ive aways compared religions to the fda for some reason . i cant quite explain it other than they both have your best interest in mind and give you way to make crap that you would never need to be concerned about. sure you shouuldnt kill people , at least not most of the time, and of course you shouldnt eat meat that is spoiled, at least most of the time, but its kind of like saying " you dont need common sense , because of the group you are associated with, if you just hate yourself and make us money we will make sure you stay alive " . and id go as far as to say it would be good for the whole and the indiviual if someone some time could say " i am the weak link, i am the one evolution is trying to prevent from reproduceing " - a selfish request for sure, but ive never heard anyone say it. which makes me think maybe i should say it, i am the weak link, evolution is trying to take me out, but its very difficult for me to believe so why should i expect anyone else to belive it? as a mechanism designed to ask questions that i know cannot be answered i lead the common frustrated exsistance of easy to survive impossible to succeed . by the time i get good enough at anything to actually consider wheter i am succeeding , i question if i even enjoy that particular activity . then i hug my computer, it never asks questions, sometimes it does what i want, and sometimes i hate it cause i have to learn something i didnt think i would have to, but it plugs away at zeros and ones, adding hard drives and dvd writers and mp3 players. getting better when it needs to, patiently waiting when it needs to. a comlpete lack of consistancy bothers it not at all. i wish i could say the same about myself. at any rate im planing on leaving just so i can plan on comng back, you wouldnt think this a nessecary step, but it is so . a new persepctive can only be acheived by a shift in surroundings, geographical, metaphysiical social etc. and the easiest forced once is geographical for me, . i sincerely hope it answers some questions that cant be otherwise answered , but more importantly i hope it asks a grat many more questions that i will have to progress to begin to understand . always the forward movement. neve the discriminateing. untill next time, consider killing yourself, and for god sake please get a vesectomy.
trying to learn some cure guitar tab. funny how i wouldnt really listen to the cure to enjoy the music, but as a learning tool its superbly helpful , and thusly way more enjoyable than just listenihng trying to catch up on my music playing and keep going my new music listening. trying to throw away all my old crap that just collects dust. getting ready to move far away,. just so i can come back. to little time to fill in the blanks ill see if i canpart 2 later today .
sorry i missed sunday, , im doing my best to make this a daily event, but have a feeling it will decline to a weekly or so, . so ive been stealing things from a certain thrift store drop box for more than several years. a cd rack here, a trombone there, whatever the case may be. i never really thought much into it ,. at any rate ive made more than seveal visits there taking advantage of the salvation army s charity. and in the process of moving and packing im trying to minimize my surroundings a little . so instead of throwing everything in the trash can i decided to donate some crap to the same box ive been stealing stuff from . the irony here is that on any given night i was in the area i would walk by and see if there was anyhting i was interested in. and most times there wasnt but sometimes there was. at any rate, the first time i ever decided to give something back , i walked over carrying a rather large box of clothes , and the drop box was gone. im assuming because so many stores in the area closed but its hard to say .. at any rate i still try to infrom people karma is more than just "being nice " - and for some reasons a few lessons you might learn along the way are contradictory to what you might learn in school . its fairly cold out and i have a pretty long bike ride ahead of me, , more importantly, if things werk out im doing acid tommorow, for the first time in months, and ., im very excited but also very sketpical .. ive always said acid doesnt do anyhting , but it magnifies whatever you are thinking or preceiveing . in any case im doing it out of desperation. somewhat because of an available environment . and i beleive enviornment is the most important part of any trip. hopefully ill be able to let you know how it goes and if it goes well. the quanta for these dieties is electricly charged but weve been waiting for the proper receptor site for a while. any way - go do something more constructive, think with your brain and not your genitals , and try to evolve with in yourself not generationally.
learned some new guitar poo last night this morning a few hours ago,,,, mostly nirvana and metallica . rode my bike just under 20 miles in just under 30 minutes, just cause i could and i waas in a hurry to copy aqua teen hunge force. a huge let down it may appear my date with lsd is postponed, i sincerely hope not indefinitely as i miss it very much but to be realistic and safe i need to be in a safe envoirnment includeing someone keeping an eye on me so i dont try to eat electrical wires. its a shame the only things i can brag about are things i dont try vey hard to acheieve. i can definitely beat you in tecmo super bowl ,, and i can remember most obscuree commericals from a super long time ago , but im not as good as id like at any type of music , or skateboarding. breakdancing and trying to see marilyn manson for free tomorow, . ive been really good recently at cleaning and throwing away clutter, and reorganizeing.but i defeinitely need to eat a salad my insides have been having a rough time cause they cant keep up with me. im going to go make a pizza and try to read some of a book ive been trying to finish for three years . moonlight sonatya will get stuck in your head very easily. and cats love to get on the refirgerorator in the midle of the night. please, -- do not " hang out " with any one ever . your only two options and obligations are teaching and learning. its up to the indiviual to decide which is pertinent information, and which isnt, but just passing time idely is the gratest insult a species with cognitive abilities can receive. thats it more later
november 30th 3:38 am