Title: Seattle Knights: Book One: Proof of Life

Author: JINX Buffywatcher

Feedback: Constructive comments always welcome: [email protected]

Pairing: S/A

Rating: Strong R to maybe soft NC-17

Spoilers: Some for season 5 of Angel but diverges to AU post Destiny

Warnings: The usual warnings for slash, strong language, adult situations and what-not.

Disclaimer: Just borrowing them for a bit of harmless fun. All characters, recognisable likenesses are retained by their owner and accredited license holders.

Writer’s Notes: This story takes place in an AU setting. Please excuse any minor discrepancies or artist license. As always thanks are going out to GF, Myst, Salustra, Betsy, Sweet, Luba, Mandie, and Mera my most excellent group of Beta/Editors.

Writer’s Credits: This story features the following songs. ‘So it shall be’ by K.D. Lang. My daughter sent me the KD Lang song and it’s lovely so I thought it would make a fitting tune for this tale. Also used are excerpts from ‘When I’m gone’ by 3 Doors Down and ‘Push’ by Sarah McLachlan. Fans of Stargate may notice a semi-quote so kudos to the ones that can spot it ;o). There is a special bonus track also called the ‘Fields of Athenry’ by Mary Duff and Daniel O’Donnell. It’s a lovely folk song and if you would like to hear it you know the drill just drop me an email asking for the song :o).

Writer’s Dedication: For Myst, who has had a bad month so here’s an early Christmas/Birthday Gift from Mum to her Lil bear, hope you like it. ~JINXI~

Writer Websites: JINXI’s Archive At Shadows In A Mirror: FEVER DREAMS                                       

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Summary: Spike leaves after the events of Destiny to make a new life for himself but that’s difficult to do when the old one refuses to let him go. Sometimes destiny just won’t be denied.

 

Prologue

 

The doors of the elevator close and he slumps against the back wall, slowly sliding down it until he’s sitting on the floor. The fight with Angel has taken more out of him than he realised and his strength has flown. He’s grateful for the late hour as the elevator reaches the parking level without the inconvenience of stopping to pick up anyone else sparing him the need for embarrassing explanation or pitying glances.

 

He forces his muscles to obey and levers himself to his feet and out of the elevator before the doors can close again. He slides his hand over his duster pocket and he can feel the not insubstantial wad of carefully folded bills that Fred gave to him. He was shocked when the petite brunette gave him the money with a kiss on the cheek and left without a word. He pulls it out and counts it, his eyes widening as he counts forty one hundred dollar bills. He considers going back up to Fred’s office and returning at least a vast portion of the money to her but as he fans open the last bill a slender piece of paper falls out and he unfolds it.

 

“If it makes you feel better we’ll call this a loan but to me it’s a gift and I’d like you to accept it as one Spike. My cost of living expenses are covered by my contract with Wolfram & Hart and I have a generous allowance for sundries so I don’t have much to spend my salary on and trust me this only a small, very small fraction of my account and I’d like you to have it. It will make me feel good to know that at least some good has come out of working here so please take it.” Spike reads aloud quietly. “I’m not sure if the others will have thought about your needs now that you’re corporeal again but I’d feel better knowing you have options so please accept this, your friend Fred.” Spike looks at the address and two phone numbers listed at the bottom of the note and he’s touched that Fred would trust him that much.

 

He carefully refolds the note and the bills and slides it into his jeans pocket and he looks around the garage and realises that he has no idea where to go or what to do. He doesn’t belong here but does he belong anywhere else? He knows that Buffy was lying for his benefit when she said that she loved him in the Hellmouth, a hero’s send off. Drusilla will never take him back, he knows that while she may have overlooked the handicap of the chip she’d never overlook the perversity of his soul; Sire or not.

 

He leans weakly against a pillar, locking his legs to prevent sliding to the ground as he had in the elevator. If his past holds no refuge and his present holds no answers than maybe it’s time to let go of both of them and find a new path. He looks down at the black leather that has been both his armour and his shroud and he knows what his first move must be if he’s going to let everything go.

 

He slides the coat off and carefully cradles it across his forearms as he looks down at it. His nerves feel raw and exposed as though he’d removed his own skin and he smiles wryly to think that maybe that’s what he has done. He looks around and spotting the Viper he walks over and sets the duster carefully across the hood. No one is crazy enough to touch Angel’s favourite car; well other than him; so he knows that the coat will lie safely until Angel finds it.

 

He forces himself away from the Viper and looks at the other cars; he’ll need one to get around since his precious DeSoto went up like a roman candle when Sunnydale imploded. He spots a racy looking SS350 Camero in mint condition. The deep red paint is the colour of freshly shed blood and he’s sold. It takes him only a few moments to pick the door lock and only a minute longer to pop the hood and pull the anti-theft tracking device. He opens the door and sets it lightly on the passenger seat; he’s got an idea of what to do with that bit of technological wizardry. A bit of rewiring and the car starts smoothly without causing any major damage to the cherry vehicle and he’s rolling out of the Wolfram & Hart building a lot quieter than he entered it.

 

Chapter One

 

He glances towards the side of the road as another road sign passes advertising some small little town like the hundreds of others that have passed by his car windows. He’s been on the road travelling for almost two months and he’s crossed several states only to cross back and out again as he drives wherever takes his fancy along the back roads and small two or one lane highways that dot the landscape. The necro-tempered glass has turned the Camero into a rolling safe haven and he’s seen his share of lovely sunrises and sunsets and quaint little towns you probably wouldn’t find on any maps.

 

An enjoyable week long stop in Vegas was a pleasant diversion and a profitable one, as the four thousand Fred gave him was quickly seven hundred thousand by the end of his stay. He’s always enjoyed the edge that being a Vampire has given in certain games of chance like Poker and Blackjack, where his senses afford him hints of everyone’s hands. He’s never seen anyone that’s managed to hide their excitement at having a good hand physiologically even if they appear calm outwardly. Experience has allowed him to read and interpret such unconscious reactions and it only heightens the already superior empathy he seems to possess. There are few people that he can’t read well and they are often the ones that are too busy lying to themselves to even know where their own heads are at. Before he left the state he stopped at a rest stop where several large interstate semi-trucks were parked for the night, including one of the large trailers loaded with cars awaiting delivery. It was a simple matter to climb up in the dead of night and pick the lock on one of the trunks and secret the anti-theft tracker module inside and get away without being seen.

 

He knows that if they did try to use it to find him, they’d be chasing after first the truck and then whomever had the car he’d hidden the tracker in and all the time he’d be safely anonymous somewhere else. He wondered if he should contact Fred and let her know he was safe but decided it would probably be better to wait for a while in case they were trying to find him.

 

He waited until he was in Louisiana enjoying the humid New Orleans night when he decided to finally use the phone numbers Fred had graciously given to him but regretfully he didn’t get an answer from either. He decided to send his regards in another manner and took to the streets, searching for what he didn’t know but when he’d found it he’d know.

 

It took him the better part of two nights to finally find what he was looking for as he entered the small back alley shop that was far from the paths travelled by the tourists. A grizzled old man looked up from a cluttered workbench with bits of metal and various bobs and gadgets used to make jewellery by hand. The shop is small almost tiny no larger than ten feet wide and fifteen feet deep. The majority of the floor space is taken up by the small work area and two long glass and wood display cases and smaller freestanding displays tucked here or there. The old man nods politely but makes no move to get off his tall stool, only turning around and adjusting the powerful light on his bench before resuming his exacting work.

 

He checked the display cases carefully searching through every tray, every display, and as fate would have it he finds what he’s looking for in the last. It is a beautiful old-fashioned cameo in the traditional black ebony and white ivory style, fashioned into a delicate orchid design with a tiny hummingbird frozen in time in the act of feeding. The detail is amazing and the craftsmanship beyond compare and he knows that he’s found what he’s been looking for.

 

He taps his fingertips lightly on the glass and the shopkeeper finally leaves his exacting work, sliding off a pair of magnifying goggle and walking to meet him at the display case. Vertically slit green eyes meet fathomless azure as a quick exchange of words conveys his wishes.

 

The cameo is removed and set carefully onto a padded black velvet pillow as the artisan wields his not inconsiderable skill to weave an enchantment over the beautiful bit of jewellery. When the shop keeper motions a prick of a fingertip on a razor sharp fang provides the drops of blood his request requires and he presses the bleeding digit to the cameo. He hisses at the rush of heat and the swift sting of pain that shoots through his fingertip and up his arm as the shopkeeper presses down on his fingertip, completing the spell he’s requested. The white parts of the cameo turn blood red for a moment before fading back to white and the shopkeeper removes his hand and nods to him and he removes his own. The shopkeeper lets his hand hover above the cameo but is careful not to touch it again and after a moment he nods in silent satisfaction.

 

The man leaves the cameo nestled on its velvet bed while he pulls out a tray of multicoloured ribbons, each carefully laid out and ironed to be wrinkle free. The artisan gestures towards the display silently and it takes him only a moment to choose a slender ribbon in a soft shade of tan that he knows will complement Fred’s skin tones without being glaring; yet neutral enough to not clash with what she’s wearing. He carefully pulls the ribbon he’s selected away from the others, his fingertips tracing lightly over the delicate lace edging and the artisan nods and smiles his approval.

 

It is his own hand that threads the cameo onto the ribbon and it is his hand that carefully places it into the protectively padded jeweller’s box and closes it. Only once it’s closed does the shopkeeper touch it, carefully placing it into a larger box that has been carefully padded before placing more packing material on top but he doesn’t close the box. He turns and picks up something from his work area and turns back to set it carefully on the display case.

 

It is an old-fashioned quill writing set complete with fine linen paper cards, a small pot of ink, a small rectangular wedge of red wax and a tiny oil lamp. He’s enchanted, he hasn’t seen anything like it since he was… human. He nods his appreciation and writes a small note to Fred in the graceful flowing script of his youth with all of its encompassing flourishes and whorls. He explains the gift and how to use it and thanks her for her friendship and consideration, assuring her that he is well. He hesitates only for a second before he signs the name ‘William’ to the bottom of the card. His human youth comes back to him in the skill of his hands as the card square is artfully folded into an intricately folded piece of artwork. He picks up the tiny lamp and angles its minute flame as he runs the wedge of sealing wax along it’s pyre and soon a pool of it has dripped down to form a pool in the center of the folds. Setting both aside he watches carefully as the hot wax begins to cool and when it is almost set but still pliable he tips his hand over and presses the signet ring he always wears on his left ring finger into the cooling mass leaving a perfect impression behind.

 

When it is cool he tucks it into the box, he uses the quill to sign Fred’s full name on the envelope and lays it atop the packing material. He folds the box closed after the artisan slips a clear sheet of acetate in last. He holds it closed as the shopkeeper tapes it closed securely and gestures towards the quill and then back to the box. It takes Spike only a moment to address the box and the shopkeeper carefully places a strip of clear packing tape over it so that it won’t blur if the package should get damp. By the time he leaves the small shop his pocket is almost fifteen hundred dollars lighter but it is barely a fraction of what he owes Fred for helping him. He’ll honour her wishes by keeping the money she’s given him without trying to return it but the gift of her friendship is an obligation that he won’t let pass without comment. He arranges for a courier to hand-deliver the gift as he leaves the city just in case they should try and track him down.

 

He criss-crosses a few more states before he finds himself once more on the west coast but he turns north away from California and stays to the lesser travelled smaller highways and roads. He stops for a time in Oregon but decides to move on, feeling slightly uneasy by the proliferation of ‘morning people’ over ‘night hawks’. A state full of morning people… could there be a scarier sight?

 

He knows he’s passed into Washington State and the scenery is lovely, full of thriving green woodlands and murky coastal towns, where it seems little sunlight seems to fall. The early morning fog rolling off the sea is so thick that it is commonly well passed noon before the chillingly concealing vapour starts to evaporate and more than one day passes where it lingers throughout the day. It reminds him of the London of his youth and something shifts inside him and he knows that this is where he’ll make his home. The decision is made just as the nose of the Camero dips over a hill and angles down the winding highway and he can see a moderately sized coastal town nestled a few miles from the shoreline. He sees a small scenic overlook and pulls over before reaching over and grabbing his map and guidebook. Fortunately it’s almost an hour past twilight so he can safely get out of the car to spread the map across the hood of the Camero. He traces his route on the map and turns to that section of the guide.

 

“Hmmm the Quimper Peninsula, one of Washington’s loveliest scenic and historical wonders, well-known for its predominantly Victorian atmosphere.” Spike reads, pleasantly surprised. He skims over the rest of the entry. “Regular ferry service to Seattle available, placing all of the advantages of a big city close at hand without the worries of large city living. That doesn’t sound… bad. It’s close to civilization but probably less of the hazards but I wonder if I wouldn’t stick out more in a small town?” He wonders out loud, turning to look over his shoulder as the sound of an engine reaches his sensitive ears. It’s the first that he’s heard in quite some time so it catches his attention. A range rover with the city seal of a county sheriff pulls up the highway and he groans when it turns into the small overlook and parks. The darkening night is little hindrance to his eyesight and he can see as clearly as though it were midday. His eyes widen slightly as the impressive looking form gracefully alights from the large vehicle.

 

He’s tall well over six feet but sleekly muscled as opposed to being a hulking brute of a body builder type. He’s very attractive; his dark hair, eyes, and olive skin tones no doubt due to a drop or four of Indian blood he assumes at first. He attired simply in brown cowboy boots, well fitting tan jeans, a soft looking brown and tan pull over sweater and a hip length brown leather jacket. He doesn’t see a badge or a cowboy hat anywhere but he doesn’t need to see them to know that this is the Sheriff in this semi-isolated part of the State. As he approaches closer some details of his silent walk and other negligible factors have him reassessing the approaching young man.

 

He’s within a few feet when he notices the unusual luminosity to his eyes, as though they were drawing in and catching the available light and his keen eyes spot the curve of a slightly pointed ear. Nothing that outwardly detracts from his appearance or that many would notice but then he’s not many people.

 

“Having some car trouble?” The man’s voice is husky with a low purring resonance that could easily be mistaken for a faintly foreign accent.

 

As he steps closer his steps falter slightly and his eyes widen and Spike watches as his hand flies reflexively towards his hip for a gun that isn’t there and he smiles. It’s nice to know that he can still intimidate some people!

 

“There’s no need to get trigger happy, mate. You’re in no danger from me.” He says quietly, staying relaxed and keeping his hand in view. “Check the cooler on the front seat.” He gestures towards the unlocked Camero. He smiles approvingly as the young man walks around to the opposite side and leans down and keeping one eye on him at all times, leans down and opens the ice chest and stares at bags of human blood marked as rejected and destroyed. “As I said I’m no danger to you.”

 

The man looks relieved but confused as he closes the ice chest and straightens as he quietly closes the car door. “Well that’s a little unusual, a Vampire that chooses to feed from donated blood. Did you break into a blood bank? I’d just love to explain this kind of bank robbing in my reports.” The man asks with a dry wit.

 

“Money can buy a lot of things if the price is right. I don’t feed from Humans, though the occasional Vampire may make the menu now and then, the bagged stuff suits my needs. It doesn’t complain as much either.” Spike says with a grin. “It seems I’m not the only unusual sight around these parts though. I haven’t seen many Feryan Demons in this country, though from the looks of you, you’re a quarter-blood.” Spike notes, surprising the younger man. “I’ve met a few of your kind in Asia.” Spike explains simply. “I doubt that even the most backwater town would elect a predator so I’m assuming you’ve found another way to feed here if you can arrest the transformation this close to the full moon.”

 

“You seem to know a lot.” The man says suspiciously. “There are areas where I can hunt safely without endangering any Humans and retreat to when I need to.” He admits.

 

“I’ve been around for… a while. You tend to see a lot of things.” Spike says enigmatically.

 

“You’re a Master then?” The man says unsurprised.

 

“Since I was twenty years changed, I’m… older now…” He replies with a half grin. “…Significantly.” He straightens from where he’s leaning against the car and schools his features into a serious expression. “I’m looking for somewhere to settle down, am I going to have a problem with you?”

 

“If you break the law, yes but I’m willing to give you the benefit of the doubt. Port Townsend is home to a small community of people like us but you’re the first Vampire, the only one. I’m going to need some assurances before I can trust you.” The man says with a brutal honesty that Spike can’t help but respect. “I’ve got a spare room; you’ll be staying with me until you’ve proven that you can be trusted.”

 

“I’m sorry Pet but that’s unacceptable.” The man looks like he’s going to argue. “That is unless you let me pay my share of the rent and what not of course.” The young man can’t hide his surprise. “I’m not looking for a place to hide, Pet. I’m looking for a place to live. My name is Spike.” He holds out his hand towards the man, daring him to accept his handshake and his friendship.

 

“Gabriel Kane, pleased to meet you. Spike is a little unusual for a name. Are you going to need legal papers?” He asks curiously, shaking his hand. “I’ve helped some Demons get their papers.”

 

Spike chuckles. “My name is William Faulkner but you can call me Spike. Money can buy a lot of things including any legal papers I may require. I have a friend that works for a… law firm. I’ve got what I need, Mr. Sheriff, Sir.”

 

“Do you mind if I see an ID?” Gabriel asks with a grin. He leans over to look at the perfectly legal driver’s license that Spike holds out. He grins and nods his thanks. “Well if I didn’t know you were a Demon already, I would now.” He grins at the confused look on Spike’s face. “I’ve never seen a human that takes a license picture that looks that good.” He says with a chuckle. “Well it doesn’t say that your middle name is trouble but something tells me that it is.”

 

Spike flips his wallet closed and slides it into his back pocket and shrugs. “I’m not looking for trouble and if any follows me here I can assure you that I’ll deal with it.” Spike says simply. “I’m not asking you to trust me or accept what I say; all I need is a chance to prove myself. Will you let me?”

 

“When my Grandparents came to this town, the people here gave them a chance pretty much on trust when the prudent thing would have been to ask them to move on. I guess it’s time my family returned the favour. I have to ask though what makes you so different from other Vampires.”

 

“I choose to be and the fact that I have a soul just makes it a little easier to choose to live contrary to my nature as a Demon. We’re alike in that I imagine.”

 

“A Vampire with a soul… that’s unique.” Gabriel says surprised.

 

Spike just shrugs. “It runs in the family.” He says simply. “If I decide to stay here and you decide to trust me and let me stay, is there a nice place to build around here?”

 

“You’re planning to build a house? Wouldn’t it be simpler to rent or buy? There are some nice places around town.”

 

“I’ve got some rather unique requirements in a home and it’s just easier to build a home to suit me if I’m going to stay than it would be to adapt one to me.”

 

“If things work out you’re welcome to do what you like here. I was heading to my apartment so follow me and we’ll get you settled in and you can tell me about what’s brought you here.” Gabriel turns on his heel and heads for his truck. He looks back at Spike and finds it difficult to turn his eyes away. He has the feeling that his life is about to get a lot more exciting. 

 

Chapter Two

 

Spike looks out the front window of his hilltop home. He can see the lights of Port Townsend in the distance twinkling faintly through the evening fog. Positioned as his home is he can see well out into the bay and he can see the glint of silver moonlight from the full moon in the distance. The higher elevation saves them from the majority of the thick roiling fog and only a light hazy mist betrays it’s presence outside his window.

 

Looking back on his past it’s hard to equate it with his life now. As Gabriel predicted, the people of Port Townsend did welcome him with an amazing degree of trust and warmth and for the first time, possibly ever, he found acceptance. His relationship with Gabriel evolved as well as they quickly became confidants and best friends. He was honoured to stand up with Gabriel as his best man at his wedding to a lovely young Vengeance Demon that reminded him a little of Anya.

 

The first year was a trial but it brought the greatest reward. Part of the money he’d accumulated went to the purchase of a lovely parcel of land that overlooked the town proper at Gabriel’s suggestion. When it was time to plan his home he searched through every home plan magazine and resource he could find until he finally admitted defeat and hired an architect to help him design his own.

 

He was careful to reflect the both the town’s Victorian architecture and the respect for the natural beauty of the forty acres of land on which his home would sit. He wanted to build his home to blend into the overall appearance of the town but with a minimum of disruption to the natural beauty around him and while it cost more, it was very important to him that where he lived reflected his own acceptance of his surroundings.

 

A fairly extensive finished basement would house the Master Suite, a large luxuriously appointed master bath, a combination library, study, and office, as well as a well appointed workout and training room. The access stairways were carefully concealed at his insistence and reinforced with solid steel core doors and struts hidden beneath wooden veneers. The main level was designed along more conventional lines though the exacting requirements for building materials remained. All of the glass is reinforced and necro-tempered and additionally strengthened by magical wards, thoughtfully provided by the surprisingly strong talents of the local coven.

 

The main level boasts another fully appointed master suite with adjoining master bath and a large walk-in closet. Three smaller but still spacious bedrooms share a large bathroom while a smaller bathroom just off the kitchen provides for guests. A large den, foyer, formal dining room, the kitchen; with its generous allotment of space for the professional grade cooking area and appliances and large walk-in pantry and breakfast nook; lie off the large of the great room near the center of the house.

 

Beyond the breakfast nook is the entry to a gorgeous all-season conservatory/sunroom that has been ingeniously designed. Hidden insulation, high-tech heated glass, and sliding panels can transform the room from a warm wooden-panelled conservatory to a crystalline prism of glass to form a beautiful sunroom or opened entirely to create a gorgeous covered patio. A second door leads off to a modern studio that in turn leads off to a large walk-in storage room and beyond that to the fully enclosed two-car garage with its attached storage room and a workshop complete with built-in tool benches and storage. A small hall leads to an outer door and to the covered and necro-tempered and reinforced glass and stone walkway that leads off to the enclosed, pool, spa, and gym that lies some distance from the main house.

 

Due to the often inhospitable weather, the house is extremely well-insulated and the entry, decks, and even part of the garden boast skylight topped covers and many of the main rooms, including the bedrooms, boast their own fireplace. It was a very expensive home to build and more than he thought that he’d need at first but it’s the home he’s always wanted and he could finally have.

 

Needing some connection to the past that didn’t come with so much pain it’d need its own zip code, he tracked down his old friend Clem and it didn’t take long for the loveable Demon to relocate to Port Townsend and one of his spare rooms. It seemed a natural decision to offer Gabriel the use of the upstairs master suite and he moved in as well not long after that. When his Father died, no one was surprised when he offered to help Gabriel’s Mother Leticia to move into another of the spare bedrooms as he was unashamed of his fondness for the tough older Demon.

