His orders.

I saw his ad looking for a sub/slave/bitch, over a few
brief emails he told me what he wanted, what he expected,
how it was going to be. He gave me a safeword, banana, and
if unable to speak I am to snap my fingers. My sex and all
that includes belong to him. My money, personal life isnŐt
a concern to him, just my sex which he wanted total control
of. In our emails before we got together he made it clear
that not only did he enjoy the obvious attention to his
cock and other erogenous zones but the mental enjoyment of
abusing me, making me suffer, all for his amusement. We
emailed back and forth about my fear of completely letting
go, a lot of the kinky twisted things I have done to
myself. I also told him the things I would say to myself
when abusing myself to take me a little farther, something
I was sure he would take advantage of. He then told me when
he wanted to get together, and that he wanted to videotape
it. The email was simple, either reply back with a
confirmation or never email him again. Since I'm getting
older and not the ideal body I figured it was either now or
never, so I immediately replied back yes. His reply was to
make sure I knew to always have a 6 pack of his favorite
beer chilled, to be clean inside&out and naked whenever I
know he's coming over. For the next couple days he didn't
email me, I had never initiated contact, only replied to
him so I didn't send him any mail just to confirm he was
still coming over. The whole time it was going through my
mind was was going to happen, I was hoping I was up to
it... and besides, I was going to be videotaped. My desires
to be a man's bitch is something that no one, besides the
few guys I've been with know about and now there was going
to be a tape of it.
At the time he said he opened the door and walked right in,
threw his sports bag on the floor and as he set up his video
camera he had me hook it up so it would show on the TV
screen and. He found the best angle and then had me unzip
him, pull his cock out and after a few minutes of gentle
kisses and licks to both his cock and balls he let me take
him in my mouth and begin. After a few minutes he started
to take an active role, gently forcing himself deeper into
my throat. At one point he went a little too deep and I
tried to push myself away. He pulled out and slapped my
face. Not a real hard, but hard enough to sting. As he
rubbed his cock covered with my spit all over the face, he
asked me how many years had I jacked off thinking about
this moment. He put his cock in my mouth and started
fucking my face, slow and each stroke a little deeper. Many
times I had the dry heaves as I gagged on him, I swear each
time I gagged his cock got thicker. He pulled out and told
me not to move that he was going to tie my hands together.
As he was moving around, he would slap my face, my ass,
twist a nipple just to watch me jump. He would force me to
look at the camera as he would call me his cocksucker and
other words of praise. After my hands were secured he made
sure the camera had a good shot of my face as he started to
once again fuck my face. This time was different, my hands
are behind my back and he's getting aggressive. There were
many times I was ready to snap my fingers and stop it, but
each time he would remind me how much I want this, reminded
me of my fantasies. I gave in, I could feel him all the way
in my throat. As strange as it sounds, for a couple seconds
I liked it. Then he started to fuck me and it that made it
tough for me to relax. He asked if I wanted to swallow his
cum, I tried to answer but with a cock down your throat the
best I could do was mumble. He pulled out and slapped one
side of my face and then the other as he asked if I wanted
to swallow. I begged for it, he made me face the camera and
beg for it. All the while reminding me how much I like what
was going on, how long I've wanted it. He fucked my face
for another couple minutes, until he told me to look up at
him as he came in my mouth. He pulled out keeping just the
head of his cock in my mouth as he came, letting me taste
him instead of shooting so far down my throat. To save time
I'll fast forward.... For a couple hours he had his way with
me. He used his hand, a belt on my ass so hard that I felt
it the next day. My balls and nipples hurt the next day as
did my ass which was sorer than ever before and I've been
playing with dildos for over 20 years. I was pissed on,
pissed in and swallowed. All of this caught on tape. He
told me not to worry about the tape, that only people
interested in this activity would ever see it. As he was
walking out he told me he would email me.
The next morning when I got up I had an email from him. He
told me I did well, that he wanted to see me again. He said
how long we continued to get together was up to me, that
until I say no (bananas) he wants to have his way with me.
He also said that it won't get any easier, that everyday my
limits will be slightly pushed further and further, that my
submission will be tested daily. Since I begged him to be
his bitch, he warned me he was going to make me his bitch,
at anytime I've had enough to just say so but until then he
expects total obedience.

He told me to buy a diary, and to set set up a database to
duplicate the handwritten diary. Every night to write in
the diary the exploits of our sex, my feelings about being
his bitch and his "orders." Every time we get together he
will give me an "order" which I am to follow until told
otherwise. These orders are to be documented in the diary.
Here is a partial list of what he said are to be some of my
upcoming orders, in no particular order.
Shaving crotch/ass - keep shaved
Various writing assignments
Wear toenail polish when he comes over
Wear womens underwear where he comes over
self pics
Wear womens undies 24/7
Keep toenails painted 24/7
self videos
Shaving waist down - keep shaved
website documenting transformation
Shaved neck down -keep shaved