novice_slave818@hotmail.com
How it all started....
  
I saw his ad on one of the yahoo groups,
   "Top looking for submissive bottom. Want to push your
limits
    for my enjoyment in the Valley."
I replied, thinking I was one of thousands replying, lucky
for me I didn't have to wait long for his reply. After a
brief email exchange where he wanted to know my limits, my
experiences and my darkest fantasies. He informed me that
he is in contact with me not because of my pic, experience
or fantasies, but only because of my proximity to both his
home and work. He also spelled out the rules, he tells me
what to do and i do it. He gave me a safe-word and told me
if for whatever reason I couldn't speak to snap my fingers
3 times. He warned me that once I used the safe-word I was
of no value to him and that he would have no reason to use
me again. Part of this sent a shiver through me but it also
brought my dick to life. He wrote in the message a time and
place to be, a semi-public bathroom at his place of
business, to be naked on my knees waiting for him. I knew
the area where he worked, I was nervous about being naked
on my knees waiting for someone that I had never met, what
happens if he's just playing me and some uninterested
person walks in while I'm waiting on my knees? My fears
aside, I was naked on my knees at the designated time. The
door opens and in he walked. He walked right up to me,
pulling my face into his crotch, rubbing my face all over
the front of his jeans. He stepped back and calmly said,
"take out my cock bitch." I fumbled with his belt and the
buttons of his fly, understandably I was a little nervous.
Once I had it out of his shorts I took it in my mouth,
tasting him, his sweat, the taste of his cock. As I started
to lick and suck his cock, I could feel it hardening in my
mouth. He just stood there and let me do as I wish, to
enjoy the feeling of his cock in my mouth. After a while,
he put his hands on my head and started to control the
depth and speed of his cock in my mouth. As I started to
gag, I instinctively put my hands on his legs to try to
push myself back a little bit.
"Put your hands behind you" was all he said, I immediately
clasped my hands behind my back knowing what was going to
happen, I had wrote about my fascination with the SlapHappy
videos. He started to fuck in and out of my mouth, trying to
go a little deeper each time.
"relax, this is what you want isn't it? Breathe out as I
push in, relax and enjoy" are a few of the things he said
as he continued his assault. Just when I was getting used
to the depth of his cock in my throat, he would then go a
little deeper. As he was fucking my throat, it was hard to
keep my hands behind my back, I was gagging and retching
around his cock. As he picked up the pace I could tell he
was getting close. With my head in his hands, he tilted my
head so I could see up to him.
"Keep sucking bitch, I'm getting close." after a few more
minutes, "Look at me bitch, I want to see your eyes as I
cum in your mouth, making you my cocksucker." His talk was
getting to me, I wanted to please him, I increased the
suction the best I could and made sure to keep my tongue
moving all around. "Swallow bitch" he said as he pushed
himself into my throat and held himself there for what
seemed like minutes. As he pulled his cock out of my
throat, but still keeping it in my mouth I could feel and
taste his cum in my mouth. He let me gently suckle on his
cock for a couple minutes, making sure there was no more
cum to swallow.
"same time tomorrow, bring a spiral notepad, a pink one"
was all he said as he buckled his pants and walked out. I
noticed how much of my drool/spit had dripped down my chin,
my chest and onto the floor. I got up, wiped my face and
chest, got dressed and left. After I walked out the door to
the bathroom, I noticed a couple guys sitting on the bench
watching me and laughing at what I don't know, hopefully
not at me. The thought that they knew what had just
transpired in the bathroom embarrassed me as I walked to my
car.
The next day I was waiting on my knees as ordered, this
time not as scary as the day before. When he walked in, all
he did was point at his crotch, I took this to mean to get
his cock out and start sucking which is exactly what I did.
Feeling a little more comfortable, I used my hands to play
with his balls and crotch. Once he put his hands on my head
I put my hands behind my back knowing that's what he wanted.
He fucked my face, at times fast and hard like the day
before, sometimes a little slow and deliberate. As he was
getting close, I started looking up. As he busted his nut
in my mouth I could see him smiling, enjoying the feeling
of having another guy suck his cock and swallow his load.