 

With some help from Letty and Gabriel he was able to invest his money wisely into several lucrative businesses in and around Port Townsend. His silent partnership in ‘The Belmont’, Port Townsend's last remaining 1880's waterfront restaurant and saloon. The attached Belmont Hotel and adjacent Vienna Suites were popular choices for tourist accommodations and proved to be a very wise and profitable investment. He soon expanded his holdings with other silent partnerships like ‘The Upstart’ the combination art gallery, theatre, and restaurant that proved a very popular hangout for townies and tourists alike. He found that investing in already established businesses made excellent financial sense and with his monetary support they were soon thriving businesses and everyone was happy.

 

Now two years later his holdings include silent partnerships in several of the smaller and more specialized eateries and businesses in Port Townsend including a one or two of the local wineries and a partnership with the exclusive and exemplary supplies and paraphernalia shop run by the local Wiccan commune. His most profitable business was a growing real estate empire overseen by Letty’s iron hand with Clem, Gabriel, and himself as silent partners. With her steel will and sharp mind Letty Kane was a force to be reckoned with in business matters and if someone underestimated her, they rarely did it a second time.

 

Though he was financially well off, boredom was one thing that he couldn’t buy his way out of so when Gabriel asked him to lend his assistance on several cases, it was a welcome respite. No one in town was overly surprised when he just naturally fell into a job working alongside Gabe as Port Townsend’s first and only deputized Detective. The real joy in his life though is singing, he enjoys playing some of the smaller venues around the area on the occasional night with little more than Gabriel, their guitars, and a friend or two for accompaniment.

 

Clem found his calling as a Ferry boat captain of all things and he currently runs a fleet of six refurbished and restored classic ferries that services the surrounding areas. His girlfriend Maria, is fiery Chinook Indian with a good head for business and an undeniable passion for the loveable lug and she keeps the business thriving.

 

He isn’t startled by the strong arms closing around his waist from behind. “Are you ready to go Wil?” A quiet voice purrs from behind him as Gabriel pulls him back into an affectionate hug. “We told Deacon we’d meet him at the club at half past nine; we’ll have to catch the seven pm ferry if we want to make it on time.”

 

“Sure just let me check on Mum and I’ll grab the guitars and meet you outside.” He replies warmly, sighing happily as Gabriel tightens his arms in a pleasant squeeze before he lets go.

 

“Do you want to take the Camero or the Rover?” Gabriel asks eagerly, loping for the front door.

 

“Take the Rover; we always get a better parking space when they see you coming.” He says and they share a chuckle.

 

Spike makes his way to the large den that is Letty’s favourite room in the house and knocks quietly before entering. He smiles at the sight of the feisty older Demon holding court around a loaded card table surrounded by a group of chattering friends all of whom greet him fondly.

 

“We’re going to head out Letty; did you need anything before we leave?” He asks warmly, rounding the table to press an affectionate kiss between the grey and white striped cat ears that just barely peek out of her silver streaked black hair. Letty’s half Feryan heritage has left the distinctly feline characteristics typical of their species much more apparent than it is in her quarter-blooded son.

 

“We’re fine, Sweetling but could you ask Clem if he can stop by the all-night bakery and pick us up some pastries on his way home?”

 

“I’ll do that, Pretty Momma.” He presses another fond kiss between her cute ears and straightens. “I’ll set the alarm on my way out. Have a nice night ladies.” He says warmly as he makes his way out of the room after running the gauntlet of fond hugs and playful gropes from her spirited poker buddies.

 

“You’re one lucky bitch Letty; you get to live with the two most handsome men in Port Townsend and that sweetheart Clem. I hate you!”

 

“I keep hoping that bum son of mine would wise up and see what’s under his nose but he’s still hung up on that whippersnapper Deacon fellow. What he sees in that beanpole human I’ll never know when he’s got that yummy Vampire goodness living one floor down.” Letty says in disgust.

 

He closes the door on that comment and chuckles. Letty’s matchmaking efforts have been legendary, even though he knows that she secretly adores Deacon and approves of Gabriel’s choice in a partner.

 

He stops by one of the hall closets and retrieves two guitar cases before heading for the front door. A quick pause to set the alarm and to lock the door and he runs lightly down the steps to the waiting Range Rover and Gabriel.

 

Chapter Three

 

The drive down to the city and through the quiet streets is a pleasant one for Spike as he tunes his guitar as Gabriel handles the driving with an easy skill. There are quite a few vehicles and passengers already lining up to board the docked ferry but Clem’s deckhands are an efficient bunch and soon the cars are neatly loaded and the passengers have been guided onboard to the various passenger lounges. They’re the last to board before departure and like many of the passengers they leave their truck for the warmth and camaraderie of the passenger lounges. Spike hands Gabriel his guitar case as the pair wave to one of the crew who ushers them through a roped off doorway with a smile.

 

“Hey there guys!” Clem welcomes them with a warm smile, the wheel of the ferry rock steady in his strong taloned hands. “You brought your guitars, great! Would you sing my favourite song for me?”

 

Spike smiles and pats Clem’s shoulder. “It’s the least we can do since you let us ride for free.” He says affectionately. “We’ll get set up in the forward lounge. Give us about ten minutes before you make the announcement Mate.”

 

“Sure thing, Spike.” Clem says perkily.

 

It takes them only a few moments to set up in a small corner of the largest lounge and they play some warm up songs that attract a quietly appreciative audience. After Clem uses the PA system to make the announcement of the impromptu live music, the lounge quietly fills with talk, laughter, and music.

 

Spike lets his mind drift, his hands and voice know what to do without direction from him. He glances over at Gabriel and smiles at his friend’s joie de vivre, that nebulous quality that draws smiles from almost everyone he meets. Gabriel is the quintessential tall, dark, and handsome man but unlike some very attractive people, his insides are just as lovely as the outsides.

 

The simple dark brown suede boots, well-worn blue jeans, the simple elegance of a white dress shirt with the sleeves rolled back to his elbows and a brown suede jacket are typical of Gabe’s fashion sense. As he looks at him Spike has to admit that his style suits his simple and non-complicated lifestyle and that it makes him look imminently shag-able well that’s just a bonus. He grew up in Port Townsend’s sheltering grace and his simple regard for life, fashion, and the things that make him who he is all stem from that lucky upbringing.

 

He looks down at his own black leather boots and jeans, letting his eyes rove up his chest and the dark blue cashmere sweater that was a handmade gift from Letty. Beneath the luxurious knit is a simple sleeveless black t-shirt and everything is topped by a fairly new black leather aviator’s jacket. He may not be living in a place where every night is a fight but he just can’t stop dressing with that possibility in mind. You can take the fighter out of the city but not it seems out of his wardrobe. The flash of light catches his eye as his hand flutters along a complicated chord and he’s glad that his singing has prevented the sigh wanting to escape from his throat.

 

The crest of the Aurelius Order winks back at him from the antique silver ring, placed on his finger by Angelus long ago as a mark of his pride at his young Masters-ship. He had yet to hear of any Vampire achieving it at an age younger than his own scant twenty years and as much as Angelus saw him as a rival; it was also a point of pride between them. He has changed his life in some remarkable ways but the ring that was the symbol of a lost Grand-Sire’s pride; that is one thing he’s chosen to keep from his past.

 

He smiles knowing that few people that knew him once would recognize him now. He’s gained some weight in the form of increased muscle mass and he wears it well but the svelte and lithe lines of his body are little changed. Gabe and Deacon swear he looks good with the additional definition of the added muscle. His blatantly pale hair has given way to the reddish gold streaked tawny brown of his Human youth and he’s let it grow out until it waves lightly at the top but the sides and back taper neatly in an expertly coiffed haircut that requires little maintenance on his part. The gothic edge he’s sported for years has softened somewhat but the simply stylized Phoenix and Gryphon pendants strung on leather around his throat maintain hints of his past. Simple piercings in his eyebrow, left ear and belly button and the tongue in cheek tattoo of a Celtic cross in the small of his back are more recent additions. His mouth falls more easily into wickedly flirtatious smiles than arrogant smirks these days.

 

Perhaps the biggest changes are the ones that can’t be seen with the naked eye though. The lithe and graceful power of his body has changed very little but the restlessness that refused to let him be still has faded to a large degree. The feeling that he’s been searching for something or that something is missing or forgotten has also faded despite the constantly roving eyes that seem to be searching for something that they never find, he is content.

 

He knows he owes more than a little of his hard won focus and clarity to the calming influence of Letty and the meditation exercises she insists that her ‘boys’ practice every night. His fighting and physical skills are better than ever thanks to his daily training regiment with Gabriel, who while not quite as strong or invulnerable, is far more capable than a human sparring partner. They’ve taken the best of each other’s styles and made it their own, incorporating it into their already formidable pool of skills. He has little doubt that Gabriel could take on a Slayer and not only hold his own but win with the skills and techniques he’s learned from him. From Gabriel he’s learned more than he has from any other single person in his life, his acrobatic skill, speed, endurance, and agility have increased due to his tutelage. It may be overkill for a relatively small town Sheriff and a part-time ‘official’ Detective but better to overkill than to be killed. Besides they’ve found use for their skills before on their outings to Seattle and some of the larger cities, making regular trips to do a little hunting and slaying of their own.

 

They play for the length of the ferry trip, thanking the passengers with a smile and a nod as several set some money down in one of the open guitar cases. They end the impromptu performance when they’re ten minutes from dock to give everyone time to get ready to disembark.

 

Gabriel carefully collects the money and counts it with a smile. “Sixty-two dollars, not bad for a little ferry trip.” He says pleased, carefully portioning out the money and arranging it by denomination and smoothing it out neatly as Spike kneels beside him to pack up his guitar for him. “Thanks, Wil. We’ve got enough to buy twelve rooms at the hostel.”

 

“We’ll drop it off at the shelter on the way to the Fenix, Maggie and Louis can distribute it however it’d be best spent I’m sure.” Spike digs into his pocket and pulls out his wallet and adds a twenty dollar bill of his own with a self-conscious shrug as Gabriel grins at him. He hides his own smile as he watches his friend surreptiously slip in his own contribution.

 

Neither of them needs the money from their low-key concerts so they always find a way to donate it to people that do. Maybe with their help a few more people won’t have to sleep out in the snow tonight and can have a hot meal and a safe place to rest.   

 

 Gabriel rises gracefully to his feet and reaches down and easily lifts Spike to his feet. Neither of them thinks that there’s anything strange about holding hands and heading back to the truck after a quick stop by the bridge to thank Clem for the ride.

 

Spike carefully stows their guitars in the back and hops into the passenger seat as Gabriel starts the car. Their timing is excellent as they’re waiting only a couple of minutes before a crew member waves them forward and they smoothly disembark and head into the city.

 

Chapter Four

 

After a stop at a local homeless shelter to drop off their donation, they drive over to the club where they’re meeting up with Gabriel’s boyfriend Deacon and some of their friends. The Fenix Underground is one of the more popular clubs in town, featuring several levels and attractions all under one roof.

 

Spike glances at the dashboard clock. “We’re half an hour early, want to go in or head over to the coffeehouse for a drink first?”

 

“I vote for the drink before I freeze solid.” Gabriel says with a theatrically exaggerated shiver.

 

“Park the car before they mistake you for Harrison Ford and we get mobbed.” Spike says dryly, rolling his eyes as Gabe grins.

 

While the nightclub is very popular the mid-winter weather has no doubt driven some to stay inside and they find a parking space easily. Spike hops out and goes around back and carefully covers their guitar cases with a thick thermal blanket before Gabriel locks the truck and activates the alarm. Spike starts down the sidewalk, not alarmed as his friend jogs up beside him to lay an arm across his shoulders and squeeze him affectionately. Spike slips his arm around Gabriel’s waist as they walk towards a busy coffeehouse a block down, talking quietly.

 

It was Gabe’s willingness to reach out to him, to want to touch him affectionately, and his unabashed enjoyment at the simple pleasures to be had in his company that first broke through the arrogantly brash manner that was his defence against the world. Unknown to Letty; or perhaps not, she is a shrewd old lady; he did have a brief relationship with Gabriel and later even a night or two with Gabriel and Deacon but as much as he cares for his dear friend there is a part of him that only two people have honestly touched. While the marks of those fleeting nights still surface in their ease together and the strength of the connection between them, they are content in their friendship.

 

The coffeehouse is packed to the rafters with patrons eager to take shelter from the cold winter night and partake of the cornucopia of beverages they offer. Spike pauses just inside his instincts prickling the back of his neck and his keen eyes sweep over the customers. He doesn’t see anything amiss other than a few Demons here or there and they seem peaceful enough but he can’t get over the niggling feeling at the base of his spine that there’s something right at the edge of his senses that’s eluding him.

 

“Are you alright?” Gabriel asks quietly, noticing his best friend’s preoccupation.

 

“Let’s get the drinks and head back to club.” Spike says quietly, his eyes still roving restlessly over the crowded shop’s patrons. He doesn’t want to look like a paranoid loser feeling jumpy about shadowy ‘feelings.’

 

“Sure, that suits me, it’s a little too crowded in here tonight anyway.” Gabriel agrees, tightening his arm around his shorter friend and pulling him closer. He doesn’t need Spike to tell him he feels uneasy when he can clearly see that he is and feel it in how he leans his weight into his side.

 

They move into the order line and wait the tense few minutes to work their way up to the counter.

 

“I’ll have a large double cocoa, half milk chocolate and half bittersweet with a splash of Hazelnut creamer and nuts instead of the caramel swirl on my whip cream please.” Spike orders his usual.

 

“I’ll have the same but I’ll have the caramel swirl instead of the nuts and we’ll take a double Mocha fully loaded with the works too.” Gabriel orders. “If we don’t bring one for Deacon he’ll attack us for ours.” He says with a grin, giving Spike a vexed look as he pays for their drinks before he has a chance. “Smooth but I’m getting the cover charge at the club then.” He says implacably. “Deacon can buy the food.” He winks saucily.

 

“We’d better hope that Paul decided to stay home then or Deacon’s going home broke.” Spike replies with a snicker that has Gabriel chuckling and aiming a playful swipe at the back of his head.

 

They pick up their drinks and start to head for the door and their eyes widen at the long line of people and the possibilities of wading through them without spilling.

 

“I don’t suppose you could… ya know… go all growl’y and get us through the crowd…?” Gabriel asks with a grin.

 

“Pet, I think at least a quarter of this crowd will growl back.” Spike says with a shake of his head. He spies an opening through the crowd and dives through reaching the door with dramatic flourish and a laugh while Gabriel scowls and swears at him good naturedly.

 

“You’re a pain in the ass Spike!” Gabriel calls out playfully as he muscles his way through the crowd and out onto the street.

 

“Don’t blame me for the fact you’re taller than some buildings, Pet!” Spike calls back cheering on his beleaguered friend. “Could you get a move on King Kong, I wanna dance!?!”

 

“We can’t all be the size of a flea or a tick!” Gabriel jokes back.

 

“Ohhh Pet you’re making blood sucking references, oh be still my heart!” Spike moans theatrically, clutching his chest and pantomiming at being a love-struck suitor. He darts down the street as Gabriel finally fights his way through the crowd and growls menacingly, chasing after his wildly laughing friend.

 

Neither notices the dark eyes staring after them with laser-like focus as a muscular form starts to swim through the crowd in pursuit, reaching out and grabbing a confused man from the order line and dragging him along.

 

Chapter Five

 

Wesley stares at the silent presence at his side and he shivers but he’s not sure if it’s from the cold or the deadly gleam in Angel’s golden chocolate eyes. They’ve been standing in this abominable line for over an hour, surrounded by people of all ages and in all manners of outrageous costumes and outfits. It seems that every time he looks around someone more outrageous and outlandish has appeared. The bouncers patrol the line endlessly, occasionally pulling out a familiar face or twelve and sending them to the door, ‘regulars’ no doubt. He huddles into his jacket, cursing the thin, ineffectual nylon and tries not to feel like the last man chosen for a rugby team and the boobie prize for whatever team gets stuck with him as they’re passed over time and again.

 

“Angel, no offence but what in the bloody hell are we doing standing in line for this monstrosity? Our plane is supposed to leave in another hour and it will take us that long to stop by the hotel, get our things, and get to the airport. We’ve got the Pendaric Chronicles that we came for, let’s go home.”

 

“I told you Wes, we’re not leaving until I know.” Angel says flatly.

 

“It’s been two years Angel, what does it matter if that was Spike or not? You wanted him to go remember?” Wesley points out.

 

“I’m not leaving here until I find out if that was Spike or not, Wes so drop it.” Angel growls.

 

“You’re friends of Spike?” Their conversation has caught the ear of one of the patrolling doormen.

 

Angel and Wes turn their heads to look at one of the doormen/bouncers that have been walking the line, keeping things orderly.

 

“Yes we’re very, very old friends.” Angel says putting on his most charming and intimidating manners. “We’ve known each other just for ages.” He stresses the inflections hoping that the man will pick up on his hidden meaning and understand it, if he knows Spike.

 

The beefy bruiser of a man looks at them carefully and nods as though he’s decided something and he unclips the velvet ropes. “Come with me.” He gestures for them to leave the line and follow him towards the front door. “This is a no feed zone, keep your fangs to yourself and you won’t have any trouble with security. The bar is set up to service your… kind… so just ask for the house red and they’ll know what you’re talking about.” The man quietly intones, keeping his voice low and circumspect.

 

The man leads them to the head of the line and motions to his co-worker manning the door. “These guys are friends of Spike’s Dozer. Let em in.”

 

The mountain of flesh that makes up a man nods and opens the door waving them through. “Go through the doorway on the left for the box office unless you have one of our V.I.P. passes in which case you can go straight in.” The massive man rumbles and they can see why he’s got the nickname that he does.

 

Angel grabs Wes; who’s frozen in place staring up at the massively built bouncer with his mouth open; and pulls him inside shoving him not too gently to the left.

 

“I can’t believe this… next time I want a coffee just say no!” Wes mutters as Angel manhandles him with no little roughness. “We don’t even know that it was him!”

 

“We’re not going to find out for sure either at this rate!” Angel’s lips curls into a snarl and he strides for the ticket windows. The dark expression on his face manages to get them to the head of the line fairly quickly as several very wise people quickly change lines to get out of his way.

 

“Welcome to the Fenix gentlemen, first visit?” A neatly dressed young man greets them from behind the glass and iron cage of the ticket office.

 

“It most certainly is.” Wes mutters, looking around at the flashy dance club/live music venue. It’s almost enough to make him wish he was still outside in the cold.

 

“Well, you’re here on a good night, the Misfits are playing tonight. Tickets are forty dollars and that includes two free drinks and appetizer for each of you as well as entrance to all venues.”

 

Angel pays the man while Wes grumbles over the outrageous price and they obligingly follow the man’s instructions and put their right hands under the slot. Slender wristbands are skilfully set in place with the economy of motion that only comes from a lot of repetition.

 

“If you’ll follow the hallway around to the right, you’ll have to check your coats and pass through the metal detectors and the doors at the end will take you into the club. Have a nice time.” The man says with a sunny smile.

 

Angel strides off with a whish of his knee length leather coat and a great white shark on the hunt could hardly looking any more intimidating than the powerful Vampire in that moment.

 

 Wesley follows him still muttering darkly about this fool’s errand. Ever since the realisation that Spike had left LA, Angel has been hell to live with and since it’s been almost two years, that’s a lot of hell. They’ve all felt the stinging reality of dealing with an Angel gone madly furious. Lorne was the first to go, deciding to leave LA and open a lounge in Las Vegas. Harmony just vanished one day and to this day rumours persist that her departure wasn’t one of her choosing but facilitated at the end of a stake wielded by Angel. Gunn just drifted deeper into his role as Wolfram & Hart’s top legal eagle and his burgeoning relationship with Eve just seemed to be the last nail in the coffin. Gradually friendship gave way to semi-cordial co-workers as no one really trusted Gunn’s motives once he chose to get involved with Eve. Soon even the stalwart loyalty of Fred is going to falter and she’ll join the exodus and it won’t be long after that when even his phenomenal patience is at an end and he’ll leave too. Who could have foreseen the effect that Spike’s departure would have on Angel and through him all of them as well? He finds that he’s half hopeful that they will find the fiery younger Vampire on this fool’s journey. Wesley is snapped out of his reverie by the simple mechanism of ploughing into Angel’s back and bouncing off to land sprawled on the floor.

 

Wesley curses foully and scrambles to his feet, shooting some black looks at some of the laughing looks aimed at him and steps around Angel and stares. The multi-level dance floor is wall to wall motion as a sea of dancing bodies forms a barrier that not even Moses would find easy to part and impeding their progress to the other side.

 

“We could just walk around….” Wes says turning to glance at Angel but his voice trails off as he stares at Angel who is staring out into the crowd with a fixed expression that sends shivers down his spine. The only time he’s seen a look even half that dark, it was right before some unfortunate Demon ends up dead… probably in little pieces. He follows his eyes to a table across the way and finds that he’s staring a very shapely leather clad rear.

 

The man is leaning over the back of one of the booth seats, and the pants leave no doubt that it’s a male, talking to several of the animated patrons sharing the table. He’s swaying to the beat of the music, dancing in place in a display as enthralling as any hypnotist’s pendulum. A glass of red wine bumps loosely against one thigh, held securely from the top in one strong hand as the other waves, gesticulating wildly on some point energetically as the people at the table laugh.

 

Wes leans forward straining to get a closer look, he may not have a Vampire’s superior eye sight but even he can see that the man Angel has his attention riveted on has darker hair and is more muscular than Spike is. “Who is he; do you know him?”

 

Angel doesn’t answer, his voice lost to the millimetre by millimetre perusal of his Grand-childe. There isn’t a single doubt in his mind, changes aside, that he’s looking at Spike… his Spike. His eyes narrow as the good looking man from the coffeehouse jogs up the steps from the dance floor his arm wrapped around another man whose chest is heaving with exertion. The other man collapses weakly into the booth amidst laughter and friendly back slaps, while the ape leans over the booth mimicking Spike’s posture and looking entirely too chummy for his peace of mind. Spike’s never really been known for his sterling taste in companions, the last ones having left him to incinerate in the Hellmouth alone.

