it makes me sick.
It makes my stomach
turn and twitch.
How do emotions
make me feel so crappy?
I wish I could ignore them
And really be happy.
Ignoring your problems
only makes them worse.
It hurts so bad
it feels like your cursed.
Why do the little things
affect me so much?
Maybe because they've become
One big bunch.
Failures in life
seem so great.
Failures in life
is what creates hate.
Everyone wants things
they can't have.
I just wished I wanted
the things I had.
Why don't things
ever seem to be enough?
Why does love
hurt so much?
Life is never
As bad as it seems
Just because it isn't
doesn't mean it won't hurt me.
I'm afraid to tell people
how I feel.
They have their own problems
With which to deal.
I don't wan tto be a burden.
I don't want them to worry
I just want to get over
This awful feeling in a hurry.
I've never met?
How crazy am I
to think that?
It hurts so much
to feel this way.
It hurts when I think
about him every day.
I don't know if how I feel
is completely true.
I don't know if how I feel
is just a teenage 'I love you'.
Is it possible to love someone
that you've never met?
Is it possible things
Might work out with it?
Too many doubts
Cloud my head.
Too many things
remain unsaid.
The pain of loss, agony, fear and hope.
The loss of loved ones and friends.
The agony it caused.
The fear of lossing again.
The hope I don't
The urge builds inside me.
With each failure...
With each disappointment...
It GROWS.
With each acomplishment...
With each distraction...
It fades.
Maybe someday the urge and pain will go away.
And ends up on paper.
All thoughts...
All desires...
All secrets...
All feelings...
All end up the same.
They're not meant to be great.
They're meant to be me.