Keeping his cock in my mouth, he leaned over and picked up
the pink notepad and took a pen from his pocket. As he
wrote [panties] on the first line, he spoke, "be wearing
womens panties when waiting until told otherwise."  He then
wrote [suck cock 100Xs], "by hand, write 'I love to suck
cock' one hundred times, sign and date it at the bottom and
bring it with you tomorrow, same time." With that he
finished dressing and he left. I dressed and left. Again,
the same couple guys were sitting and watching as I exited
the bathroom, this time I'm pretty sure I was the brunt of
their joke. That night I sat at my desk and by hand wrote,
I love to suck cock" 100 times, then signed and dated it.
Lucky for me, because of an online-cyber relationship, I
had already purchased some female undergarments.
Funny the difference in a couple days... 2 days ago I was
scared to be naked in the bathroom waiting for him, now I
was looking forward to it. As per his orders, I was on my
knees wearing only womens panties. He walked in, looked at
me and laughed. He pointed and I went to work. The same
routine as before as he used my mouth for his pleasure. He
picked up the notepad and started writing.
[shave crotch and ass] he wrote as he explained what he
wanted.
"Put on a pair of boxers and shave everything that's
covered, and keep it shaved smooth." On the next line he
wrote [suck cock & swallow cum 100Xs]. "Write by hand, 'I
love to suck cock and swallow cum' one hundred times." He
picked up the sheet from the previous night, looked at it,
folded it and put in a pocket as he left the bathroom. As I
left I didn't see the guys on the bench, but as I started
walking away I heard laughter, as I turned I saw the guys,
this time at a closer bench. As I turned to see them, they
stopped laughing and turned away, as I turned and started
walking they started laughing again. Yeah, I'm pretty sure
they know what I'm doing in there. Later I shaved and did
my nightly writing assignment.
Needless to say, the next day I was in place waiting. The
same routine as before was followed. As he was fucking my
face, the door suddenly opened and the 2 guys were there.
In between laughing, they were saying things like, "look at
the cocksucker in panties, he must think he's a bitch" as
they closed the door. Of course I was startled by the
interruption, being seen on my knees gagging on a cock
wasn't something I was looking forward to.
"Are you sure this is what you want, you want to be my
bitch" he asked as he pulled his cock out of my mouth.
"Yes Master" I answered as he pushed his cock back into my
mouth and emptied his nuts into my willing mouth. He
reached over to the note pad and started writing.
[paint toenails] "Start wearing toenail polish, your choice
of color but keep them painted at all times" he ordered me.
"Tonight you are to write 'I want to be a man's bitch' one
hundred times" as he added it to the notepad. "Be here two
hours earlier tomorrow, and be prepared to spend a couple
hours" and out he walked. I dressed and walked out, knowing
that those guys would be there. Damn, right outside the
door, I almost had to brush against them as I exited.
"want some more cock fag" one of them said as I walked
past. It's hard to describe how I felt.... it wasn't fear
of danger, but more a fear of my true self being exposed. I
went to the $.99 cent store to buy the nailpolish, that way
it would be easier for me to make the purchase without
attracting attention.
The next day I was on my knees, shaved, wearing panties and
painted toenails waiting for my Master to walk in. He walks
in with a shopping bag which he dropped on the floor and
let me get to my duty and suck his cock. This time, after I
swallowed all he gave me, he ordered me to put all my
clothes into the bag.
"I have a few things to do, stay here and wait for me,
maybe an hour or so" was all he said as he walked out the
door with my clothes, leaving me in only panties. Now I
started to feel the first time in the bath5room, kinda on
edge and scared. I sat in one of the stalls, hoping to
avoid contact with anyone. At one point, the 2 guys came in
and used the urinal. They laughed among themselves talking
about me, me the cocksucker, me the panty wearing
cocksucker. After what seemed like 6 hours (really a little
over 1 hour), my Master walked in with the shopping bag. I
dropped to my knees. For the second time today, I was
sucking him off. Once he got hard, he pulled away and
motioned me over to the sink.