 

 As he’s watching the tall ape from the coffeehouse straightens and notions toward the dance floor but the man that collapsed into the booth starts laughing and throwing his arms up to wave his hand as though warding off some evil influence, shaking his head wildly. He watches as Spike straightens and leans over to set the wine glass in his hand on the table, pulling the already form-fitting leather even tighter to his shapely lower body.

 

Angel inhales sharply as he turns partially into profile, his palms sweeping down his chest to catch the edge of the soft looking sweater and stripping it up over his head in a single graceful movement. The tight sleeveless black t-shirt is so tight you can see the ripples of his washboard stomach in the waves of the fabric. The hem rises, caught by the sweater and flashes the glint of gold that is threaded through his concave belly button for a few seconds before he sets the sweater aside. His eyes trace the path of a palm as it slides low over his belly and under the waistband of the belted leather pants, neatly tucking the shirt back in. He starts through the throng of people before he realises what he’s doing, feeling Wesley scrambling to follow in the wake he’s creating as he cleaves through the crowd.

 

Before they’re even halfway there Spike is stalking away from them towards the dance floor, his movements fluidly graceful and full of slow intent as he moves one muscle group at a time in a sinuous ballet. The ocean of motion parts and he is swallowed in the tide of humanity.

 

Angel drives towards the railing that marks the boundaries of the sunken lower level dance floor, his eyes locked on his quarry. It’s little surprise that the crowd of dancers parts and allows Spike entrance to their ranks, an army of hands reaching out to touch or make futile grabs in passing. It has always been that way with Spike. His uncanny ability to change and adapt to his circumstances sees him gaining his entry to even the tightest of social circles with alacrity unmatched by any other person he’s ever known. People are drawn to the charismatic Master Vampire hummingbirds to nectar rich blooms, flitting around him in an endless fluttering of colourful wings, all wanting to taste his energy and gorge on his presence and take in something of him into themselves. He has always been the most ‘Human’ of his Childer so is it any wonder that he should be the one that he understands the least? Humanity eluded him even when he was Human and as a Vampire it is all the more alien. He’s done things with his soul that Spike wouldn’t have done without his and perhaps that is the true reason they’ve never gotten along. There was a lot of truth in what Spike said when they were fighting for a worthless cup of Mountain Dew. He is the mirror that he finds it painful to look into and is it little wonder that he turns his eyes from the reflection when all it shows is what is lacking in him?

 

He tracks Spike into the center of the crowd and he’s not surprised to see he’s eluded the grasping hands and he’s swaying in a world of his own as a new song starts to play. Hands reach out and a few bold souls try to pull Spike into their gyrations but he eludes them all with easy skill. It’s like watching a choreographed fight set to music and it’s not long before the dancers get the hint and a circle of empty space surrounds Spike’s solo dancing form. He is boneless grace wrapped in fluid sin and slowly the circle widens until it looks like Spike is dancing in a bubble of holy space that no one dares to trespass on…

 

…Until someone does….

 

Angel’s hands clench over the railing, the metal deforming under the pressure.

 

Chapter Six

 

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.

It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.

I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you.

And I never dreamed that I knew somebody like you.

 

Spike sighs as his eyes slip closed enjoying the silken slide of leather over his legs as he sways into the song. It’s always been one of his favourites the slow hypnotic beat and husky vocals touching his core with liquid heat. He drops his shoulder, dipping his hips into the rhythm until his whole body is moving to the music. He doesn’t need eyes to see or ears to hear, he can feel the music and he opens himself to it, inviting it in to work its will through his body. He’s jostled by pushy hands but he’s too deep into the music to care and he barely notices when the disruptive presence is gone.

 

His hands slowly up his thighs, flexing lightly against the rippling muscles as he draws his palms up his body, meandering slowly over twitching stomach muscles and over his pillow-soft cotton T-shirt. Upward his rising and falling chest, his palms turning outward as they leave the soft cotton for favour of silken skin as he draws the back of his fingertips up over his face until his arms are over his head.

 

 No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

No, I don't want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

With you. With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

 

He feels the presence at his back seconds before his hands are caught in a steel embrace and brought down to cross over his chest as he’s pulled back against a powerful body. Muscles melt together as the powerful man pulls him back hard so hard he’s lifted off his feet momentarily as the curve of his body are pulled into an insistent throbbing hardness.

 

He settles lightly onto the balls of his feet as his unseen partner rocks them down towards the floor and slowly back up, keeping them pressed tightly together. One arm is thrown over his shoulder and across his chest, a powerful hand resting low on his belly as its twin roams restlessly from his hip to his thigh forcing him into the motions of his partner and locking them into a synergy of motion.

 

 What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.

What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.

What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.

What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and,

 

I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

With you.

 

Spike inhales deeply drawing the scent of his partner deeply, he doesn’t need his eyes to know who is holding him and moving them in the eldritch power of the dance. The lips grazing his nape and nibbling lightly on his ear are as familiar to him as breathing is to a Human. He has more senses to enjoy than could be dreamt of in their limited philosophies and experiences. The body rocking into his own is no stranger despite the rarity of its sharing his body remembers it well and rises to meet its demands.

 

His arms drift up and back to sink into a lush pelt of hair, the thick strands curling around his fingers as tightly as the arms coiling around his body. He shivers at the heat rising low in his belly and flushing through his veins until it feels like every nerve is enflamed and throbbing to a non-existent heart beat. It is the magic of the dance and the alchemy of emotions.

 

 The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.

It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.

I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you.

And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you no,

 

No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

No, I want to fall in love. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

With you. (This world is only gonna break your heart)

No, I... (This world is only gonna break your heart)

(This world is only gonna break your heart)

 

As the arms tighten and suddenly pivots spinning him around and catching him up against a powerful body, he doesn’t fight flowing into the strength so easily holding him aloft and swaying him into a dip. Spike relaxes against the supportive hand in the small of his back and he arches gracefully as poised as any gymnast, bending until his hair almost sweeps the floor. His leg lifts and locks around a thigh, his belief in his still unseen partner’s strength is absolute as he trusts him to support them both. His palms drift over powerful shoulders to sink lightly into muscle corded biceps as he is slowly lifted to his feet and gently set down. Fiery arctic blue eyes meet soulful brown as his thickly lashed eyelids sweep up and a wickedly welcoming smile curves his full lips upward.

 

 Nobody loves no one.

 

Bodies melt together and freeze, lips barely brushing for a heartbeat before they slowly lean in unison and close the all-but nonexistent distance to zero.

 

Spike curls his arms around a powerful neck as he’s lifted off his feet as his tongue sweeps into the honeyed recesses of a welcoming mouth in a slow deep kiss. He sighs as the applause of the crowd breaks the moment and Gabriel carefully sets him down before taking his hand and leading them back to the table, neither of them caring about or noticing the dark presence shadowing them.

 

Chapter Seven

 

Deacon watches the pair return with an enigmatic expression on his face and his friend Paul glances at him nervously.

 

“God doesn’t that… I dunno… bother… you to see that?” Paul asks nosily.

 

Deacon doesn’t answer that as the pair returns to the table, merely quirking his finger at the pair and holds his hand out. To Paul’s surprise it isn’t Gabriel that answers the commanding summons as he slips into the booth beside Deacon without a word, only a sensual smile and sweep of his tongue across his lower lip. It’s Spike’s hand that slips into Deacon’s and it’s his body that’s pulled to lay across their laps and his mouth that Deacon sweeps into like an invader at Normandy.

 

“Ok I guess it doesn’t bother you that much.” Paul says snidely, snickering at the carnal display and reaching under the table to adjust his jeans with what he hopes is a surreptiously nonchalant manoeuvre.

 

Spike licks his lips with a wicked grin as Deacon releases his mouth, catching a drop of saliva running down the corner of his mouth and licking it from his fingertip. He slides over to rest his back in the corner of the booth, letting his legs stay draped over Deacon and Gabriel’s laps as he accepts his wine glass back from Paul with a nod of thanks. He reclines with a sigh like an indolent lion after a feast and sips his drink with a distinctly lascivious flourish.

 

“Is there some news that three of you would like to share?” Paul asks cagily, shooting them an amused grin. “You all back on again or you still off?”

 

“If you were the meat in this sandwich….” Deacon lifts his hands to trace Gabriel’s face and Spike’s leather clad legs. “…You’d see the appeal of getting… off. If that was some bizarre way of asking if we’re dating again then no it’s still Gabriel for me. Spike’s just a welcome treat now and then.”

 

“You know you three are really kind of strange. You don’t mind if the hotter than hell man you love lives with the walking advertisement for spontaneous pregnancy as long as you get a little taste now and then. I wish my ex was that tolerant, I hear she’s got herself a fine looking new roommate.” Paul jokes and they all chuckle.

 

Spike takes a sip of his blood laced wine as his chuckles die down and stiffens as the same feeling from the coffeehouse earlier returns to prick at his instincts. He looks around but can’t see much through the sea of people but it’s enough to snap him out of his lethargy and he looks around with casual observance. He tries to relax as he fails to spot any trouble but something coils deep inside him and he can feel his Demon stirring to wakefulness.

 

Spike draws his legs up and crouches on the faux leather upholstery of the seat and rolls over the back of the booth in an agile move a cat would be hard pressed to recreate, gaining his feet.

 

“I think I’m going to take a little walk and work off some… tension. I’ll meet you at the truck in two hours?” Spike says in a low voice, causing Gabriel and Deacon to straighten up, all levity washed from their faces as they start looking around suspiciously.

 

“Is there something wrong?” Deacon asks trying to spot trouble but not seeing anything.

 

“Is it something that we should be calling security for?” Gabriel asks quietly, reaching over the table and snagging Spike’s sweater, handing it to him.

 

“I think something is hunting in here, I’m going to see if I can find it first.” Spike says quietly. “I can handle it; you guys stay here and have some fun. I feel like doing some more dancing.” Spike cracks his knuckles with a dangerous smile. He slips his sweater over his head and smoothes it into place with sweeps of his palms. “I love the smell of wood in the evening.” He says pursing his lips as his friends snicker at the mangled movie quote as Spike slips into the shadows and is soon lost from sight.

 

Angel watches from the shadows of a pillar and shoves his phone at Wesley. “Find out who they are.” He orders in a growl as he plunges into the crowd in the direction that Spike went.

 

Wesley flips over the phone and sees that Angel has taken several photos, the images currently stored in his phone’s memory. “Wouldn’t it just be easier to go ask them?” He mutters turning and cursing as he realises he has no bloody clue where the exit is and he stomps off mumbling darkly about Angel’s dubious parentage.

 

Chapter Eight

 

Spike slips out of the club silently and plunging into the shadows of a deepening night and heading for the truck as he folds his jacket over his arm. He pulls his keys from his pocket and finds the small remote for the truck and deactivates the alarm, pressing a second button to unlock the truck and a third to unlock a lock box in the back. He ignores the prickling of awareness on the back of his neck, he knows he’s being followed but his quarry is very good at shadowing him, staying just beyond the range of his senses. He opens the rear tailgate and opens the secure compartment, revealing a surprising array of weaponry both modern and… specialized.

 

Spike sets his coat down and slips out of his sweater and folding it neatly before setting it aside on the tailgate; it was a handmade gift from Letty and it has too much sentimental value to risk getting messed up. Spike leans over the tailgate and pulls out a pair of matched Silver daggers, running his thumb lightly along the double edges to check the sharpness and nods satisfied. He kneels and lifts his right pant leg and grabbing one of the daggers he thrusts it into a concealed sheathe built into his boots. He repeats with his other leg before smoothing down the leather pant legs. He pulls out a compartmentalized belt similar to the type used by the military and he buckles it around himself and it settles down on his hips below his waist. He adjusts it briefly so that it rides comfortably and opens the pockets and checking inside and nodding in satisfaction. He spreads his coat open and pulls out several carved wooded stakes and slips them into loops sewn into the lining of the jacket, one in the back and two sitting side by side on each side of the front closure.

 

A familiar scent tickles his sensitive nose and he smiles as a powerful arm reaches past him to pick up two stakes and Spike turns his face to meet Gabriel’s nuzzle as the larger man rubs his cheek affectionately with chin.

 

“What took you so long?” Spike asks with a chuckle that turns into outright laughter as Gabriel cuffs the back of his head playfully.

 

“It wasn’t easy to convince Deacon to stay with Paul, he wanted to come too.” Gabriel shrugs with a grin. “We couldn’t all leave though, Paul would have been suspicious and since he doesn’t know about our nocturnal leanings… one of us had to stay behind. Deacon is learning a lot from us but he’s not ready to take up slaying as a full time hobby; maybe one night soon but not tonight.” Gabriel selects his armaments while Spike slips into his jacket and leans against the tailgate. “What are we hunting tonight anyway? I haven’t seen you looked so spooked in a long time, something has really been getting your back up tonight, ever since the coffeehouse.”

 

Spike chuckles and shakes his head. “Nice reference Cat-Man and I don’t know what has my ‘back up’ but I rather suspect we’re the hunted rather than the hunter tonight. Clever bastard whoever they are and they have to know what I am, they’re staying just out of range and I can’t get a definite bead on whatever it is but I know it’s there. It feels like bees crawling over my skin and stinging me occasionally.”

 

Gabriel shudders comically. “Ewww, bees, I hate bees. I hope it’s not a huge demonic bee.”

 

Spike chuckles again and steps away from the tailgate as Gabriel locks the truck back up and trips the alarm again. “All the things we’ve seen, fought, and killed and you’re scared of bees.” Spike snickers as he walks down the street. “Don’t worry, pet, if it’s a demonic bee I’ll hold it off while you run to a shop and get an economy-sized can of Raid©.”

 

“Oh that’s very funny, Wil!” Gabriel follows Spike down a small access alley between the club and the dry cleaners next door and within minutes they’ve left the hustle and bustle of the busy Seattle streets and entered another world. “Seriously… there isn’t any such thing as Demon Bees right?” Gabriel asks with a nervous chuckle. “Wil; Wil are you listening? There isn’t right; Wil?” Gabriel stares at Spike’s back as they shake in silent laughter and he jogs up to keep pace at Spike’s shoulder, looking around with a furtive expression.

 

It is a world that exists alongside our own but one that couldn’t be more different as they enter the warrens of back alleys and shadowed entrances to the underworld of the city. Here in this place the rules of society cease to function and the conventions of civilization fall away. Whether you’ve gotten that new promotion, your child is failing English or your lawn is being overrun with Crabgrass falls to inconsequence. In this place survival is the rule that matters and here only the fittest can make it for long. It is a jungle in the heart of the city and its predators as deadly as any in the world.

 

They’re well into the labyrinth of crisscrossed alleys; trash strewn thoroughfares, and crumbling humanity, moving quickly and quietly. The dust of several Vampires already dull their clothes in scattered spots but the night is pretty quiet as though word that the hunters are out has spread through the discarded population like wildfire. The burgeoning sky finally reaches its breaking point and the first flurry of newly falling snow begins to appear.

 

Buffeted by the developing storm the wind shifts direction abruptly and Spike freezes in mid-step his muscles freezing and locking. He slowly lets his foot continue its fall to land lightly on the ground and he pivots to face the direction they’ve come from.

 

“Gabriel go back to the Club and check on Deacon and Paul, now.” Spike’s voice is low and soft but the thread of command is clear.

 

Gabriel doesn’t stop to argue but leaps and easily clears the twelve foot distance to the raised ladder of a fire escape and climbs up. “Spike….” He pauses and looks down worriedly.

 

“Go Gabriel, you can’t help me with this.” Spike orders but softens the tone with an affectionate glance. “I’ll be along when I’m done.”

 

Gabriel gives in and starts to climb, he can make better time going over the rooftops, eager to get back to make sure Deacon and Paul are alright. “You have half an hour Wil.” His voice drifts back down.

 

Spike glances up and watches the darting form until it’s out of sight before returning his gaze to the street. “So you want to play games do you? Let’s dance.”

 

Spike turns on his heel and streaks down the street, leaping and catching the edge of a fence and deflecting his trajectory to land lightly on the other side with little slowing of his momentum as he streaks into the darkness. He grins at the sound of the violently rattling fence and the flurry of cursing as he taps into a formidable core of speed and agility to outrun his pursuer. He leads a merry chase for several miles before he slows and leaps up onto the concrete rise of a loading dock and ducks into an open bay and out of the increasing snowfall. The warehouse is quietly deserted, the empty room obviously recently cleared and the doors left open to air the bay before the next shipment. He jogs over to the metal staircase that leads up to the catwalk and climbs up a few of the treads and stretches out to wait.

 

He’s somewhat impressed when he doesn’t have to wait long before a powerfully built form explodes through the gaping maw of the bay and skids to a stop, looking around. He rises gracefully, slipping his coat off and setting it on the stairs before kneeling and pulling the daggers from their concealed sheathes and setting it on top of his jacket. He won’t need weapons for this.

 

“A bit far from LA aren’t you Peaches?” Spike’s voice is a husky combination of a purr and a growl as he stalks forward, his weight distributed on the balls of his feet. “There are better ways to go sightseeing if you’re interested in seeing the town.” His nose twitches as the familiar scent fills his lungs. No one on the planet smells like his Grand-sire. The faint scent of moss with the slight tang of salt air with an undertone of heather, very faint but distinct, underlying the stronger scents of a sharply clean smelling aftershave, blood, age, and power.

 

Spike circles Angel slowly, just out of range of his long arms, his muscles tense and ready, and his eyes watchful. “What are you doing following me around Seattle, Angel?”

 

Angel watches Spike warily, marvelling at the changes in him. “Wesley needed some book that he couldn’t live without, he asked me to come along. I certainly never expected to find you here, Spike.” Angel replies honestly. “Curiosity got the better of me so I followed you. Still playing the hero I see but the sidekick is a new twist. Who is he Spike? I saw that jump he made; no human could have made it.”

 

“It doesn’t matter who he is, Peaches. You’ll be gone soon enough and it won’t matter then will it? I’ve been a good boy Grandpa; you don’t have to worry about your precious humans, they’re safe.”

 

Angel darts forward, his hand flying out and closing around Spike’s throat and lifting him and holding him several inches off his feet. “Watch your tongue with me Lad. You’ve forgotten your place, boy.”

 

The last word is driven out of him on an explosion of air as Spike’s boot drives into his abdomen forcing him to drop him and letting him spring backward out of range and landing in a crouch.

 

“I’ll ask you again Angel, why are you following me and I suggest you answer me before I decide to stop asking you what I want to know and this gets… physical.” Spike stands smoothly, his hands sliding up his thighs to brace his hips in silence defiance. The pose causes the muscles in his well-developed form to ripple under his silken skin and painted on t-shirt.

 

“You left LA without a word and to my knowledge with nothing but the car you’ve stolen from me, colour me curious as to what you think you’re up to. You were living, though I use the term loosely, in my Lair Spike, you know what that means. You left without my permission.”

 

Spike looks amused. “Don’t even bother to use that Sire’s Rights argument with me. Firstly it wasn’t my choice to get stuck in that bloody office building. I couldn’t leave without getting yanked right back like a dog on the bloody leash if you recall. You can hardly claim that I invoked Childer’s Rights therefore I am not bound by it. Secondly, you told me several times to leave, don’t bitch when I finally *do*.”

 

Spike starts to slowly circle Angel as he stands fuming. “You gave up your Sire’s Rights to your Childer one by one, why cry now that you can’t control us… those of us left that is. You stood by and let Penn be destroyed and I hear that Lawson paid Daddy a visit and got swept up in a vacuum for his trouble. You left me crippled both physically and later with the chip those bastards in the Initiative drilled into my brain. Drusilla mentioned she found your hospitality a little too hot to handle after you set her on fire. Not to mention having the dust of your Sire on your hand over a SLAYER. I understood she was my little sister and part of your little experiment in Vampire Flambé too. So shall we count then Peaches? Your Childer Penn and Lawson, your Sire once, attempted destruction of your Childe Drusilla and Grand-childer Darla and of course me. You systematically managed to destroy every member of the family that was left, bravo.” Spike growls, looking pleased as Angel winces and looks ashamed for the few seconds it takes him to steel his features into an imposing mask of unemotional stoicism.

 

His features soften only briefly as they look at his once proud Sire. “I do understand Angel, in a way that I never could before I fought for my soul. It wasn’t your fault that we did the things that we did you know? You didn’t create us Angel; Angelus did, if anyone is responsible for what we’ve done it was him not you. Wes told me all about your shiny prophecy of being a real boy, Pinocchio and I have to honestly say that I don’t understand why you feel the need. You’re more human than you are Vampire.”

 

“What would you know about it Spike?” Angel snarls swiping the air with a massive clawed hand that Spike cagily dodges with an agile side step and a smile. “You can’t presume to tell me you have any idea what I feel.” Angel denies with a growl of vexation.

 

“If not I than who Angel; you know very many souled Vampires do you?” Spike asks seriously, his eyes glinting dangerously. “I am the only one in the world that can understand, don’t you get that? Only I have to say I think I’ve managed it a bit better than you have, this whole having a soul business.” Spike says sounding absurdly proud of the accomplishment.

 

“You were a babbling idiot in a basement and a toy for The First to bat around for how long?” Angel asks snidely.

 

“It was a lot less time than you Rat-Boy. It didn’t take me long to figure out the truth and make peace with I am. Would you like me to tell you what that truth is?” Spike offers magnanimously.

 

“Oh why not, if nothing else it should be amusing to hear.” Angel says deliberately sounding bored.

 

“I was a Demon, I did what Demons do. I lived according to my nature and yes I killed and fed on Humans. Didn’t really have a choice did I Peaches? We can subsist on animal blood but it weakens us, makes us easy targets for our own kind. We’d have been killed long ago if we weren’t unusually strong compared to most of our kind you know. Everything in creation preys on something else to survive. Do you blame the Lion for killing a Zebra; hunt a Tiger for killing a goat or a virus for making someone ill? Do you blame a Human for eating a hamburger? I’m positive that a cow would certainly see that as an act of murder but you see the thing about cows is… they understand the nature of things. Grass gives up its existence to feed a cow, the cow gives up its life in turn to feed a human… humans give up their lives to us and in the end they return to the ground to nurture the grass and it starts all over again.”

