A First – A Poem – A deep Love
I wake in the morning
The first thoughts through my head
Visions of you next to me
Laying in my bed
My thoughts and actions have been shady
In my life there has never been a finer lady
Everyone has their Wants and their Needs
With you I have found I no longer feel greed
Our bond started off un-certain
As baby steps turned into miles
It was quick for me to see
I wanted to walk you down the isle
As you began to let down your walls
And slowly build your trust
Sabotage and self destruction on my part
Unwillingly became a must
I tried fighting off my own destruction
Before I felt you needed to know
I was extremely afraid of sharing
For fear that you would go
A love like yours I have never felt
With such a loving caring heart
The closer we started to become
A part of me was pushing us apart
I know I can be successful
Especially with you as my mate
However with too much creative thought at times
I wonder if I may be too much for any ones plate
It hasn’t been a long time
Just a little over a year to date
With you I’ve been able to experience so many wonderful things
My heart actually feels Great!
Rarely do I really get angry
And even less do I yell
The only time this happens frequently
Is when I’ve gone back to my personal hell
I realize if I want your trust and hope
And to believe every word I say
I must express my awful truth
And hope you don’t turn and run away
Chances you’ve given me
And grateful I’ve become
I seek to prove myself to you
So in hopes someday we become One
I realize both of us
Due to past relationships we have fears
With you I want to destroy my baggage
In weeks or months… Not years
I’m working on removing my problem
So it stays gone forever
What my heart really wants is you close
And us always together
I’ve seen you open up and begin to trust
Then give yourself to me
But only with security and sharing
Most of all respect from me
Truthfully and heart felt
You are the only Lady I adore
Actually and honestly, for what I want
I believe you have everything and more
It hurts me deeply to see the damage
to you that I’ve done
I really want to repair those wounds
Not needing for you to shun
The last few days you have impressed me
Frequently giving your time to share
You offering so often
I, in another way, feel you care
I really liked it when you sat next to me
Then scooted by my side
You snuggled up close to me
My heart filled with Pride
The communication and sharing lately
Especially the soul melting hugs
Proves to me we can have a great relationship
We just need to work out the bugs
I pray our relationship improves
From now until we’re old
Then all our good & bad times
To our grandchildren will be told