Disclaimer: I don't own Sean Waltman, Kevin Nash, Scott Hall, Shawn Michaels, HHH, or anything in this story. I wish I owned them all except Hunter, because I'm mad at him. : P

I feel as if I've been ripped apart. How do I live through this? What do I do?

RAW literally made me sick. When that image cleared up, and it turned out to be Hunter that had attacked Shawn, I ran to the bathroom, and lost everything I'd eaten. I've been afraid to eat anything since, because it's all I can think about, and just doing this makes me want to curl up and die.

I lied to myself over and over. I told myself that it wasn't really Hunter. Or that that I would wake up, and this would end up being all just a horrible dream. It just seemed so surreal that he would do that…

Hunter… My role model… The man I love. I never thought his anger would take him this far…

I was hiding from the truth. So eventually, I accepted the facts as they were. Hunter attacked his best friend. Hunter destroyed a lot of friendships.

When I finished throwing up, I sat on the bathroom floor, and thought about US. Kevin… Scott… Shawn… Hunter… Me. Years of an incredibly strong bond… Memories, mementos… They chased my food down the toilet.

So now where do I go? Hunter and Shawn… I love them both so much… They've done so much for me over the past years. Who do I stand by?

Even with what Hunter's done, I can't see myself letting him out of my life. I have to admit this to you, in order for you to understand what's going on in my head. I know, it might seem a little fucked up…

I love Hunter more than I've ever loved anybody throughout my entire life. He means so much to me. For the past few years, I've been IN love with him. He has given me so much, even held me up at times.

Don't get me wrong- Kevin, Scott and Shawn have done the same, but none of them as much on their own, as Hunter.

DX with Shawn and Hunter. nWo with Kevin and Scott. These men are my LIFE.

I'm no psychic, but I can tell the future. They'll want me to forget about Hunter. They've always taken care of me, and they'll say being around him wouldn't be good for me. That he's dangerous. But my heart says no.

So I don't know what will come of this. Betray one of my friends, or betray three.