 

“You’re seriously not comparing a cow’s life to a human’s life are you?” Angel says disgusted. “You’re feeding from Humans aren’t you?!”

 

“The question is why do you put a human’s life above everything else, including your own well-being? If cows… or pigs… could talk, I’m sure they’d have something to say about your one-sided logic. However we both know that for us the question isn’t the issue. You don’t need to kill a human to feed from them, so why do you punish yourself? You make your own trouble. Buffy didn’t have to send you to Hell; you live there every day willingly. Do you know how I beat you, for the first time, and it is only the first time as long as you insist on being less than you are. You deny the very things that make you more than human, the things that I embrace, that those you fight embrace. I am you, without the guilt, the endless questioning and worrying over every little thing. You’ve denied yourself to the point that you’ve literally divided yourself and your strength in two. Don’t lock Angelus up like a naughty little boy, use him. Yes I feed from donors Angel and I have friends that ensure that I have what I need to stay healthy.” Spike chuckles silently at the look of horror on Angel’s face. “Don’t get your tights in a bunch Poufy-Man; it’s not difficult to find supplies of discarded blood if you have the connections. I do.”

 

Spike takes a step forward, his eyes locked on Angel as he walks around him, slow deliberate steps until he’s so close that the tip of his nose is almost buried in the hair of his nape. “You don’t have to live half a life.”

 

“What would you know about it Spike?!” Angel growls spinning around, shocked to find he’s practically standing right on top of Spike. He inhales sharply as he gets an up close and personal view of one of the most awe-inspiring sights in creation, Spike’s eyes. They are truly astonishing from a distance but up close they become a universe of their own, deep and dark stormy pools that draw you in and hold you in a thrall that has absolutely nothing to do with the fact he’s a Vampire.

 

From a distance the hue of his eyes are changeable like the oceans to which his eyes are so often likened; the grey-tossed blue of stormy seas one moment, the clear serene cerulean of tropical seas to an almost glowing neon blue when his Demon stirs deep within, all have a home in his eyes. Up close the reason for his extraordinary eyes becomes clear as an entire spectrum of blue shades coil around one another in a patchwork of beauty. Silvery blue flecks dance in the irises deepening to flashing golden topaz as his passions or his Demon is roused and unleashed. They are true wonders of nature and set into his vaguely feline features and lit from within by a personality that could power a city, they are unforgettable.

 

“What do I know about living with my Demon?” Spike asks the corner of his mouth tilting up in a half grin as his brow quirks up. Angel has the grace to look embarrassed. “If you lose your soul you try to send the world to Hell, without my soul I saved the world from Hell, TWICE. Do you still want me to answer your question?” Spike asks softly, taking another step and finally pressing their chests together as he nuzzling his cheek along Angel’s chin.

 

Angel squeezes his eyes shut and takes a step away until they’re no longer touching. “What are you trying to prove Spike?”

 

“Am I trying to prove something?” Spike asks, sounding thoughtful. “I guess maybe I am trying to prove something but it’s only to me Angelus, not to you. From the day Drusilla brought me to meet you, I’ve never really been alone. First there was Drusilla and the family, grudging though my acceptance among you was. Then you ran off to play with the shiny new toy that was your Soul and the family self-destructed in your wake but Dru was still there. She needed me and I guess I needed her too, to give me purpose and a reason to be. You took her eventually but fate is a funny thing. You took my love but another of your loves picked me up. I found shelter among my prey and I learned to see them differently. Since the night my human life ended all I’ve ever heard is that my life is over, transformed from normalcy and that I was more than any human. That was wrong, I’ve figured out what the truth of my existence is and I’ve come to accept it.” Spike stalks over to a nearby girder support and leans against it, writhing as the freezing metal touches his warmer skin.

 

“And what is this grand self-evident truth of yours?” Angel crosses his arms over his chest and as impressive a sight as that may be it’s not enough to distract Spike from what he wants to say.

 

“I don’t need your charity or your magnanimous noblesse oblige to live in your shadow and accept the scraps that get tossed my way. This isn’t LA and no one bows at your feet here. This is my town, I’ve fought for my right to be here, paid for it with my blood. I’m not the familiar stranger here, this is my home. You don’t matter more than I do because you have a shiny entry in some dusty book of prophecies.” Spike straightens from the girder with a subtle shimmy of his muscles. “The Humans you protect so viciously, they don’t matter more than I do. Because I’m different then they are it doesn’t make me disposable. Evil wears a lot of faces and some of them are Human just as some of them are Demonic. I know why you can’t stand me, what makes you turn away from the sight of me and what makes you want to enjoy my pain. I may be a Vampire but I’m not dead, I’m more alive then you’ve ever been. That’s what you hate about me isn’t, that and the fact that you’ve fooled them all, everyone but me. You have them completely snowed and believing that you’re not Angelus. Darla didn’t just take your soul, she stole your humanity. You’ve changed how you dress and how you speak but you’ve never been completely successful at changing how you act. I’d say Darla and Penn could offer evidence to that effect. So could a room full of lawyers I’ve heard about and that mark on Wesley’s throat; that wasn’t a car accident like he told me was it? I know that it wasn’t, I’ve seen your work on enough occasions to recognize your hand in that scar.”

 

“Shut up Spike, just shut up! You don’t have a clue about what I think or feel!” Angel denies hotly. “You’ve always been jealous of me and wanted everything I have. You want to be me.”

 

“Does it make you feel better to think so?” Spike asks curiously. “You asked me what I was trying to prove and I didn’t really answer you. I’m not here to prove anything to you, those bruises I left you with spoke loudly enough in that regard. I’m here to live. Do you want proof that life exists for us Angelus?” Spike throws his arms open wide. “Here I am, living my life on my terms and out of your shadow. Drusilla may have taken my blood and with it my soul for a while but she didn’t take my life and you couldn’t pry it away from me. You hate me because I’m alive and I make you ask yourself the hard questions that don’t have any right answers. Don’t hate me because I refuse to crawl into the grave you’ve made of your life.” Spike stalks to the stairs and picks up his jacket, sliding into it. “Go home Angelus and rest in peace.” He turns and it’s clear that he intends to leave.

 

“You didn’t answer another of my questions. Who is he Spike?” Angel’s voice is a rumbling bass growl. “You looked very cosy, a close friend of yours or both of them I should say.”

 

Spike pauses but doesn’t turn around. “How is Nina, Angel?”

 

“That’s none of your business, Spike. Nina isn’t part of this conversation so leave her out of it.”

 

“Exactly, I’m glad you understand.” Spike resumes his walk towards the door.

 

Angel’s vision greys as he watches Spike walk away and he can only watch him go and with no idea where he’s living now, his chances of finding him are slim but he can’t seem to force his muscles to unlock and move. Maybe they’re just too used to standing by and letting things happen.

 

Chapter Nine

 

Spike calmly side steps the hurtling projectile that explodes past the area he was just in, casually reaching out and catching Angel by the collar of his jacket and locks his hand.

 

Angel stares at the concrete just inches from his face, held from what should have been a painful impact by Spike’s hold on his jacket. He swallows as Spike carefully levers him back and up against his chest, wrapping a powerfully muscled arm over his collarbone. Angel collapses back against him and takes a deep breath. “Why are things always so difficult between us Spike?”

 

“Maybe you just need some proof that you’re alive too.” Spike lets his head fall forward until his nose is buried in Angel’s hair and he takes a deep breath locking the memory of that scent deep inside his mind. He can barely remember what Dru’s scent was like and all his talk of independence aside, part of him still longs for Angel to see him as something more than a familiar stranger.

 

“Come back to LA with me Spike. Show me how to live?” Angel asks finally in a quiet voice.

 

“If you stay in LA, the question of living won’t be an issue. Lorne is gone, Gunn may as well be. Fred won’t stay forever, she’d not bred to live in the belly of the beast. How long before you’re alone?”

 

“How do you know about Lorne and Gunn?” Angel asks surprised.

 

“Just because I left doesn’t mean I stopped caring. I made it my business to find out how you were doing.” Spike pushes on his shoulder blades gently, levering Angel away and supporting him until he feels his muscles bracing under his hand ready to support his weight, and he stands. “All you’re going to find in LA is death, probably a very messy one. You’ve made a deal with the Devil but forgotten that the Devil always stacks the deck in his favour. You can’t win Angel.”

 

“I could with your help.” Angel says sounding positive. “We’d be a hard team to beat if we worked together rather than in opposition.”

 

“Do you know what you’d get if I came back to LA?” Spike asks wryly. “Just one more target for the Senior Partners to practice on.”

 

“It’s that man isn’t? He’s the reason that you won’t leave and come back with me.” Angel says flatly.

 

“No he was the reason that I stayed but he’s not the reason that I won’t leave. There’s a difference you know. I’ve made a life for myself here and all that’s waiting in LA is a slow death. I’ve been there done that and wore the gaudy jewellery. I figure I’m about at my limit for miraculous resurrections.”

 

“So it’s not me that you’re objecting coming back to LA for?” Angel turns his face away and he sounds uncharacteristically unsure of himself.

 

“No Pet, it’s not you that I’m turning down just the death and dismemberment at the hands of the Senior Partners part of the equation. You have options Angelus, use them while you can.”

 

“What options are those Spike? I’m the poster child for evil lawyers incorporated!”

 

“Only for as long as you stay in front of the camera Angelus. There are places beyond their reach.” Spike slithers around and straddles Angel’s lap, drawing his knees under him as he kneels comfortably on his thighs. “I made an interesting discovery when I was deciding whether or not to settle here on an extended basis. Were you aware that there isn’t a division of Wolfram & Hart in Washington; that there isn’t even a small field office? While I was researching I also found out there aren’t divisions in Alaska, New Mexico, Puerto Rico, or Louisiana either. I started getting curious about what could be different about those places as every other State had at least a field office and usually several in the key cities.”

 

“You know I don’t think that we’ve ever looked at it from that angle before. Wes has tried to find out what the other divisions are up to so we can try and come up with ways to block them from inside. I don’t think he’s thought to analyze the places where Wolfram & Hart isn’t and to find out what makes those places different from the rest.” Angel muses looking intrigued.

 

“I think it has something to do with those places having a lot of mystical energy and a deep connection to the old ways. For all its modern urbanization there are places in this State where no human has ever stepped foot. Much of the old ways still exist among all the races that share this place. I’ve seen Demons here that I thought were extinct and some that I think are except for their numbers here.” Spike tells him quietly. “I have a good friend that’s a Healer, a powerful Shaman for her people and she tried to explain it to me. Something about ‘Ley Lines’ and reservoirs of energy left from the time before time began. She mentioned something about a ‘Legacy of the Old Ones’ and something about a well… it was all a bit strange. Mystic stuff was never really my thing but you may want to pass that on to Wes.”

 

“You know I remember Wes mentioning something about a Well around the time that Knox disappeared and went missing.” Angel remembers snapping his fingers as the memory comes back to him suddenly. “There was a security log showing that he signed the receipt of a sarcophagus into the log book but when Fred came back to the lab there was no sign of it or Knox. Wes checked through the files on his computer and all he found was some vague mention about a Well and some girl named Lori or something like that, his girlfriend probably. I wonder if it’s a coincidence.”

 

Spike turns his face aside to hide the satisfied flash in his eyes. “It’s hard to tell, I never did like that Bloke. There was something shifty in the way he was always watching Fred when he thought no one was looking. He was probably up to something and it ended up biting him in the ass.”

 

“Wes shared your distrust of Knox.” Angel says dryly.

 

“Wes would have hated Knox regardless of whether he was Devil or Angel, pardon the phrase. Few men are wont to suffer a rival gladly and Wesley is interested in Fred.” Spike says slyly. “I wouldn’t be surprised if those two got their act together eventually.” His features smooth into seriousness. “Give them the chance Angelus. Leave LA and Wolfram & Hart while you can before something happens that you won’t be able to fix. I imagine you have enough guilt you’re carrying around already.”

 

“You know this could be a record. We’ve been talking for a whole ten minutes and we haven’t started fighting.” Angel observes quietly, clearing his throat nervously. It occurs to him that he’s enjoying Spike’s weight in his lap and not sure what to make of that.

 

“Well I imagine it would be a difficult prospect to argue with a man sitting in your lap, there are all sorts of not altogether pleasant sensations that could follow such folly.” Spike points out.

 

“Maybe I should just make sure you’re always sitting in my lap then!” Angel exclaims sounding as happy as a man that’s suddenly discovered the cure for all the ills in the world.

 

“Sure that’d work during a fight, whatever we’re fighting would be laughing too hard to defend itself, easy kill.” Spike jokes. His breath hitches as Angel slowly runs the palm of his hand up and down his back and he has to wonder if he realises he’s doing that or not.

 

“You were lovers weren’t you, that man and you?” Angel finally asks what he’s really wanted to know since he saw Spike with that big ape.

 

“Which man would that be?” Spike asks innocently and almost laughs at the uncomfortable look on Angel’s face.

 

“Well either, you looked pretty familiar with both of them damn it.” Angel grouses darkly.

 

“It was both and it was a while ago but we’re still… close, as you saw. They’d accept me in their relationship again I suspect if I showed an interest in renewing things on that level.” Spike admits honestly, taking pity on him. “It’s not about the sex, that’s easily come by and I’ve never lacked in that department. It’s about intimacy, inviting someone into your life and knowing that you can trust them with it and with all that you are. It’s very liberating and being so close to them, well it gives me what I need.”

 

“And what is it that you can get from a man that you need?” Angel asks boldly but then he lets his lashes drop over his eyes. “I mean… I never knew that you were, well that way. That one time we… you didn’t seem to enjoy it much.” He mutters barely loud enough for even their more than Human hearing to pick up. “You sure seem to enjoy it now though.”

 

“Oh yes I didn’t like it so much that I went right out and had a relationship with Penn for ten years.” Spike says shaking his head and looking at him like he’s lost his marbles but then his mouth drops open in shock. “You didn’t know that Penn and I were lovers back then did you?”

 

“I… no… no I didn’t know that. I think I would have killed him if I’d known that.” Angel breathes.

 

“Well you stood by and let him die eventually but hey what’s the life of one more Demon even if he was your ‘son’ right?” Spike says bitingly. “As Dad’s go you’ve really been the pits ya know?”

 

Angel stiffens and he wants to deny the charge but what Spike said earlier repeats in his mind and he realises that’s it’s true, he has managed to single-handedly decimate a once proud Order to almost nothing. He’s put the lives of Humans above his kindred and kin and ignored the evils that men do while he punished Demons for what they do simply because it is their nature to do.

 

He’s honest with himself, he’ll never be able to stand by and let a Human be harmed by the actions of a Demon. If he sees a Vampire killing a Human then he’d interfere but how many times has he stood by and watched news report after news report about the evils that men do and never realised that he was seeing his world in absolute black and white? Men kill each other for stupid reasons over things that matter only to them only for moments, here one minute and smoke and illusion the next. Why are they worth more than the lives of his Childer? Granted Penn was dangerous the antithesis of life and his death was inevitable. His mad Drusilla, trapped forever with a fractured mind, eternally his Childe, a little girl with no conception of right and wrong. They are beyond his help as much as Darla was, their humanity nothing more than a faint echo in time, given up joyfully to the darkness that consumed their lives.

 

He runs his palm over Spike’s back, marvelling at the feel of petal soft cotton sheathed muscle. His strength is impressive and undeniable. Here is the true legacy of his life, this extraordinary Vampire that has not only followed in his footsteps but has passed him by to show him the way to salvation. He’s forced to admit to the sting of pride when he thinks about what Spike has been able to accomplish even without a soul he was a better Vampire, a better man then he was so it’s little wonder that he makes a better souled version too. He’s given him some words for thought tonight and taught him a valuable lesson about perspective and he wonders what else he might be in the mood to teach him.

 

“How did you know that you liked men?” He asks, running his palm down to his waist, his fingertips tracing the fine leather of his belt and pants.

 

“I assume that you mean sexually and not as best mates I’d invite along for a pint at the local pub then?” Spike says with a chuckle. Angel nods and looks down shyly.

 

“I have you to thank for that realisation. That night against the alley wall was my awakening. It was quick and frenzied but it changed the way that I saw the people around me. I found pleasure with Dru in many forms, some bloodier than others, but there was always part of me that was left wanting and unsatisfied. You showed me a deeper pleasure that night and I understood that I was incomplete and that what I needed was something that Dru could never give me; she could never make me whole, no woman could. I knew then that I’d enjoy being with women but that they’d never give me the deeper pleasures that would make me really happy and content.”

 

“Did Penn make you happy?” Angel asks curiously.

 

“He made me happier.” Spike replies enigmatically. “After you left us in China and he returned, I was happier. Darla was dragging Dru all over Europe and Asia so it was just us for several years. He left when Dru returned and I refused to leave with him. I couldn’t leave her she wouldn’t have lasted out the year on her own and she was my Sire so I stayed and I never saw Penn again until he showed up in Sunnydale.”

 

“Penn was in Sunnydale?” Angel is surprised but he doesn’t know why. Of course Penn would follow the rumours to Sunnydale just like Spike did to find him in his desperate attempts to heal Dru. Then it occurs to him that Penn could have just as easily followed the rumour mill and arrived looking for Spike rather than him.

 

“Briefly but he left and followed us to South America when he found out that we weren’t in Sunnydale but he didn’t stay long but neither did I really. Dru was up to her tomcatting again and I was never one to wait in line patiently so we both drifted away. He found his end at the in the point of a stake and my life was stolen by a bunch of government thugs.” Spike shrugs and sits back heavily, weighed down by the not so pleasant memories.

 

“Tell me what you saw in him?” Angel says in a rush trying to distract Spike from topics best less thought of in this moment.

 

Spike isn’t foolish enough to think that Angel is still talking about Penn. “That’s a provocative question, are you sure that you want to hear the answer?”

 

“I want. To hear it, I do.” Angel says earnestly.

 

“Have you ever had an equal in your life Angel? Someone that you didn’t have to hold back with, that could match you in every way? Buffy was strong but she wasn’t my equal and I know that she wasn’t yours. You had to hold back at least partly, so did I, part of my mind always had to be aware that I couldn’t share everything that I was with her, not without hurting her, not in the good way. Dru may be older than I am and stronger in some ways with her spooky little mind tricks and tolerance for pain but she’s never been as physically strong as I am. I had to hold back even with her.”

 

“Women are fragile in some ways compared to men on a physical level; it’s just part of what makes us two genders. It doesn’t make one sex better than another, it just makes us different.” Angel preaches.

 

“Save it for Gloria Steinem, Pet, I’m not talking about equality of the sexes here. It is just a fact that I’ve never met any woman that could match me physically, not even Buffy.” Spike leans closer stifling a gasp as he can feel Angel’s muscles shifting fluidly against his skin as he braces to support his weight. “Do you know how seductive it can be to not have to hold back? To know that you can give all that you are to someone else and know that they can not only take it but that they want it? Women are soft curves and hills and valleys. Men are planes and angles and strength and familiarity. I’m not sure that I could tell you but I could show you. Would you like that? Let me show you how it feels. Will you let me show you Angel? Will you take the chance that you may like what I do to you?”

“I want to go back to that club. I want to dance with you like that guy.” Angel admits, neither granting nor denying Spike’s request.

 

Spike rises smoothly to his feet, dragging his body along the length of Angel’s chest until he can press his cheek against the rippling muscles of his abdomen. “You want to dance?” He strokes his fingers through Angel’s hair, pulling his head back until their eyes can meet. “We don’t need to be in public for that.”

 

Spike starts to hum, rocking his hips from side to side slowly, the movement slowly travelling through his body until he is sinuous motion, boneless and fluidly graceful. He deliberately rocks his hips forward against Angel only to drift away seconds later until Angel is unconsciously following his movements as he slowly backs away, leading Angel.

 

Angel is on his feet before he realises that Spike has led him there, dancing around him in concentric circles a deliberate sensual parody of his earlier movements when they were fighting. He sighs as Spike brushes against him only to groan as he is just as suddenly gone. It’s too much and he darts forward and locks his arms around Spike’s waist yanking him to him. The sound he makes then is foreign even to his experienced ears as Spike’s slight form melts against his filling an emptiness that he didn’t know he had.

 

Spike slides his palms up his arms and over his shoulders and around to his nape, sinking into the short hairs that tickle that delicate patch of skin. The humming becomes a low breathy singing that dances over his nerve endings like caressing fingers.

 

Shadows

Now curtain the moon

But faith swears

It will shine again soon

Shine with love

You've been hiding from me

 

They sway together, shuffling their feet and barely moving their bodies until they pitch and roll into a sweeping waltz that has them gliding across the empty floor. The memory of long gone ballrooms and the dressy gala balls of yesteryear flit across their memories. They know this dance and they dance it well. Their strengths are well met and their power belies their grace.

 

 Your kiss

Has hindered the day

A longing

That won't go away

You just keep knocking

And waking my heart

Like daylight chasing the dark

 

Spike lets Angel twirl him into a spin before catching him up against him once more, uncaring when his feet leave the floor and he’s carried along on Angel’s fervour. He tightens his arms and calls up the music of his soul, singing his heart into the music.

 

I can exist being caught by your kiss

Willingly

Or grant you control

Of my body and soul

Ask it and so it shall be

 

He melts closer to breathe the last line directly into Angel’s sensitive ear and he nips the lobe playfully as Angel’s grace falters for a moment and he is dropped back to his feet on Angel’s broken gasp and unconscious thrusting of his hips. “Ask it and so it shall be.” He whispers once more turning them into another gliding sweep across the floor.

 

 Shadows

Now curtain the moon

Still faith swears

It will shine again soon

Shine with love

You've been hiding from me

With that love

You've been hiding from me

 

Angel gasps and his arms lock around Spike, driving them both forward against one of the support girders, Spike trapped beneath his weight and the immovable strength of the pillar. He backs up just enough to let Spike slowly slide down his body and regain his footing. The friction catches the soft material of his t-shirt and rolls it up baring an impressive set of sculpted abdominal muscles that draw Angel’s hand like a magnet does iron shavings. He can’t stop touching the silken expanse it’s much warmer than he would have thought. Perhaps it’s just one more instance of Spike’s overwhelming humanity.

