take a long vacation, shirk responsibilities and try to have some fun.  Guess I need to buy a lottery ticket or "Get A Job".  Who wants to hire an old retired homemaker?   lolol    Here I sit depressed instead.

That's all for now.
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