 

Spike leans back against the pillar and slides his arms around Angel’s shoulders and pulls him to rest against him as he rises up on the ball of his feet and presses his lips lightly to Angel’s rubbing lightly as he continues singing, soft and low.

 

I can exist being caught by your kiss

Willingly

Or grant you control

Of my body and soul

Ask it and so it shall be

 

Angel wraps his hands around Spike’s waist and lifts him easily, his head falling back on a hitched breath as Spike’s legs curl around his waist, supporting his weight. His palms tingle as they brush over the warmth of his skin as he catches the end of the t-shirt and strips it over Spike’s head. He inhales sharply as the sculpted perfection of Spike’s chest is revealed to his avid gaze.

 

“Ask it and so it shall be.” Spike lets his palms slide up from Angel’s nape to cup his face as his thumb smoothes over his full lower lip.

 

“Kiss me Spike. Show me….” Angel leans forward sighing just as their lips touch and their bodies melt together.

 

“I’ve always loved you Angel….”

 

A talented mouth robs him of his power of speech as Angel arches into the sharp bite of pleasure.

 

Epilogue

 

 “Angel? Angel…? The steward said we’re heading for turbulence, you should buckle up.”

 

Angel is startled out of his dream by Wesley’s voice and his hands move of their own accord to buckle his seat belt. He grabs the front of his jacket and crosses it over the clear evidence of his dream as his arms cross his chest. “What progress have you made locating Spike?”

 

“We’ve been in the air for an hour and a half Angel and the only clue we’ve got are some questionable photos on your picture phone. It’s going to take time to find Spike even with our resources.” Wesley says staring at Angel in amazement. “If it was so important to get Spike back why didn’t you just knock him over the head and pack him in your luggage?”

 

Angel snatches his phone and looks through the pictures and isolates the one he wants and throws the phone at Wesley; who fumbles not to drop it. “Find him and we find Spike. Enough excuses, Wes. I want Spike found and I want to know everything about his life.”

 

“And when you know all there is to know? What then?”

 

“I get back what’s mine.” Angel sits back in his seat and lets his eyes slip closed, closing out Wesley’s continued yapping. Maybe he can reclaim his dream until he can find and reclaim Spike. He wonders how much of his dream is fact and how much of it is wishful thinking on his part. Whichever it turns out to be he knows one thing, he has too much to lose to let Spike walk out of his life. Maybe, just maybe, he’s got something to prove too.

 

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 Prologue

 

The Seattle weather is obliging and the thick layer of clouds keeps even a hint of sunlight from showing through. There will be no sun today and even as the hands of his watch inch towards dawn the first few flurries begin to fall. His silent vigil continues until the powerful jet finally taxis to its runway and with an explosive burst of speed, soars heavenward.

 

He tracks the jet’s path until it is beyond even his keen eyesight and he looks over his shoulder at the silent pair that has been watching his back for over three hours. As he turns away from the chain link fence their arms are there to pull him against warm bodies and welcome him with affectionate sweeps of their hands.

 

“So that is who you left LA to get away from?” Gabriel asks after a moment.

 

“Maybe I left LA so he’d find me.” Spike replies quietly, happy at the center of the warm blanket of bodies.

 

“Who was he?” Deacon asks, a little jealous of Spike’s obvious fascination with a man other than himself or Gabriel. While their relationship isn’t sexual any longer part of him will always yearn for the charismatic Master Vampire that introduced him to Gabriel and showed them the pleasures to be found in each other’s bodies. Without him he’d have been trapped in his illusion of heterosexuality and the joy that Gabriel brings to his life would have never happened.

 

“Angelus, though he prefers to hide behind the name Angel these days.” Spike reluctantly wiggles out from between the pair as he leans against the bumper of the truck and fishes a cigarette case and a lighter out of his coat pocket. His hand is shaking faintly as he lights the hand-rolled cigarette and takes a fortifying inhalation, blowing out the sweet clover scented smoke on a relieved sigh.

 

“That was your Sire?!” Gabriel exclaims in shock. For some reason he would have expected a more extreme reaction to seeing his Sire of all people but instead Spike looks calm and resigned.

 

“What; you mean that was your DAD?!” Deacon exclaims.

 

Spike stares wordlessly for a few seconds and then bends over shaking with laughter. “No… no, he’s not my Dad.” He wheezes through his laughter. He straightens after he recovers from his wild laughter. “Angelus is the Elder of the Aurelius Order, the Clan of sorts that I belong to; so that means technically that all Vampires of that lineage are his subjects. However Angelus is the Sire of my Sire Drusilla and that means he was the one that created her and she in turn created me. Under Vampiric tradition a Sire is responsible for all that their Childer do, so when Dru created me, I became one of his Childer as well but he’s my Grand-sire if one has to get technical with the details. He was however more involved in my ‘upbringing’ than many Grand-sire’s because Dru was really incapable of caring for herself much less any Childer she created. Angelus forbad her to make any after me when he’d found out what she’d done and reared me in her place but he wasn’t about to do that again. It’s a lot of work to rear a Childe and he was impatient on his best days with the responsibility.”

 

“So he what, raised you?” Deacon asks confused. He knows that their shared demonic heritage is a tie between Gabriel and Spike that will elude him but he tries his best to learn what he can about the two most important men in his life. They’re the closest thing he has to a family given his own less than picture perfect childhood. Spike starts to explain but slowly his voice softens as though travelling a great distance as his mind drifts into his own circumstances.

 

The son of a disillusioned ex-professor and a spoiled socialite had little contact with his parents prior to their deaths when he was barely in his teens. His home life was stable only to the succession of kind-hearted nannies employed to care for him. In a way he was lucky that his parents left him well-provided for so he could stay at the exclusive boy’s school that sheltered him to adulthood. He had no contact with his parents’ relatives both having long disowned both of his parents for their sins both real and imagined. How strange that he should have learned so much about life, love, and family from two Demons and the unusual family they’ve forged out of adversity.

 

He’s heard all the stories from Gabriel so he knows the pair has been through a lot together, only some of which he can understand. Spike was there for Gabriel when his marriage slowly disintegrated and the pain of facing the fact that his daughter belonged with her Mother. It was a difficult time for Gabriel but Spike’s friendship and support helped him through it. He rarely sees his half-Vengeance Demon daughter as she lives with his ex-wife in Arash Ma’har. Time being the fickle god that it can be, though only two and a half years has passed for them, well over fourteen have passed there and his daughter is well into her teenage years. Spike was also there to help Gabriel embrace his Demon side even as he helped Spike to embrace his humanity. They’re extraordinary these best friends of his and he’s lucky to know them.

 

They were both there for him when he decided to turn his back on the profitable corporate life he’d been living and realise his dream of being a Fireman. The transition wasn’t an easy one but here he is one of the youngest station captains in the city. He’s learned to train his body and his mind to its utmost potential and he is a formidable example of physical ability, both benign and aggressively as the occasion warrants. He is the lover of one Hunter and shares the mutual friendship of another, it’s important to him that he learns enough about their world to live in it. Because he’s positive that he can’t live without them now.

 

“…So I ended up at that scenic overlook outside Port Townsend and Gabriel came along and stopped to see if I was alright. I stayed… and the rest you know.” Spike’s voice trails off.

 

 Deacon grimaces briefly realising that he wasn’t paying attention. He supposes it’d be poor manners to make Spike repeat it but he thinks that he understands most of it and he won’t ask him to repeat it again. “Well he’s gone now and he wouldn’t have gone if he was that upset that you left right? So it’s over right?”

 

Spike glances at the empty runway. “He’s gone for now but he’ll be back.” The confidence in Spike’s voice is clear to all.

 

“How do you know that for sure?” Gabriel asks, glancing at him confused.

 

“He can only find the answers to the questions that he doesn’t know that he’s been asking for a century from one person. Everyone has to wake up at some point; you can’t spend your life dreaming.”

 

“How can you be so sure that the person with the answers is here?” Deacon wonders still confused.

 

“Is all that we see or seem but a dream within a dream?” Spike replies as the corner of his mouth turns up in an enigmatic half grin.

 

“Edgar Allan Poe.” Deacon says with a grin. “I always liked that quote but what do you mean?”

 

“Oh I think I get it, it’s like that old conundrum right? Am I asleep dreaming I’m awake or am I awake dreaming that I’m sleeping?” Gabriel offers.

 

“Right, like that picture of a man watching the TV and the picture on his TV is of another man watching TV who’s watching another man watching TV and so forth. It’s a play on perspective.” Deacon realises. “Or like that old science fiction story that says our entire universe is only a an atom in a larger existence, that we could even be existing inside the body of something larger than we are.”

 

“Right, sometimes dreams happen for a reason and sometimes they’re more than dreams. For over a century Angel has been walking outside his mind when he sleeps and his mind floats outside the barriers he maintains when he is awake. He’s started to question whether the dreams are more then they seem.” Spike replies, a strange light seems to shine from the depths of his eyes.

 

“And you are the one that can tell him that.” Gabriel states flatly, not needing to make it a question. “Where does his mind wander when he’s sleeping?” He asks suspiciously.

 

Spike taps his temple. “A brave man runs where Angels fear to walk.”

 

“That’s what Mom has been helping you with isn’t? She knows what’s been happening doesn’t she?” Gabriel recognizes. “That’s why she’s been teaching you those meditation techniques!”

 

“Yes, you’re Mum’s a healer Gabriel, you know she can sense things that the rest of us can’t see and she can see the tie that bonds me to Angelus and through him to Angel. She has helped me to recognize what my Demon has known all along. We’ll never be finished; the connection between us will never be broken. It explains so many things….” Spike’s voice trails off. “Angel will never be whole without me and he’s going to wake up to that fact sooner rather than later I think. When he does he’ll back because there’s no where else for him to go.”

 

“Is that a common bond between a Sire and his Childer? I would have thought your Drusilla would have been more likely to feel this connection rather than you’re Grand-sire. Or is it that he is older and more powerful that makes the difference?” Deacon asks fascinated.

 

“As THE Elder of our Order his power is great that’s true but the bond we share isn’t wholly born of that tie but it may be magnified by it perhaps.” Spike replies quietly, his hand lifting to ghost his fingertips over the deep scar just below his left ear.

 

“What is it then that created the bond between you?” Deacon asks still utterly enthralled by the tale.

 

“Desire, obsession, possession… maybe even love of a sort all wrapped up in a secret we’ve carried for over a century.” Spike says quietly, he knows that explanation isn’t good enough from the expressions on the faces of his friends and looks around. “Why don’t we find some little diner or something where we can talk and not freeze our asses off?” He offers.

 

“Actually we should be heading for the ferry or we’ll have to stay in the city, Deacon why don’t you come with us and stay with me for a couple days? You’re off-call for the next week right?” Gabriel glances at Deacon with a hopeful expression.

 

“Yes I am and I’d love to. Do we have time to stop off at my place so I can pack a bag?” Deacon asks glancing at his watch.

 

“It will be close but we’ll have time if we go right now and you’re quick with the packing.” Gabriel says herding them to the car with all the skill of a sheepdog driving a flock and they’re on their way within a minute.

 

Gabriel doesn’t take his eyes off the road but he urges Spike to continue his story. “We’re warming up and we’re not in danger of freezing our asses off so go on.”

 

“Could you start at the beginning?” Deacon asks hopefully, eager to learn more about the enigmatic Vampire he considers one of his best friends.

 

“Ok the beginning. Angelus was sired by Darla, since you saw him, I’m sure that I don’t have to explain why she chose him.” Spike says wryly. “Darla was the favourite Childe of the then Elder and Master of the Aurelius Order, that’s like a Vampire Clan of sorts and he just preferred to be called the Master rather than by his given name. That’s actually fairly common, few Vampires actually keep the names that they had when they were human and for some names don’t mean much at all. What they are, well that is enough of an identity and they don’t want to remember *who* they used to be.”

 

“It must be a difficult transition to make.” Deacon says as an aside.

 

“It is very difficult, over three-quarters of those turned as minions will be destroyed within their first week of rising, some by their own inability to accept what they’ve become and others to unkind fates. I saw one of Dru’s newly risen minions actually trip on an exposed root and stake themselves not even two minutes raised. That is actually not that uncommon, their re-mortality rates are excessive as they receive little to no attention from the Vampire that created them. Childer since they’re usually cared for and protected by their Sires, most of them will survive their initial turning. Whether they live beyond that is rather dependant on their Sires.”

 

“Sort of like parents then? Some parents are attentive and love their children so they grow up well-adjusted and happy and others ignore or abuse them and they become twisted and broken?” Gabriel asks.

 

Spike nods pleased that they understand. “You could say a lot of things about Angelus but he cared for his Childer in his way and all of us survived and became Masters in our own right. Although Drusilla’s Master-ship is mostly the result of the sheer power of Angelus’ blood, his care, and the nature of her powers, rather than in her own right. If she wasn’t gifted with the powers of the mind that she has, she would never have made Master, her mental state is too fragile and she’s naturally submissive. She would have ended up as chattel to some stronger Vampire somewhere.” Spike’s voice sounds distracted as the memories play once more across the scenery of his mind.

 

“Angelus did what he could to make her as strong as he could, which was actually quite the challenge since he’d driven her mad before he turned her.” Spike continues his tale. “What Angelus accomplished was really very spectacular given the fact that Darla cared little for Vampiric Lore and the mores of Vampire Society other than to enjoy her status as the favourite Childe of a strong Elder that is. What Angelus knew, he taught himself or studied on his own, and an accomplishment that was very rare for the time in which he was turned. Whatever else could be said about Angelus, he was a survivor.”

 

“Is that why he took you under his wing and showed you how to survive as a Vampire?”

 

Spike chuckles at Deacon’s unwitting pun at Angel’s expense, ‘under his wing’ indeed. “I suspect it had more to do with the fact that if I had perished so soon after rising, that it would reflect badly on *him*. Angelus had much concern over his reputation and the image he projected. I think it had to do with his human life; he was the bastard son of a wealthy landholder and while his Father was generous, he knew that society would never recognise him as his heir. He would forever be the pampered bastard son and never the respected lord of the manor. I think it’s why he felt that his station in Vampiric life was so important. Regardless though of why he initially took me and raised me, it didn’t take him long to make it binding.”

 

“Drusilla didn’t object to having you taken away?” Gabriel asks surprised.

 

“Dru would have cheerfully watched while he killed me if that’s what Angelus wanted. I know that Dru cared, cares, for me but for her Angelus will always come first. It took a long time for me to accept that but I have and I even understand it now.”

 

“How did he bind you?” Deacon’s spellbound voice asks.

 

Spike’s fingertips reach up to trace the scar on his neck and his smile is sensual and wistful. “Angelus took me… here… obliterated the scar Dru left and drained me almost to dust and then over the course of the next month he fed me himself, three times a day until my blood was no longer truly hers but his. He became as much my Sire as she was perhaps more so. If another Vampire feeds on me he’ll taste Angelus in my blood, the strength of my blood, maybe Dru’s blood beneath that, and the power that is the Aurelius blood beneath it all. I am the Childe of Angelus by his choice and by my acquiescence. My Demon recognises him as Sire, the man in me recognises him… as more.”

 

“So is it because he took Dru’s place that you’re still bound to him?” Gabriel asks, trying hard to hide the twinge of jealousy that he feels. His relationship with Spike may have evolved but for a time, he was his and the thread of possessiveness still ties them together.

 

“No it’s when he did it for a second time.” Spike says quietly.

 

“It was a pleasant time, Darla had been called away to attend to her Sire’s whims and that left us free to indulge ourselves without censure. We’d been out hunting and we stumbled across a Slayer, almost got staked for our trouble. I was injured. I was still young back then, more than a few years away from achieving Master-ship, too young to take on a Slayer with even a faint hope of winning. Angelus was able to drive her off long enough to get us away. We didn’t dare go back to where we were lairing in case she was nearby, that would have left us vulnerable. He secreted us in a little used alley nearby to a coach station and started to tend my wounds as best that he could. If the Slayer tracked us down he figured he could carry me to a coach and we’d escape both the Slayer and the sun in relative safety. He licked my wounds clean and used his blood mixed with his saliva to close the wounds and begin the healing process. It took him over an hour. He hid me in the alley and left me several times to hunt, each time returning to feed me his blood between feedings, taking a little of my own each time.” Spike recalls.

 

“Finally my wounds were almost healed and I wanted to feed and return the care he’d given to me but Angelus refused to let me hunt alone with a Slayer in the area. I lured several… interested people to me instead. It was easy back then, alleys were common assignation spots for certain… activities, especially between men of the time. I fed well and Angelus fed from me and few things arouse a Vampire as easily as feeding and exchanging blood with a member of one’s bloodline.” Spike drifts in the memory.

 

“He had already taken you from Drusilla so what effect did the second claiming have?” Gabriel asks suspiciously.

 

“To understand that you have to understand just *how* a vampire is created. It’s not like the movies or the books would lead you to believe for the most part. Firstly, a Vampire doesn’t have to seduce a victim, they don’t have to be willing, minion or Childe can be created without consent, but curiously a Childe will be stronger if they *do* consent so they are often seduced, courted, or tricked into accepting their Sires. Minions are drained completely of their blood the Vampire then pierces their wrist and lets some blood enter their mouths. That forms the mystical conduit that allows a Demon to enter the body and reanimate it and a minion rises. It is essentially a blank slate and knows but one thing, loyalty to the Vampire that spawned it; nothing of their humanity remains, they are only Demons. It’s like… think of them like newly hatch ducklings, they imprint on the first living thing that they see, minions are almost the same, only they are bound the one who’s blood spawned them.” Spike explains.

 

“Okay I think I get it. Because they have no ties to the person they were, all they know is the one that created them and thus their loyalty is absolute right?” Deacon says excitedly.

 

“Basically that’s right, it’s a bit more involved but that’s basically how a minion is made and why.” Spike agrees, glancing over his shoulder to smile at Deacon encouragingly. “When a Vampire chooses to sire a Childe, they *aren’t* drained completely, they are allowed to retain some of their blood prior to receiving the blood of their Sire. While the act of siring renders them as subordinate to the Vampire that sires them, they retain a greater degree of their humanity; the qualities that in most cases led to their selection as Childer.”

 

“What’s the difference between siring and claiming?” Deacon asks, his hand lifts to stroke the scarred over bite mark on his shoulder, all but hidden beneath his shirt.

 

“In essence they are almost the same in that bonds are created that tie one or more Vampires together. Sometimes a Sire will choose to claim a Childe, often only their favourite is honoured so and the ties between Sire and Childe are strengthened.” Spike explains. “A claim is in some ways a deeper bond as it is forged between two fully developed Demons whereas a siring bonds a Demon to what is in essence an infant.”

 

“Can a Vampire have more than one claim on them?” Gabriel asks.

 

“No, a Demon will accept only one claim at a time, each new claim supplants the old and takes its place.” Spike replies.

 

“But you said that Angelus claimed you twice right? The first time, it was to wrest sire-ship from Drusilla but what did the second do?”

 

“That is probably the one facet of Vampire physiology, other than the stake, that books and movies got at least partially right and it was all on accident. You know how the oldest movies and books claim that a Vampire can only be created if the same Vampire feeds from them three times and then and only then can they be turned?” Spike asks with a sardonic grin. Deacon and Gabriel nod having read or seen that in some of the old late night horror movies. “Well as I explained that’s not true but there *is* a special set of circumstances that does require it. While the first claim between Vampires is commonplace, so much so that nearly every Vampire ever risen bears a claim, it is far more rare to ever find a pair bound by additional claims for a very specific reason. The second claim sets into motion what is a very unattractive result for most Demons. It initiates the mating bond, the tightest and most unbreakable of all the bonds that can bind Demon kind.”

 

Gabriel punches the brake and hurriedly pulls the truck over and turns to stare at Spike with disbelief in his eyes. Deacon leans over the back seat to rub his shoulders but his eyes are locked on Spike’s emotionless face.

 

“As I said, Darla was a poor Sire when it came to teaching Angelus about the Lore and the traditions and dictates of Vampiric society. I don’t think that he knew what that second claim would set in motion, though I suspect that the Demon possesses at least an instinctual understanding of what it meant, consciously he was ignorant to the import. I was young still considered little more than a fledgling myself, I didn’t understand what was happening and what I *should* have done when Angelus placed the second claim. Neither of us knew and we’ve been paying for our ignorance for over a century.” Spike says sadly.

 

“What do you mean? Are you or aren’t you Angelus’ mate? And if you are then what does that make Angel to you, since he’s the souled version of Angelus anyway?” Gabriel exclaims.

 

Spike reaches over and cups Deacon’s hand where it’s resting on Gabriel’s shoulder. “Drive Gabriel and I’ll answer what I can ok?”

 

Gabriel takes a deep calming breath and pulls back out onto the road and Spike continues his explanation. “You see mating is one bond that can’t *be* forced. The second claiming Angelus gave me should have been answered by one by me towards him but because I was too young and inexperienced, I failed to recognise it and act accordingly. Basically I left him at the altar with his vows already said.” Spike says heavily, a mournful expression darkening his eyes to deep indigo blue.

 

“When it was safe we returned the lair and found that Darla had returned. She ordered Angelus to pack his belongings; that he would be returning to the Master’s court with her. Angelus tried to refuse her but she was his Sire and her word was his law and he could not defy her. She took him and ordered us to stay, as the Sire of our Sire we too were bound to obey and we had no choice. Neither Dru nor I were strong enough to defy both Darla and Angelus so we stayed as we were bidden. They were gone for almost a year and when Angelus did eventually return, he bore no resemblance to the man that I knew. He’d become hard, brutal, callous, and a dozen other unflattering adjectives. As much as he’d come to care for me he now seemed to revile me. We came to blows several times and blood became not a thing of pleasure but of domination. He tried to break me and I took every opportunity to defy him until at last we were little more than constant irritations to each other.

 

“What would that do to someone…?” Deacon asks nervously. “…To have to live with a bond only half-formed?”

 

“Insanity by degrees and a century of the subconscious knowing what we’ve been blind to. I began to have terrible nightmares not long after my arrival in Port Townsend. Letty suggested that I try some meditation techniques she knows and she began to instruct me in their use; to perhaps find the reason for my nightmares and strange dreams. Letty showed me the way to access my subconscious. Not only have I made peace with the Demon part of me but thanks to you two, I’ve made my peace with my human part as well. I see things that I was blind to before, the motivations that were working on me silently and quietly. I knew the day would come that Angel would start to realise this as I have but I didn’t think it would be so soon.” Spike says softly, his eyes slipping closed as his mind turns inward.

 

So many things have been working against him; he has to wonder if any decision has ever been truly his own. He was a truly a Childe but Angelus could claim to be nothing more as well, both of them bound by a Lore that none of their Elders could be bothered to teach them. They have been the one to pay for their failure, Spike thinks silently. His pursuit of Buffy, he now understands had less to do with her than it did Angelus. Almost everything that had happened once he’d hit Sunnydale played to a fate larger than he was, larger than them both. It is a fate that will bring them back together… sooner rather than later. He descends into his memory as so many images flit across his mind.

 

Gabriel starts to lift his hand to pat his shoulder but Deacon intercepts it and curls his hand around it and leans forward to shake his head. After a moment Gabriel nods and relaxes his arm, letting his hand fall away and sighing as Deacon leans forward to press a kiss to the back of his neck before sitting back in his seat. They leave Spike to his thoughts and head for Deacon’s apartment and then… home.

 

Chapter Ten

 

Angel glances over as the steward wrestles the door closed and intercom’s the pilots to let them know that the jet is secured, before hurrying to a seat and belting himself in. His keen gaze brushes over a dozing Fred, leaning weakly against Wesley’s shoulder, who is yawning widely and looking only half awake. It’s taken them the better part of forty-eight hours to get their affairs in order and set their plans in motion.

 

They have been moving carefully and methodically, Wesley’s cleverness coming to the fore with Fred’s assistance and they have slipped the reins that Wolfram & Hart have so cleverly wrapped around them. It is truly a masterpiece of engineering on all of their parts. Gunn believes Angel is on his way to the New York office as Wes and Fred are supposedly on their way to the London office for a symposium on magically enhanced information systems. Thanks to Wesley’s magic and Fred’s techno-wizardry two Wolfram & Hart jets are winging their way to their destinations believing them to be onboard. Meanwhile they’re safely in San Francisco taking off in a privately hired jet. As soon as they’re twenty minutes out, the next phase of their plan will go into effect as a virulently malevolent magic-enhanced computer virus will be unleashed to ravish the Wolfram & Hart databases. Through the high speed network *all* of the Wolfram & Hart databases will be effected. Any and all records regarding them will be consumed in the resulting conflagration. By the time the virus can be halted the network will be irretrievably destroyed beyond reconstruction.

 

Before their departure they plumbed the network for highly sensitive material that has now been carefully distributed and concealed safely. Even if they should be found by Wolfram & Hart they’ll have the ammunition to force them to back off; it is also the means that will protect Connor. They can disappear into anonymity safely, thanks to all of their contacts and varied skills. Two days later they’re on the verge of new lives but he knows that his new life can only begin in the embrace of his old one. It’s time to go get Spike.

 

“Fred, Wes?” Angel says softly, then a little louder when it fails to stirs the sleepy pair. “Fred, Wes? We should discuss what we’re doing and then we can all rest for the remainder of the trip.”

 

Wes stirs first, nodding sleepily as Fred just sits blinking owlishly and allows Wes to guide her to the dining area once the steward tells them it’s safe to unbuckle their belts. Angel joins them and each sets their briefcases on the table as they slide into the booth. Fred and Wes remove slender notebook-type laptops from their briefcases as Angel removes a bulky array of file folders that he neatly stacks on the table before moving the briefcase aside.

 

Yawning Fred opens her laptop and accesses the program she lodged in a hidden file of the master mainframe. With a key taps of the keys the program is activated and it begins replicating through the system’s network to all the other Wolfram & Hart divisions. She keeps an eye on the screen monitoring the spread of the insidious virus she created with Wesley’s help for just such an eventuality that they may be forced to flee Wolfram & Hart and require certain assurances that they would prove difficult to track. Regretfully they all determined that Gunn was irretrievably compromised by his relationship with Eve and it was decided that they would leave without him. She turns her attention to Wes as he opens his own laptop and calls up several files that he reviews briefly as Angel does the same for the bulky files that he’s brought along.

 

“Ok shall we begin?” Angel says gruffly but the thread of excitement in his voice is a relief to his two friends that have been worried about him since their perhaps ill-conceived sojourn at Wolfram & Hart.

 

“My contacts came through for us.” Angel says proudly, sliding two thick folders across the table, one towards Wes and the other towards Fred. “I decided it would be best if we kept legal names near our own so Wes; you’re newly legal name is Weston Sebastian Pryce the third. You were born to an English ex-patriot that made his money in shipping and married into a well-to-do East Coast family, the Kenyons of Manhattan. You don’t see eye to eye with your family on account of your decision to not follow your Father into the family business and chose instead a scholarly career. My contact was able to hack into the pertinent databases and your PhD’s have simply been transferred accordingly and your credentials remain impeccable. You’d have no trouble applying to a university or other learning institution if you chose to pursue the scholarly lifestyle.”

 

Wes opens the folder and looks through the contents and he’s amazed to see that everything he could possibly need is included in the packet from a new social security card to bank account information and even a perfectly legal looking birth certificate and passport. Out of curiosity he opens the passport and has to shake his head at the attention to detail. It’s even stamped and well used and shows a dual citizenship and what looks to be a complete history spanning more than thirty some years of travel. He has to admit that it’s a clever idea, to have a name just enough alike to be familiar and comfortable but just different enough as to not be immediately linkable to him.

 

“Fred you were I admit, a little harder to ‘shop for’ as they say. Your name is so distinctive that it was difficult to come up with a name that would allow you to use Fred as a nickname. So I borrowed your Father’s middle name and your Mother’s name to come up with a name I think you’ll like and can live with. You’re name is Terri Frederica Burke. Since it’s unlikely you’ll find many jobs in nuclear physics where we’re going my contact constructed you a new scholastic and employment history that will allow you to use your other skills to higher effect. I did have him make arrangements for you to keep your physics doctorate though just on case. You double majored in Business and computer programming so either of those should provide a lot of employment opportunities.”

 

“What did you do for my parents Angel? I want to make sure Wolfram & Hart can’t connect me to them or use them in any way. I know it’s harsh but did you do as we discussed?” Fred opens the folder Angel gave her and looks through it.

 

“Yes, it wasn’t that difficult though I’m not sure if I should be worried about that or not. Your parents believe that you’re in the witness protection program. It was easy to formulate a convincing scenario with some help from Wes. They believe that you witnessed a mob execution and for your own safety that you’ve been placed in the program and that for security purposes they should tell everyone that you were killed in an auto accident. Wes falsified some documents to that effect and your parents just want you to be safe so they’ve agreed.” Angel replies. “Your new history lists you as an orphan from the age of eighteen and that you have no living relatives other than an eccentrically wealthy Great-Uncle that lives overseas and has given you a sizeable trust fund. That should make the personal finances we’ve brought with us fairly unnoticeable.”

 

“I’d rather they be without me than with me and in danger. It’s for the best.” Fred says sadly closing the cover of her folder, just as complex and detail-filled as Wesley’s is. “I’ve already got a job.” Fred reveals, ducking her head and pretending to look at the computer screen she’s monitoring as they shoot her amazed looks. When she thinks she can control her urge to grin she looks up and shrugs eloquently. “Wes told me where we were going so I logged onto the internet and found some job listings. I’ve been hired to run the office side of things for a small but lucrative investment concern. They’ve even offered my housing as part of my employment package.”

 

“That’s wonderful Fred. I should have expected you to surprise us as you’ve been doing that for as long as we’ve known you.” Wes says with an affectionate smile.

 

“Well I had a little help too. It turns out that I have a friend that lives a few miles away who was able to put in a good word for me.” Fred says shyly dropping her eyes.

 

“Tell her to put in a good word for us too!” Wes says with a chuckle that Angel echoes.

 

Fred glances away to hide the flash of ire in her normal sweetly placid eyes. They would of course assume it must be a woman; if only they knew! “What about you Angel?”

 

“Well given the whole ‘Vampire’ thing, I’m already largely invisible as far as the majority of the world is concerned. I’ve had an identity fashioned after my original one. I’m Liam Padraig Cailean, son of a deceased Irish Father and an American Mother, born in this country and an artist by trade. My Mother remarried an eccentric older man and currently lives in the South of France with my Step-father with whom I do not get along. To keep me out of trouble they’ve furnished me with a sizeable trust fund but it’s an open secret that they in fact pay me to stay out of their affairs. I’ve sold the occasional bit of art in my time so I think it’ll work as a cover and I doubt they’d expect to find me working as an artist.”

 

“That’s a clever idea, avoid them by hiding in plain sight.” Fred smiles brilliantly.

 

“If they do find us then our insurance policies will assure that it’s less costly to let us go than it is to try and get us back. I just wish that Gunn could have come with us.” Wes says sadly.

 

“I don’t think he’s been our friend since they stuffed his head full of who knows what. They could have taken more than they gave. I think Gunn is little more than a shell of the man we knew.” Fred replies wiping a tear from the corner of her eye.

 

“I think we still have someone there that we can trust to spread any gossip that we may be interested in. Harmony may have been only a passable secretary but as a spy she’s almost useful.” Angel says dryly. “A bit of money and a subtle threat or two and the natural subservience of her Demon should make her fairly reliable as a source of information but I don’t think we should rely on her. She’ll follow whoever is strongest to avoid being a victim; it’s the Vampire way for minions to survive.”

 

“I called Lorne; he still has contacts within Wolfram & Hart that could be valuable as well. He offered to try and keep an eye on Gunn but I told him that could be too dangerous and that he should try and keep his distance. He asked where we were going and I told him I wasn’t sure yet but that we’d try to get word to him when we were settled. He said that he wished us luck and that he thought we were all brave to leave while we could.” Fred states, dashing away another tear as she glances at her computer screen and quickly reviews the read-out. “Virus distribution is at eight-seven percent and multiplying exponentially along projected perimeters. It should reach saturation within ten minutes and the data cascade should begin at maximum density. It will eat their data system to the bare infrastructure before they even realise what’s happening to their system.”

 

“Well done.” Angel praises. “What about the hard copies?”

 

“They’re too arrogant to think that they need anything as old fashioned as hard copies with the level of security and technology they employ. Just to be sure though, I arranged for a little accident to befall the basement files. I’m sure they’ll be a bit surprised if they try to recover the hard copies with the Pyro Demon I let lose in there and all.” Wes says with a big grin.

 

“Well whatever little survives won’t be worth much with their penchant for burning everything in sight to ash and beyond.” Angel replies pleased. “What progress have you made on your research project? Are you positive that you’ve found him?”

 

“I’m fairly certain, let’s say a good eighty to ninety percent certain that we’ll find him in Port Townsend, Washington; or that we can find someone there that can lead us to him.” Wes runs a cable from his lap top to a data port built into the framework of the table and with a few taps of the keys a large white screen drops from its compartment in the ceiling plates and the lights dim. A few more taps and the pictures of three very familiar faces appear on the screen and Angel has to bite back an instinctual growl. “Here is what I’ve been able to learn so far.” Wesley types in some commands and two of the pictures dim, leaving one highlighted.

 

“His name is Gabriel Vincent Kane and contrary to appearances he is not altogether human but is at least one-quarter Feryan Demon through his maternal bloodline. I suspect that his Father may have be at least part Demon as well but I’ve found precious little information on his Father. His Mother however is fairly well known in certain circles as a Healer and a Mystic of no small ability. Leticia Kane is in fact a very formidable woman by all accounts who was left to raise Gabriel alone when her husband or Mate suffered an untimely death.” Wes recites glancing over at his notes now and then to refresh his memory. “He is currently the Sheriff of Port Townsend, a job he’s held for the last eight years. He shares a home with his Mother Letty and a William Seth Faulkner, a Deputy Detective in the Port Townsend Police Department.”

 

Angel jerks upright his eyes widening in shock. “What did you say?” He demands. “William Seth Faulkner?” He growls. “That’s Spike!” Angel slumps back muttering darkly under his breath.

 

“Then it would seem that the decision to head there is a prudent one.” Wes says simply before continuing his report. He taps some keys and a second picture is highlighted. “This man is Captain Deacon Ballard, he’s currently the youngest fire station chief in Seattle and it’s rumoured that his involved with Gabriel Kane in a long term relationship. I haven’t had time to find out much more than his name and what he does and that he lives in Seattle and that he spends quite a bit of time in Port Townsend. If the rumours of his relationship with Mr. Kane are accurate that would be logical.” He taps a few keys and the first two pictures fade and the last is highlighted. “This is Paulson Clifford Littlefield; he’s the Curator of Special Exhibits at the Burke Museum of Natural History and Culture in Seattle. I haven’t been able to discover much more then that, some sort of governmental security lock-out.”

 

“You’ve managed to find out more than I expected since we’ve had so much to do in preparation for leaving. I trust you attempted to do some background checks on William Faulkner.” Angel leans back and steeples his fingertips under his chin.

 

Attempted is the correct word and judging by your expression you expected that would be my answer.” Wes says with a small grin. “I’ve been able to find some sketchy information only as it seems much of the information is encrypted with a surprising level of skill. I’ve been running some decryption protocols but so far I’m not having much luck cracking the layers of protection they’ve layered over their systems. I have however discovered some interesting facts about Port Townsend itself.” Wes types in some commands and a small slide show of Port Townsend begins to play across the screen.

 

“Maximum density achieved, data cascade in five… four… three… two… one… activated.” Fred interrupts to quietly inform them. “I’ve set it to take out the area of maximum concerns first and then to the less high risk systems after that. LA, New York, Chicago, Washington D.C. and Detroit will be first, the others will simultaneously begin their conflagration cascades once Detroit’s database is destroyed.” Fred glances at her laptop screen. “LA and New York are gone, Chicago and D.C. are at ninety percent… gone. Detroit is at seventy-nine percent… eighty-five… ninety-three… gone. The rest of their databases are going doing at varying rates. It looks like they’re trying to stop its spread through the Rome office’s database; their rate of consumption is slowing but still progressing. I estimate they’ll lose everything before they can stop it at this rate. There are some other attempts but not as good and just as futile; they won’t be able to stop it before it destroys the database. We’ve done it.” Fred says proudly.

 

“Well done both of you! That won’t destroy them but maybe it will distract them for a few years from doing anything major while they reconstruct over a millennium’s worth of files and essential information. Please precede Wes.” Angel smiles warmly at the pair.

 

Wes turns his attention back to his report as Fred keeps a quiet eye on the progress of their nasty little surprise for Wolfram & Hart.

 

“During my research I’ve discovered that Port Townsend actually has a small but thriving Demon community. Now that’s not unusual by any means as most cities of any reasonable size will support communities of varying sizes. What I did find unusual however is the level of integration that exists in Port Townsend. Demons are actually accepted in the general populace and in some cases encouraged to take up residence. I’ve found instances of Demons holding public offices, running businesses, and in one surprising case, serving as the County Coroner. Of the Demons species that I have thus far identified, most are of harmless or benign species but there are instances of previously hostile species living peacefully amongst them as well.” Wes recites from his notes. “I’ve also been unable to identify several individuals and I suspect that they are either a new species altogether or perhaps a hybrid of one or more known species. It’s difficult to tell from the quality of the photos and information that I’ve been able to gather thus far; Demons rarely feel the need to fill out census forms.”

 

“If Demons really are a part of their community then that could explain why the level of security on their databases is so extreme. They could be trying to protect the privacy of their less… human… neighbours and provide a way for them to be contributing members of the society. If they’re owning businesses and holding public office then they’d need to have certain documentation, at least on paper if not in fact.” Fred taps the thick folder Angel gave to her.

 

“That’s an excellent observation Fred and I think it’s the correct one. It would make sense and actually be easy as the Sheriff, Mayor, and several members of the city council are to my knowledge at least part Demon; they’re in the ideal position to assist others of their ilk.” Wes glances through his notes, turning the pages several times. “There is also evidence that at least one Senator and several members of the House of Representatives may also have some ties to Port Townsend as I suspect do several Mayors of other larger urban cities in Washington.”

 

Washington state and Seattle in particular has always been a haven for Demon-kind almost since the first cities and towns were carved out of the trees. Something about the area seems to attract us. It’s somewhat like the Hellmouth… only without the whole demonic entrance to Hell bit.” Angel comments.

 

“I suspect that’s due to a combination of factors at this point. Port Townsend does have a reputation in certain circles as a place not to go starting trouble.” Wes notes.

 

“Well I’m sure Spike and his little law buddy have more than a little to do with that. Spike protects his own and if he’s decided that Port Townsend is his then he will defend it and her citizens. Were you able to find out anything about his life since he’s been there Wes?”

 

“Only some pretty bare facts, some of which we found out on our first visit. He is listed as a Deputy in Port Townsend charged with investigation powers and I did find a record of his attendance at a registered Academy so his credentials in that regard are, I believe, genuine. He is a frequent visitor to Seattle, usually catching a ride on the newly established Water-Trails Ferry Company that services the area. He is usually to be found in the company of Misters Kane and Ballard and I’ve found some references to occasional performances at small venues around the area. I’ve actually managed to track down a short recording that was offered at one of the websites for one of these small clubs.” Wes notes.

 

“What sort of ‘performances’ Wes? If he’s stripping; I don’t want to know about it!” Angel snarls.

 

“Actually… he sings.” Wes chokes out, trying to bite back a snigger knowing that Angel won’t appreciate it if he laughs at him. “He has a small casual band consisting of friends, including Gabriel Kane and Deacon Ballard. They play small clubs and other venues to support various shelters and other assistance programs around their area. It’s really quite an upstanding thing to do really.”

 

“He’s singing… in public. He used to sing sometimes… then he stopped.” Angel drops his eyes.

 

Wes resists the urge to comfort Angel; for so long he’s appeared like a fly trapped in amber, frozen and immoveable but now it appears a thaw is at hand and if the pain is encouraging him back to life than he’ll have to let it work its will. He leans over his computer and types in some commands once he finds the file he’s looking for.

 

  The pictures on the screen disappear and a test pattern appears finally resolving into a smaller image that shakes faintly betraying the amateur hand in its recording. The image is of a small bar; the sort you can see on any street corner in America and in roughly the centre of the shot, is the image of a small but well-made stage. Spike is sitting beside Gabriel Kane, the pair both balancing acoustic guitars across their laps. Behind them Deacon Ballard sits behind a drum set and to his left an unfamiliar man sits behind a small piano. Part of him catalogues the faces but it’s Spike that has his attention.

 

“Welcome to the Minefield, my name is Wil and my friends and I would like to play for you tonight. We ask that you please reach deep and contribute whatever you can when they pass the donation plate; we’re performing for the Sister of St. Bernadette’s orphanage. Together we can make Christmas happen for a lot of children so please help us to make a large donation to them tonight.”

 

Angel shivers as the sound of that whiskey smooth voice. It dances over his skin like caressing fingers, slipping inside to stroke parts of him that have been asleep for so long and seducing them to throbbing life. His eyes are glued to those slender and graceful fingers as they move to stroke over the strings of the guitar coaxing a sweet melody from the silent strings. His shivers as the memory of those hands dancing across his body and the music they once seduced from his body comes back to him in treble time.

 

There's another world inside of me

That you may never see

There're secrets in this life

That I can't hide

Somewhere in this darkness

There's a light that I can't find

Maybe it's too far away...

Maybe I'm just blind...

 

Maybe I'm just blind...

 

Angel, Wes, and Fred watch and listen, soon finding themselves swaying to the skill that only one of them knew that Spike possessed. Spike’s voice is husky and his usually pronounced accent softens and smoothes out to a soft inflection that betrays an upper class origin rather then the rough thug’s life usually attributed to Spike in the history books. Wes realises that he doesn’t actually know much about Spike… or Angel for that matter. Books are biased and never more so then when a group of people are trying to convince themselves that their practice of hunting and killing Demons is the only solution to dealing with them. He wonders if his indoctrination by the Watchers Council has actually blinded him rather than opened his eyes to the truth. The proof is before him in his own research. The people and Demons of Port Townsend are finding ways to co-exist why couldn’t that happen in the rest of the world?

 

 So hold me when I'm here

Right me when I'm wrong

Hold me when I'm scared

And love me when I'm gone

Everything I am

And everything in me

Wants to be the one

You wanted me to be

I'll never let you down

Even if I could

I'd give up everything

If only for your good….

 

Angel scowls as he realises that Gabriel Kane’s pleasant bass-toned voice and the harmonic tenor tones of Deacon Ballard sound so right paired to Spike’s smoothly rhythmic cadence. He wanted them to sound discordant… not like they belonged. The small clip ends and he can’t say that he’s sorry to see the proof of the life Spike’s built without him fade away. It’s over now, he’s back and his Childe will return to his place at his side.

 

Chapter Eleven

 

The landing was smooth and the weather was nasty as befits the Pacific Northwest during a cold front. Angel takes the crew of the jet aside for a discussion while Wes oversees the off-loading of their luggage and boxes. Fred watches from the warmth of the terminal where a concerned Angel and Wes have sent her to stay warm and dry.

 

The pilot smiles hugely as Angel hands him an envelope stuffed with a not inconsiderable amount of money and he nods eagerly. The crew’s smiles are touched with tinges of greed as Angel hands each of them, including the pilot smaller envelopes but they fade to fearful worry as Angel steps closer and says something to each of them. He looms over them as each gives a frantically fearful nod before he steps back and plasters a fake sociable grin across his face as he shakes their hands. As soon as the last of their things is off-loaded the crew scrambles back aboard the jet as Angel joins Wes for the walk to the terminal, a trio of porters following in their wake.

 

Fred closes her laptop and secures it in its case and walks over to join them. “The virus has run its course. We even managed to get a couple of new offices I hadn’t heard they were opening and some of the smaller research and local offices that were connected to the network. It’s possible that some of the smaller holdings may not have been connected to the network at the time and escaped the virus but I left a little surprise for them too. Before we left I lodged about a hundred nasty little worm programmes into their network infrastructure. Each one is programmed to either activate at a prearranged time, randomly or as a result of certain routine processes that I hid the programmes inside. They’ll never find them all and it will routinely destroy key systems at unpredictable intervals. Since the networking system is independent and spread across their whole infrastructure it’s unlikely they’ll think to replace it when they replace the computers and servers since it doesn’t directly interface the network on its own.” Fred smiles and explains further when she sees the glazed looks in their eyes.

 

“Normally a network infrastructure of this type functions like a highway; it provides certain set routes to deliver and retrieve information to the appropriate systems and databases. Normally this pathway is inert. The work of data transfer is carried off by various programmes, processes, and such which are like the cars. What I did was use a variation of the virus Wes and I came up with and I hid it in the road itself which is normally benign and harmless. At various times and through various means as I said, one of the viruses will awaken, attach itself to a ‘car’ and use that to deliver itself into a mainframe where it will spread like it did earlier. It could be a year, four years; they’ll have no way to predict it and therefore little chance of finding and stopping them all.”

 

“Oh I get it!” Angel sounds surprised and they all laugh. “The only way to prevent it from happening would be to rip out and rebuild all the highways, which they won’t think they’ll have to do since ordinarily it doesn’t do anything harmful. That would be really expensive right?” Angel sounds smug.

 

“If they were to do a complete overhaul of the system, at their level of sophistication it would cost roughly forty-seven billion dollars. If they leave the network infrastructure in place they can rebuild at a substantially reduced cost.” Fred says with a nod of satisfaction.

 

“And that would leave them vulnerable to the little souvenirs you left for them.” Wes grins and hugs Fred tightly, causing her to blush and stumble faintly. “That’s ruddy brilliant Fred!”

 

“Won’t they be able to hire hackers to find them though?” Angel asks confused, he blushes faintly as Wes and Fred grin to hear him using a modern day word like ‘hackers’ correctly. Computers and Angel have never formed a very workable relationship.

 

“That’s not very likely due to the magical aspect of their shielding. Unless their hackers also happen to be magically inclined and know what they’re looking for they won’t find them all but they may find some of them that’s true. Since they’re harmless bits of magic sheathed coding until they activate it is unlikely that any sort of ‘hostile entity’ search will work either. We’ve got them and they invited us in. If they happen to manage to track the source of the ‘infestation’ Eve is going to have a lot of explaining to do.” Fred’s grin is frankly a wickedly pleased one. “Wes and I broke into her office and used her computer to access the areas we needed.”

 

Angel stops in mid-step and bends over laughing so hard he has to brace his palms on his knees. “That’s classic. It’s almost enough to make me want to go back and see the look on her face if that happened.” He wheezes weakly as Wes and Fred look smug and satisfied.  “If Gunn comes to harm, make sure that they find out whose computer was used to destroy their precious Databases.” Angel says coolly once he’s calmed down and they’ve resumed walking. “Though I suspect with that whatever he let them shove into his head there isn’t much left of the Gunn that we knew.”

 

“He chose this path Angel. He deliberately hid what he was planning to do knowing that we’d stop him if he told us about it. He lied to us and he snuck off and sold his soul to the Devils.” Wes’ voice is flat and unemotional. He’s agonized over Gunn’s situation for long enough and unlike the other friends that they’ve lost, he chose to walk to his fate fully understanding its cost; so he will not grieve for him.

 

“Isn’t there any way to help him?” Angel asks sadly and redundantly; he’s asked that same question a dozen times over since they set their plan to leave Wolfram & Hart for good into motion.

 

“There may have been before he got involved with Eve but she’s only tightened whatever influence over him that they already had.” Fred replies sadly. “There’s just no way for us to tell what they pumped into his brain that he may not consciously realise is there. He could betray us without even realising that he has. I researched it thoroughly when he told us what he’d let them do to him and I found no way to reverse it because he accepted it willingly.”

 

“It’s rather like a person inviting a Vampire into their home, once they do, they become powerless and exist only at the whim of something more powerful then they are. Vampires are rarely known to be in merciful or generous moods and I rather suspect that Wolfram & Hart is more ruthless still. Even if we could somehow free Gunn from Eve and remove what they did to him, we could never completely trust him again. We did what we had to do. I’d rather know that he’s alive if a puppet on a string somewhere then bring him with us and face that we may one day be forced to kill him when he turns on us.” Wes’ voice is cool unemotional steel.

 

Fred glances around and surreptiously strokes the cameo hanging from her throat, the warm tingle beneath her fingertips comforting her. A flare of warmth beneath her fingertips sends a smile fleeting across her lips. She knows he’s nearby.

 

“What arrangements did you make Wes?” Angel asks, looking over his shoulder to make sure the group of porters is still trailing them towards the large main doors that guard the entrance.

 

“I’ve made arrangements with a real estate agency in Port Townsend tomorrow to show us some nice places they have listed. I sent them the list of requirements that you gave me and they were positive that they had several listings that would meet the requirements. We can amend that slightly since Fred’s already got a place to live and a new job.” Wes smiles proudly and she blushes and looks away. “I made some reservations at a Hotel near the docks where we can catch the ferry service to Port Townsend tomorrow… or tonight… whatever it is.” Wes glances at his watch. “Yeah, tomorrow it is.” He says with a grin and a shrug. “That will give us time to make the other arrangements; including buying a car and some of the things we’ll need and make arrangements for them to be sent to Port Townsend. I’ve rented a fairly large unit in one of the twenty-four hour Storage facilities there. I’ve made some inquiries and the ferry service also operates a freight service so we can ship whatever we buy over to the storage unit. The real estate agency is open late and I made an appointment for nine in the evening, that should give us a couple of hours to attend to things here and of course we can always come back for anything else.” Wes leads them through the doors and they all shudder in unison and pull their jackets tighter around them in deference to the less than welcoming weather.

 

“What about you Fred? Did you make other arrangements?” Angel asks curiously; not sure why Fred had waited so long to let them know that she’d been working on her own arrangements all along. Suddenly a familiar tremor quakes down his spine and he starts to scan his surroundings as Spike steps out of the shadows cast by the overhanging roof of the building.

 

Spike moves forward with a warm smile, his arms opening as Fred darts forward with a joyful leap and a happy peal of laughter, only to be caught up in a hug. “Hey there Kitten.” Spike spins her around and sets her down carefully, keeping an arm wrapped around her shoulders.

 

“Hello Spike.” Wes steps forward and extends his hand to shake hands with Spike.

 

“Hey Wes, how was your flight?” Spike asks with a grin.

 

“It was very satisfying.” Wes admits with a grin. “You seem to have been expecting us.”

 

“…For quite some time.” Spike says distractedly as he releases Fred to step closer to Angel, stopping until their chests are almost touching, tilting his head back slightly to meet his eyes. “Sire.”

 

Angel’s eyes fly open wide as Spike inclines his head in the age old symbol of respect known worldwide. He sucks in a startled breath as Spike takes that final step forward and their chests touch. He meets his eyes and then slowly tilts his head back and to the side, baring his throat.  It is a show of deference that occurs almost solely between Childe; who is acknowledging their place as a subordinate; and their Sire.  He is trembling as he leans down to press his lips over the scar that marks their past history on Spike’s throat. He shudders in reaction and inhales shakily as his arms curl around Spike’s powerful form and yanks him closer as his scent floods through him. After all this time he can still smell his scent underlying his Childe’s as he inhales deeply, as his tongue flicks out to brush teasingly against the sensitive skin dimpled by the scar. It suddenly strikes him what this showing is about and he releases Spike and steps back. It is a Childe welcoming his Sire to his territory. “Childe.”

 

“Welcome back to Seattle.” Spike steps back and reclaims Fred once more. He glances over the trolleys of luggage and sees that Wes has been efficient as ever and each of their belongings have been neatly segregated. He motions to the steward pushing the trolley holding Fred’s things and gestures towards a black and silver SUV waiting at the curb. He pulls some keys from his pocket and his fingers find the remote easily and deactivate the alarm. He replaces the keys in his pocket and a twenty dollar bill is clutched between two fingers when he pulls his hand out. He holds it out for the eager porter and he snatches it as he passes by with a snappy salute. “When he’s finished loading, please load the rest in and you’ve got the same tip waiting for you.” Spike informs the other two porters and the pair nods eagerly, charging after their compatriot.

 

“Are you planning to take us somewhere?” Angel asks curiously.

 

“I’m taking you home.” Spike says quietly, steering Fred towards the truck when he feels her shivering under his arm. He carefully helps her into the truck, lifting her easily into the high vehicle. He nods to Wes who has followed him. “Mind helping Fred buckle up Wes?” He asks with a wink that has a blushing Wesley hurriedly climbing into back seat alongside Fred. Spike waits for him to get settled and then closes the door and returns to Angel.

 

“Spike what are you up to?” Angel asks suspiciously. “You’re being entirely too pleasant.” Angel gasps as he’s suddenly looking up at Spike standing over him, rubbing the sting out of a lightly curled fist.

 

“Feel better?” Spike asks crouching and holding his hand out with a grin daring Angel to trust him.

 

Angel rubs his jaw and thinks for a moment. “Yep, familiar is a good thing.” He takes Spike’s hand and lets him pull him to his feet. “You didn’t answer my question. Why are you doing this?”

 

“Something I saw in a dream maybe?” Spike smiles enigmatically, walking away to tip the other two porters; with swish of his hips that draws Angel’s eyes to his swinging hips like a magnet pulling iron shavings as he stalks around the front of the truck and gets in.

 

“Hey! What does that mean?!” Angel demands charging for the truck and hurriedly climbing inside.

 

Spike doesn’t answer, only chuckling and starting the truck before moving smoothly into the flow of traffic. “There are two suites reserved at the Palace Hotel in town and Letty will meet you at the Real Estate office at eight. There are some nice shops in town and you can probably find anything that you like there but if not the ferry runs on a regular schedule; they’ll have copies of the schedule at the Hotel. Your transportation is taken care of as well, Spike reaches up and pulls down the sun visor and catches the keys that tumble down and tosses them to Angel. “It’s waiting on the Ferry; Clem was nice enough to drive it there for you. Letty asked me to let you know that she expects you at our place for dinner after your business tomorrow is over. I’d suggest just saying yes because she doesn’t take no for an answer.”

 

“Where is your… friend, Mr. Kane?” Angel asks, trying to sound polite rather than insatiably curious.

 

“Gabriel got a call about a break-in from one of the travel properties so he stayed to check it out. He’ll probably be there to meet us at the dock when we land at Townsend.”

 

“Oh happy, happy, joy, joy.” Angel mutters, ignoring Spike’s not so muffled snickers.

 

“I assume that your arrival isn’t a coincidence Spike.” Wes observes.

 

“No, it’s not a coincidence.” Spike confirms, glancing in the rear view mirror and smiling at Fred.

 

“I let him know that we were arriving tonight.” Fred says quietly, flinching lightly as Angel turns to stare at her looking a little betrayed and hurt by her now apparent culpability in Spike’s disappearance.

 

“I take it that you know the person Fred will be working for.” Wes curiously doesn’t sound surprised that Fred has maintained a relationship with Spike.

 

“Whom she’ll be working with and yes intimately.” Spike confirms. “She’ll be safe as houses.”

 

Wes leans back with a smile, his arms crossing over his chest. Suddenly his concerns about Fred seem to be fairly foolish.

 

“How ‘intimately’ are we talking here?” Angel demands brusquely.

 

“As ‘intimate’ as it gets Angel. Unless I’m mistaken Fred will be working for….” Spike clears his throat gruffly and Wesley amends his statement with a smile. “…With, Fred will be working with Spike.”

 

“Doing what pray tell; holding your hand while you play Law & Order?” Angel asks snidely.

 

“I’ve made some fortunate investments and I’ve been very successful but it is a bit of a chore to keep track of everything and attend to the day to day details of my investments. Fred’s agreed to help me out and oversee my concerns. We have a spare room in our home so she’ll be a welcome addition to the family. I suspect Clem will be moving out soon to live with his girl Maria so there’ll be more room soon and Letty does so enjoy having people to take care of, so everyone benefits.”

 

“That would be Kane’s house?” Angel asks in a mumble.

 

“It’s actually my house; custom-built since I had some special construction issues. That reminds me when you choose where you’re going to move, Letty can make arrangements for the local Coven to make some adjustments to make it safer for you.” Spike replies with a shrug.

 

“That’s fascinating; what kind of adjustments can they make?” Wesley asks intrigued.

 

“The local Coven is very powerful and extremely clever. They’ve found a way to make it so that Vampires need an invitation to enter, even though as the home of a Vampire it’s considered a lair and therefore ordinarily exempt from the invitation rule. They’ve also perfected a combination spell that functions somewhat like the necro-tempered glass that you had at Wolfram & Hart. It protects the entire property though, not just the windows, you could even stand outside as long as you were within the limits of the spell’s boundary. It’s a very complex and powerful spell and each time it’s used it requires the mystical strength of the majority of the Coven to cast it.”

 

“That’s astonishing! But a spell that complex and powerful would be nearly impossible to maintain for any length of time and the wards and binding components would need to be recharged constantly in some fashion to ensure they’d work correctly. How did they get around that problem?” Wes asks excitedly.

 

There’s a real bit of irony for you Wes. They use a holy relic or other powerful item and bind it to the spell; it functions as a self-replenishing battery of sorts. The relic charges the spell and the spell in turn discharges its energies back into the relic like an alternating current. Unfortunately due to the power consumption needed, it has to be stationary but they have been working on a smaller, more portable version. I’ve tested a couple of the prototypes and so far they’re only good for a few minutes at a time but sometimes that’s all you need to turn the tide of a fight or make good an escape.” Spike reaches up and brushes his fingertips over the gold and amber stud in his left earlobe.

 

“They’re attempting to recreate the research that led to the creation of the Ring of Amara?” Wes sounds utterly enthralled by the concept. “Is that possible in this day and age?”

 

“If anyone can do it then the Fall River Clan will find a way.” Spike says confidently.

 

The Fall River Clan; Port Townsend has a chapter of the Fall River Clan?!” Wes is almost bouncing in his seat from the excitement.

 

“Calm down Wes before you rupture something!” Angel snickers amused by Wes’ infectious excitement.

 

“The Fall River Clan is one of the strongest Covens in the world and one of the few that accepts multi-denominational members. It is a concept considered radical and blasphemous to most in the mystical circles but it makes them exceedingly strong.”

 

“That’s wonderful but mind translating that for the rest of us?” Angel asks dryly.

 

“Usually a Coven is made up of members that are all from related disciplines if not from the same one; all witches or wizards or sorcerers or druidic… and so forth.” Wes explains. “The Fall River Clan accepts members from nearly every discipline as long as their basic code of honour and ethics is comparable to that held by the Coven as a whole.”

 

“He means that some of the members are witches but not all of them are. There are also Shamans from various tribes, sorcerers, healers, druids, and even some rare diabolists and necromancers that have reformed. They all lend their skills and their powers to the Coven as a whole, rather like a Scottish Clan, hence their name.” Spike translates with a slight grin. “Their tenets are rather unusual in that they are rather ‘maverick’ compared to most Covens. Their spells are almost exclusively protective in nature but they are built to function like mirrors or mini-reactors. The more negative energy directed against them, the stronger its protective field becomes, it’s a wonder of passive-aggressive engineering. No member of the Coven will ever directly harm another living being but they have no moral objection to the actions of the aggressor causing harm to their selves. Think of it like this, if a member of the Coven were forced to defend themselves or another person by casting a shielding spell and then an aggressor were to persist in an attack and eventually harm themselves or worse, then that is within their tenets.”

 

“Because they acted only to protect and it was the actions of the person that got themselves hurt?”

 

“That’s right Fred.” Spike praises. “They will not directly harm another living being by their own actions, not even at the cost of their lives if that is what must be. They’re a fascinating group really.”

 

“In fact if memory serves me correctly, I seem to recall that Giles made use of their services for a time when Willow was out of control. I’m not positive though, as I hadn’t returned from my own… quest just yet at the time. I hear that she really went Manson on the town though.” Spike adds as an aside.

 

“You sound like you know a lot about them, Spike.” Wes notes.

 

“Letty once led the Fall River Clan although she has since abdicated to a successor; but they still regard her highly and seek her council and assistance often. In fact when Letty moved to Townsend; from the East Coast after the death of her Mate; to live with us the Clan relocated with her. Port Townsend isn’t home to a chapter of the Fall River Clan Wes; it is home to the COVEN.”

 

“No wonder Port Townsend has a reputation for not being the kind of place that you want to start trouble in.” Wes notes amused and eager to meet fellow practitioners of the mystical arts.

 

“I suspect that they’ll call around to see you Watcher. Your skills and knowledge are valuable assets and they’ll likely enquire whether you wish to join their number.” Spike notes with a smile.

 

“Oh that would be marvellous, I could learn a lot.” Wes says pleased.

 

Spike takes the off-ramp and turns down a small access road that brings them to the ferry docks within a few minutes. He’s waved through with a cheerful smile and a greeting from the crew members and drives up the ramp and neatly into place behind another vehicle before shutting off the engine and hopping out. He leans in through the still open door. “It will be another fifteen minutes or so before we leave and about an hour and twenty minutes until we arrive in Townsend. I’d suggest heading inside, it’s warmer there and they usually have some hot drinks and snacks to keep you comfortable.” Spike smiles and steps back closing the door and heading to the back and rummaging around for something before they hear the doors close and see Spike walking towards the outer stairway that leads up to the wheelhouse carrying a large case.

 

Chapter Twelve

 

Angel turns and looks over the seat and his expression gentles as he sees Fred huddled in her coat; without the truck’s heater running it’s growing colder by the minute. “We should probably listen to Spike and go inside.” Angel turns away and opens his door, taking the opportunity to hide his amazed expression. Somehow out of all the things he thought he would say in life, an endorsement for Spike is one he hadn’t expected. A jingle sound catches his attention as he steps out of the truck and he remembers the keys that spike tossed at him and fishes them out of his pocket. He turns them over in his hand and bounces them considering his options as he turns and watches Wes lift Fred carefully out of the truck and start leading her inside.

 

He fingers the small alarm remote and presses the button and listens. The flashing of a set of lights and the strident whine of an alarm deactivating draws his eyes and he stares at the blood red Camero and shakes his head in amazement. Trust Spike to return his car and make it seem like a grand gesture! He strolls over to the car and runs his hand lightly along the trim, despite the inclement weather that can be brutal on cars due to the effects of rain, snow, ice, and salt, it looks spotless. It’s obvious that Spike has been taking careful care of it and he’s somehow touched that he would have bothered; maybe he was telling the truth when he said he’d been expecting them for quite a while.

 

He reactivates the alarm and tosses the keys up and catches them with a smile and a chuckle before pocketing them and turning to head for the large lounge. He’s surprised to see that there are quite a few more people than he would have expected to see so late in the evening. Many of them appear to be dressed in the semi-casual work clothes that seem to dominate the working environment these days so he assumes they’re headed home after a long day at work in the city. It takes him a moment to find Fred and Wes, sitting near a corner of the room already sipping from steaming Styrofoam cups of something or other. He starts to head through the crowd and somehow, somewhere along the way his hand seems to have sprouted a steaming cup of cider and a small plate with a large pastry of some sort just seems to appear in his other hand along the way.

 

He notices that Fred’s eyes widen as they fall on the large flaky pastry and she licks her lips reflexively and he gallantly hands her the plate with a smile. “Here you go Fred.”

 

“Thank you Angel.” Fred smiles and breaks off a piece of the pastry and hands it to Wesley who takes it with a smile. “Have you seen Spike?”

 

“I saw him heading for the bridge or whatever they call it after he got out of the truck and I don’t think he’s come back down yet; he must know the Captain.”

 

Wes looks around. “There are a lot of people in here, I’m not sure we could see him if he was in here.” He observes with some amusement. “This seems to be a fine service though I must say, maybe the finest I’ve been on to date. Most Ferry services make people pay for their refreshments and the décor is truly lovely, very comfortable but not overly flowery. I’m impressed.”

 

“Why thank you for the glowing endorsement.” A woman’s voice has their heads turning and they see an attractive dark haired petite young woman approaching them. She is holding the hand of a floppy skinned Demon that sparks an ember of recognition in Angel but he can’t place him right away.

 

The young woman is lovely but her appearance isn’t what one could considered ‘mainstream’ unless one were used to seeing the club fashions of the day. A long-sleeved, off-the-shoulder black jumpsuit with attached flat-soled boots defines a short but well-proportioned body. Over the jumpsuit is a thigh length gossamer tunic made of some filmy material that may as well be made up of air and good intentions for as much coverage as it offers. Its full sleeves flare from the shoulders to the wrists where tailored cuffs draw the material in neatly. A wide scarlet red waist-cinchier type belt is laced over her abdomen, dipping to a low vee below her navel tailoring the black gossamer over-shirt to her curvaceous form. Despite the warmth of the heaters a chill lingers in the air and she’s warded herself against the chilly breezes with a large fluffily thick scarlet dyed cashmere shawl. Her nails are long and end in sharp points, each arrayed in brilliantly hued scarlet, the tips sheathed in a metallic black polish and a large diamond and onyx ring graces her ring finger.

 

The Demon at her side is large and powerfully built but his expression is one of pure gentleness and humour. It’s obvious from his deferential treatment of the young woman that his feelings for her are both deep and genuine and very mutually shared judging by the much larger twin to her ring that graces his ring finger. He may be large and powerful but it’s obvious that the petite young woman has him wrapped around her slender fingers.

 

Angel looks around surreptiously and he’s surprised to see that more than one person in the crowd is at least partially Demon-blood and they all seem well-accustomed to the sight of their less than human companions on this Ferry ride.

 

“Welcome aboard the Moonwhisp.” The Demon says with a jovial smile. “I’m not sure if you remember me Angelus but my name is Clem and I’m a friend of Spike’s from Sunnydale.”  

 

Angel smiles as the name jogs his memory. “Of course I remember you Clem! It’s great to see you. It’s good to know that you got out of Sunnydale in time.” He shakes hands with the likeable Demon that has always struck him as a gentle soul on the few occasions that they’ve crossed paths. “These are my friends Wes and Fred.” Angel introduces his companions with a minimum of details, unsure of what Spike may have told the pair about them.

 

“We’ve all heard of the marvellous Fred.” The young woman says with a genuine smile. “Everyone in Port Townsend is looking forward to meeting the amazing Fred. Spike’s told us about all of you, we’re pleased that you’ve decided to make your home amongst us.” Her voice is faintly coloured by a soft accent that seems to fall somewhere between Spanish and French.

 

“This is my beautiful Maria.” Clem says proudly. “We’re going to be married this summer.”

 

“Congratulations.” They all chime together, finding themselves liking the charming couple.

 

“Thank you.” Maria says smiling boldly. “It took me a year to talk the big softy into it but he gave in eventually.” She says with a hearty chuckle, waving her hand expressively as she wraps her free arm around the powerfully muscled arm of her mate-to-be.

 

They all chuckle, charmed as Clem blushes and looks down shyly. “I just didn’t understand what you see me in Maria.” He mumbles embarrassed.

 

“I see a warm, funny, and wonderful person that is as beautiful inside as he is outside. Now kiss me.” She orders in a friendly tone that is clearly loving and trusting and Clem obliges by leaning down and doing as she asked before blushing and looking away shyly. Maria shakes her head and smiles, patting him on the shoulder comfortingly. “Thank you for kind words, we’ve worked very hard at making this Ferry company the best in Washington.”

 

“Oh wow, golly, you own this Ferry service?” Fred asks impressed.

 

Maria nods happily. “I run the office side of things but my Clem, he loves the water. He’s the senior Captain for the Fleet.” Her pride shines through in the smile she shoots at Clem that sets him off in another run of blushing and embarrassed foot shuffling.

 

“Ah you’ll be piloting us to our new home then.” Wes says with a smile.

 

“One of our other Captains will be handling that honour this evening. Clem and I just came along to meet you and welcome you personally.” Maria says warmly. “Plus I never pass up a chance to hear Wil sing, especially when he promises to sing my favourite song for me.” Maria grins excitedly.

 

Just then the soft thrumming of a guitar heralds the bass rumbling beneath their feet as the ferry’s powerful engines start up, moving them smoothly out into the chill waters.

 

“Welcome to the Water-Trails Ferry line, my name’s Spike, some of you may know me and for the rest of you, you’ll know me soon enough and thank me for the pleasure.” Spike’s voice purrs through the PA system and he chuckles huskily amid the cheers, whistles, and cat calls.

 

Angel stands and climbs up onto his chair and looks around for a moment before diving into the growing crowd, his powerful form parting the sea of bodies as easily as a shark scattering fish from its path. Shooting looks at each other Wes grabs Fred’s hand as he and Clem follow Angel.

 

They find Angel at the head of a large assemblage of people. Rather than sitting in one of the passenger chairs Spike is sitting on the floor near one of the corners where a small stage has been set up. He’s sitting on the small steps, with a lovely rosewood and mahogany acoustic guitar balanced on his thighs, his feet splayed on the two steps leading up to the stage. Angel is currently looming over several chairs and they are unsurprisingly unoccupied and he gracefully gestures to the empty seats with a smile and Clem, Maria, Wes, and Fred gratefully accept. All of the chairs now taken Angel starts towards a corner when Spike reaches out to catch his hand as he passes and gestures to the stage beside him with a smile and a nod of his head. Angel hurriedly takes him up on the offer and sprawls beside him, angling onto his hip so that he can keep Spike in full view.

 

“This is my old, old, ooooooooold friend Angel everyone and don’t let the name fool you because he isn’t one.” Spike says with a wink toward Angel and a grin for the crowd. “A very good friend of mine has asked for a special request and I promised that I would sing it for her but I’d like to dedicate it to some special people myself. For everyone that believes in ghosts and that gave me something to believe in.” Spike adjusts the cordless mic clipped to his shirt and taps it lightly to make sure its working right and with a smile aimed at Angel he gives himself to his music. “Maria, here’s your song.”

 

Spike’s fingertips dance across the chords and a simple bit of wood, wire, and artisan’s blood makes a sound that could make the Heavens weep.

 

Every time I look at you the world just melts away

All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections

You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am

And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land

 

Maria smiles at Spike as she threads her arms around one of Clem’s powerful biceps and leans her head on his shoulder sniffling tearfully.

 

Angel is surprised when Spike turns to look at him, those wondrous eyes of his looking into his soul even as his own are set with a million stars that shine in his eyes.

 

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together

You're the one true thing I know I can believe in

You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me

You're the one true thing I know I can believe

 

The song is beautiful in lyric and sound; Spike’s slightly husky voice adding a depth and counter-note that only reinforces the graceful music’s lilting melody.

 

Spike pours his heart into the song as his eyes stay locked on Angel as he sings for Maria and Clem and for friends lost and those so recently reclaimed. He sings his farewell to the past and heralds the future full of possibilities and second chances.

 

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe

No matter what I say or do 'cause you're too good to fight about it

Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go

You won’t stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

 

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together

You're the one true thing I know I can believe in

You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me

You're the one true thing I know I can believe

 

Eyes widen and the room is suddenly deprived of oxygen for a heartbeat as a collective gasp of wonder thunders over the crowd as a soft whisky-tinged brogue singing along in wordless harmony is picked up by the sensitive microphone clipped to Spike’s guitar strap.

 

Spike plays on with a joyful smile as the words of the song float out as a sudden duet. He knows that Angel has never let anyone hear him sing in his true voice, the rolling accent as soft as clover and growing moss and as strong as the pounding sea. Ireland’s son is never far from home but only those closest to him make it through the shielded walls that guard his sacred space. He was one of the few and here in this magic moment, their friends and these blessed strangers are all seeing the wonders to be found inside.

 

 Your love is just the antidote when nothing else will cure me

There are times I can’t decide when I can't tell up from down

You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown

But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm OK

Sometimes that’s just what we need to get us through the day

 

Spike pitches his voice into countermeasure, his voice taking on the soft Irish lilt as he translates the next stanza of the song to Irish Gaelic and Angel’s voice rises finally into true song. It’s true that Angel can’t sing and he’ll tell everyone that asks him that he’s horrible at it, the one exception is singing in the language of the land of his birth. With that ancient language falling from his lips it’s clear to see that he gained his nickname for far more than just his looks. He sings like his namesake too, when the spirit moves him.

 

 You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together

You're the one true thing I know I can believe in

 

Spike slowly winds the chords down and lets his singing trail slowly to silence as the music gradually fades until at last he is speaking rather than singing.

 

You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me

You're the one true thing I know I can believe

 

Spike lays his palm over the strings stilling them to full silence as the crowd draws another collective breath at what they instinctively know is a pivotal moment in time. Spike leans over and nuzzles Angel’s chin with his cheek. “You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me. You're the one true thing I know I can believe.”

 

Angel sucks in a shaky breath and nuzzles against Spike’s caress. “I know that there are times that it seemed like I didn’t believe that you were worth anything but I’ve always believed in you, that there was something special about you and you’ve just sung me how right I was.”

 

The microphone picks up the softly spoken comment and a collective, “Awww,” breaks over the room in its wake as Spike deftly begins playing again as Angel blushes and lowers his face embarrassed at being caught in a moment of tenderness that has unwittingly become a public declaration.

 

The applause is thunderous and lasting before the crowd settles in to listen to some good music on their way home.

 

Chapter Thirteen

 

Spike cradles his guitar and smiles at the crowd. “I’d say there’s time for one more song in my set this evening so I’m going to end with a special song that I hope you’ll all enjoy. This one is for Angel, it is a song called the Fields of Athenry and a long time ago it was his favourite song to hear me sing so we’d like to sing it for you now. Spike says gruffly as he lets his eyes drift closed and his fingers find his chords.

 

Angel looks faintly panicked but as the familiar tune pours through Spike’s guitar his past is now his present and the tension drains away as he takes a deep breath and leans closer to Spike and sings the words of the song in a softly accented Gaelic harmonization. The sound of the Gaelic words form a pleasantly haunting refrain to the words that Spike is singing in English and they all know that for the second time tonight they’re hearing something very special.

 

By a lonely prison wall, I heard a young girl calling

Michael, they have taken you away,

For you stole Trevelyan's corn,

So the young might see the morn.

Now a prison ship lies waiting in the bay.

 

As the chorus of the song arrives; Angel switches to English as well, singing in countermeasure to Spike’s higher clearer tones.

 

Low lie the fields of Athenry

Where once we watched the small free birds fly

Our love was on the wing

We had dreams and songs to sing

It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry.

 

As the third stanza begins there is another abrupt change as Spike drops his voice down to a soft husky whisper as he sings the lyrics in English and harmonizes to Angel’s louder Gaelic in a reversal of the first stanza.

 

By a lonely prison wall, I heard a young man calling

Nothing matters, Mary, when you're free

Against the famine and the crown,

I rebelled, they cut me down.

Now you must raise our child with dignity.

 

As the chorus rises both their voices join in harmony, in a musical communion that is truly something magical and the confines of this comfortable ship sailing weather-tossed winter sees gives way to  a vision of green grass and rolling hills.

 

Low lie the fields of Athenry

Where once we watched the small free birds fly

Our love was on the wing

We had dreams and songs to sing

It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry.

 

In another amazingly seamless transformation Spike drops his voice back to sing in Gaelic, harmonizing to Angel who is singing in softly accented English.

 

By a lonely harbor wall, she watched the last star fall

As the prison ship sailed out against the sky

Sure she'll wait and hope and pray, for her love in Botany Bay

It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry.

 

Their voices rise in unison for the last chorus in English and everyone privileged to be witness to such a wonderful performance knows that they are hearing a relationship of very long standing playing out for them in musical time.

 

Low lie the fields of Athenry

Where once we watched the small free birds fly

Our love was on the wing

We had dreams and songs to sing

It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry.

 

Spike’s fingers lift from the strings as the vibration slowly dies away he leans closer to Angel, only to find he’s meeting Angel halfway as they finish the last stanza of the song only with the music of their joined voices.

 

It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry.

 

Angel leans over the last few inches that separate him from Spike and he presses his lips to against the softly welcoming mouth melting under his as they exchange a sweetly poignant kiss. Angel carefully works the guitar out of Spike’s grip and gently sets it aside as they curl together in a gentle embrace that is partly physical but all emotional.

 

The crowd explodes to its collective feet amidst thunderous applause but for one couple the sound is drowned out by their hearts that may be stilled but never silent. Fred smiles at Wes and moves forward slowly so as not to draw the pair’s attention and retrieves Spike’s guitar as Maria makes her way stealthily around the side and retrieves the case. The pair share an understanding smile as they carefully pack Spike’s precious handmade guitar safely back into its thickly cushioned case.

 

When they look up from the now secured guitar the small stage is empty and they look around curiously. Wes and Clem chuckle and point towards a door out to the deck standing open and they shrug in unison and chuckle again. Maria and Fred look at each other shrug and decide to join in the chuckling as they carry the guitar between them and return to Clem and Wes.

 

“I had no idea that Angel could sing like that! Lorne told me he reminded him of a cat being boiled in a pot of water when he sings but that was beautiful really.” Wes looks amazed and a little confused.

 

“Lorne’s never heard him singing with Spike.” Fred says with a fond smile.

 

“Why do I get the feeling that you somehow know more about the relationship between those two than I do even though I used to study them?” Wes asks suspiciously.

 

Fred smiles enigmatically. “You’ll never sum up the lives those two have led in a million books Wesley. Spike and I talked a lot when he was incorporeal and I’ve learned a lot about him; none of which I’m planning to repeat.” Fred almost laughs out loud at the disappointed pout on Wesley’s face. “Spike is actually very well educated; he’s very smart and charming when you get past the façade he uses to shield himself from most of the people around him. He’s the most loyal man I’ve ever met, he’s a good person.” Fred’s fingertips trace the cameo at her throat, startled as she feels another set of fingers gently tracing over its contours.

 

“This is beautiful.” Wes says quietly. His brow furrows as something brushes the edge of his conscious mind with the tingle of a familiar awareness. “…And it’s magic.” Wes lets his hand fall away. “He gave that to you; Spike; didn’t he?” He doesn’t need to wait for Fred’s shy nod to know that he’s right. “What does the enchantment do?”

 

“It lets me know when he’s nearby and I know if he’s well or hurt and it lets me call him when I need him, wherever I am and wherever he is, he’ll hear me if I call for his help. And I have called him.”

 

A suspicion darkens Wesley’s eyes. “What really happened to Knox, Fred? You called Spike didn’t you and he came?”

 

Fred looks away before she nods. “He came back to LA with Gabriel. I don’t know where they took Knox or that bizarre sarcophagus that he tried to trick me into examining; I was just glad that he was gone.” Fred says quietly.

 

“So you don’t know what they did to Knox?” Wes asks, surprised that the usually contentious Fred would neglect to find out just what happened to Knox despite his creepy stalker tendencies.

 

“Spike said that he dropped him down a well… but I think that he was joking.” Fred admits.

 

A laugh is startled out of Wesley as he can almost imagine Spike dropping Knox down a well and wishing he could have been there to watch. He sobers as he realises that Fred called on Spike for help rather than him and that he arrived in answer to her summons. “You’re close aren’t you; you and Spike? You knew where he was all along didn’t you; or at least knew how to reach him and you didn’t say anything. And he sent you that cameo, an expensive cameo unless I miss my guess.”

 

Maria discreetly slips the guitar away from Fred and hands it to Clem and taking his hand and leads him into the crowd towards the table of refreshments table.

 

Fred steps closer to Wes and cups his cheek. “Spike is very important to me Wesley.” Wes drops his eyes but Fred catches him and lifts his head so that he can see her eyes. “He’s the much, much older brother that I’ve never had but there isn’t and there has never been anything romantic between us.”

 

“But, but he flirts with you.” Wes says blushing and looking away.

 

Fred chuckles and wraps her arms around Wesley’s waist and hugs him. “Spike flirts with almost everyone if he likes them Wesley, it’s just his way.” Fred’s smile turns decidedly wicked. “He’s even flirted with you but I don’t think you noticed.”

 

Wes blushes furiously and looks away but he can’t ignore the faint rush of heat the floods his belly at the thought that the beautiful younger Vampire would have found him worthy of his flirting skills. Contrary to what anyone else knows, he had noticed Spike’s flirtatious manner towards him and others on several occasions.

 

“I’m very fond of Spike and I love him but I’m not in love with him. I… I sort of like someone else.” Fred says shyly, letting go of his waist and stepping back as she looks away shyly.

 

Wes catches her hand and pulls her back as he holds it and leans down just brushing his lips lightly against hers. “I kind of like someone too.”

 

Fred smiles happily and steps closer and hugs Wesley again; tucking her face against his chest shyly and sighing as he pulls her closer and wraps his arms around her.

 

Chapter Fourteen

 

Angel tightens his grip on Spike’s wrist as he tows him towards Spike’s SUV. “How long is it until we arrive, Spike?” He demands in a growl, thrusting his hand into the pocket of Spike’s jeans and retrieving his keys and jamming his thumb on the alarm remote to deactivate it.

 

“We’re a little over halfway there so less than an hour.” Spike says breathlessly as Angel throws open the rear door of the SUV and picks Spike up and all but tosses him inside before climbing in after him.

 

Spike is sprawled on his back and Angel climbs over him and pins him to the dark leather. “Sing.”

 

“What are you bloody going on about Angel, we just finished singing.” Spike shakes his head and shoves at Angel’s shoulders and rocks his hips trying to lever him off.

 

Angel catches his hands and forces them against the leather of the seat and throws his thigh over his legs and uses his leverage to hold Spike down. “You sang for them, now sing for me.” Angel demands.

 

Spike relaxes against the seat and looks up at Angel from beneath the curtain of his thick lashes and slowly draws his tongue across his lower lip. “And what do you want me to sing for you Angel?” He tugs his hands free and runs them up and down Angel’s side in a tender gliding motion. “Do you want me to sing you something soft and romantic; do you want to be wooed Angel?” Spike slips his hands around to the small of Angel’s back and lets them drift over his Armani tailored slacks, cupping the curves under his palms. “Or do you want me to sing something passionate and unapologetic?” He suddenly yanks Angel hard into him as he drives his hips up. “Do you want to be taken Angel and wrung until your body is drained dry?” Spike suddenly releases him and relaxes back against the seat again, drawing one of his palms up in a slow glide over Angel’s chest until it rests over his stilled heart. “Do you want to hear a love song that makes you long for the days when this was beating so fast that you could feel it pounding throughout your whole body; do you want to be loved Angel?” He uses his free hand to prop up so that he can press his lips against the bone behind Angel’s ear. “Ask it and so it shall be.” He whispers.

 

Angel moans and collapses over Spike, driving them both down against the welcome cushioning of the seat. “You know… you know…? I want to be wooed… taken… loved… you know I’m asking.”

 

“And you know that I’ll give it to you, but not for free. You don’t walk back into my life with a get out of jail free card and everything goes back to how it was before. I don’t want what we had before; I want what we can have now.” Spike whispers, knowing that he can hear him easily. “It was your right once to have me where you want me and however you wanted me to be but now you’ll have to prove to me that you’re the one who has the right to walk beside me. All you’ve proven til now is that you’re good at leaving and running away.” Spike swipes his tongue over the sensitive skin behind his ear in a slow sensual glide. “You were coward enough to run before, are you going to be man enough to stay and fight this time? If you’re not Angel then let me up and get back on that jet and go find Buffy because I’m not accepting anything less than everything you have to give.”

 

“When have I ever run away from a fight with you?” Angel demands with a groan.

 

“This isn’t a fight Angel; this is life, not one of those stupid pissing contests we’re constantly getting into. If that’s what amuses you then fine, if Cavemen and Astronauts got into a fight who would win?”

 

“Who in the fucking hell cares who would win that, Spike? That’s a stupid question! Here’s a better one? Are you going to sing or am I going to have to find some other way to amuse myself for the next hour?” Angel growls. Spike relaxes against the seat and taps his fingertip against his bottom lip, clearing considering his options. A growl is all the warning that Spike gets before Angel’s face shifts to his Demon and he pounces driving his fangs deep into the scar on his neck and sucking greedily.

 

Spike chuckles through a moan as he drives his neck up hard, driving Angel’s teeth in deeper and sighing as he feels his blood being drawn out in a slow leisurely feeding that belies the violence of Angel’s pounce. He writhes against the leather and the weight and strength of Angel’s body, winding his legs around his hips and letting his head fall back limply.

 

Shadows

Now curtain the moon

But faith swears

It will shine again soon

Shine with love

You've been hiding from me

 

Your kiss

Has hindered the day

A longing

That won't go away

You just keep knocking

And waking my heart

Like daylight chasing the dark

 

I can exist being caught by your kiss

Willingly

Or grant you control

Of my body and soul

Ask it and so it shall be….

 

Angel jerks his fangs free and he throws himself off of Spike and presses his back tightly against the door; trails of blood leaking from the corner of his mouth as he stares at Spike in shock.

 

Spike lowers his voice to a husky purr as he crawls across the seat and into Angel’s lap, sweeping his tongue along his throat and chin reclaiming the trailing remains of his blood so recently taken in such a pleasurable manner. He smoothes his palms up Angel’s heaving chest and slowly curls around his lapels before throwing his weight backward and forcing Angel to follow and settle back over him.

 

Shadows

Now curtain the moon

Still faith swears

It will shine again soon

Shine with love

You've been hiding from me

With that love

You've been hiding from me

 

Angel doesn’t resist as his mouth is gently guided back to the still seeping wound as Spike sings softly, barely audible to his keen hearing, even as close as they are. The taste of Spike’s blood draws him back to the moment as he dives into the feast fit for a King and feeds tenderly; drawing the precious gift with the reverence it is due as Spike surrenders all that he is.

 

I can exist being caught by your kiss

Willingly

Or grant you control

Of my body and soul

Ask it and so it shall be

 

For the first time Angel understands what Spike if offering and the enormity what he is demanding in return for it and he shudders. He’s being given the chance to prove that he can be the partner that Spike needs and if he fails to provide this proof that he can be the man and the Sire that his Childe needs then he will be left behind. William the Bloody has grown up in this land of trees and water and weather as unpredictable as he is. He has to admit that he doesn’t know what lies ahead for either of them but he’s damned well looking forward to finding out.

 

Ask it and so it shall be 

 

Spike gently pulls Angel’s head up and guides his mouth to his and the foggy night obligingly shields them from prying eyes.

 

Epilogue

 

The trip to Port Townsend passed pleasantly for them all, and if anyone wondered why Angel changed out of his Armani suit and into jeans and a thick cashmere sweater, they were discrete enough not to ask.

 

Gabriel was indeed waiting for them when they arrived and gladly lent a hand in transporting their things to their Hotel suites and to the storage unit. Much to Spike’s surprise Angel was actually pleasant and charming and it made him wonder about the serious benefits of regular trips to the back of his truck for them both.

 

With Wes and Fred in tow Gabriel offered a tour of the town but no one seemed surprised when he and Angel chose to stay behind in his Suite.

 

“So this is Port Townsend, Washington.” Angel muses from his position in front of the large plate glass picture window that dominates his suite.

 

“No this is… home.” He says as he walks up to stand beside him and look out at the town that has become his home.

 

He’s startled when Angel’s hand slips into his and interlocks their fingers, pulling their joined hands up to press a tender kiss to the back of his hand before letting them fall back to their side.

 

“I think I’m going to like it here.” Angel turns to look at Spike and then slowly back to look out the window. “Oh yes and one other thing, Spike?”

 

He turns his face towards him and tilts his head inquiringly, his eyebrow quirking up in a silent question.

 

“The Astronauts, definitely, the astronauts.”

 

A slow smile curves Spike’s lips upward and he turns back to their shared observation of what lies beyond the window. Yes things are definitely looking interesting around here.

 

 

~Finis~

 

Writer’s Dedication: This story is for my daughter Myst, Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas Lil Bear from Momma Bear JINXI.

 

Writer’s Special Credits: Special Credits going out to Mandie for the invaluable help in polishing this work and dotting the I’s and crossing the T’s that I missed along the way.

 

As usual most of the songs used are available for your listening pleasure so if you’d like to hear them drop me an email, you’ll find the address listed at the start of this story. For some of these songs, the files are pretty large so please send your email to me from an account large enough to accept the files or I can make them available by other means if that won’t work for you, just ask :o)

 

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~ JINX, November 16, 2004. Happy Holidays and may the blessings of the season be yours. ~

 

 

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