"Bend over, hold on to these pipes and don't let go" he
ordered as he pointed to where he wanted me. Using his feet
he moved my legs apart, much like how the police do when
searching a suspect. I knew what was coming. Although I
haven't been with many guys, I have played with many
different toys up my ass and like it rough. And rough he
was. I could feel as he dripped the KY on my ass, and then
one finger was roughly pushed up my ass. He fucked my ass
with the one finger for about 10 seconds until he pulls out
and then inserts two fingers for a brief finger fuck. I
don't feel him touching me and I'm hoping he's putting some
lube on his dick. I feel him pressing his cock against my
ass, slightly applying pressure when he leans over me and
whispers into my ear.
"I'm gonna fuck your ass, I'm gonna fuck your ass hard. I'm
not going to damage you but I do want to hurt you, the more
it hurts you the better it feels for me." I try to relax as
I feel him starting to push himself into me. In one motion
he forces his dick deep into me. Without giving my ass time
to adjust, he starts fucking me in long strokes. I remain
still and relatively quiet for the first few minutes of the
fucking, letting him fuck my ass for his pleasure. The
longer he fucked me the more it became uncomfortable, the
stretching of my ass and the fucking motion. My body
started to move on it's own, trying to avoid the cock up my
ass as I started moaning and grunting with each stroke. I
love playing rough with dildos up my own ass, but this is
different, I'm not in control. As my Master noticed my
discomfort, he started being more forceful, I'm sure
enjoying my reaction to it. He leaned over me, resting his
weight on me as he continued fucking me and grabbed my
nipples. He pulled and twisted them. It was all I could do
to keep my hands on the pipe where he wanted, each twist of
a nipple caused me to jerk, sometimes jerk backwards as he
would force his cock deeper into me. He slapped my ass a
few times, each time ordering to tighten my ass to increase
his pleasure. With a big grunt he came and collapsed on top
of me for a minute.
"Don't move" was all he said as he pulled out of me. In a
minute he turned my head to the side. "Open up," he then
poured the contents of the rubber into my mouth. He put his
hands on my shoulders and motioned me to my knees where he
put his cock back in my mouth to clean.
"Be expecting me to show up at your house tonight" he said
as the door started to open. "When my friends are finished
with you, you may leave." With that he walked out and the
same two guys that have been laughing at me the last couple
days walked in. I sucked them both off, during the whole
time they were calling me names like fag, cocksucker, bitch
plus many others. After they both were finished, they walked
out leaving me on my knees. I cleaned up, dressed and left
for home to await my Master's visit.
Around 9:30PM he walked in, no knocking on the door, he
just walked in. In one hand he held a backpack, the other a
six pack of beer which he handed to me to put in the fridge.
"This is the type of beer I like, make sure to always have
some chilled in the refrig, also have some diet coke." I
took the six pack minus one bottle to the refrig and
returned to him. He pointed to his crotch and I immediately
pulled his cock out and put my mouth around it and started
to suck him. After a couple minutes he stepped back and sat
down on the couch, putting the backpack on the couch next to
him.
"Get some of your dildos, I want to see you fuck yourself."
I went to the closet and grabbed the large box containing my
toys and returned to him. Upon my return I saw him plugging
in a video camera into the wall and suddenly became quite
nervous.
"Get down and the floor and get to work, show my how much
of a little whore-bitch you are" he ordered. I lubed the
first dildo and some lube for my ass and started to fuck
myself. As he was videotaping me, he had me assume
different positions, all the while fucking myself and
changing to bigger dildos. After a while he told me to fuck
myself harder and to jack off.
"When you cum, cum into your hand and then show it to the
camera" he ordered as I continued the assault on my ass.
When I finally ejaculated into my hand, he then said "look
into the camera and tell me that you want to be my bitch.
Lick your cum all up, make it convincing." I couldn't count
how many times I told myself I would eat my own cum while
jacking off only to immediately dismiss the idea once I
came, this time was different. It was no longer my
decision. I looked into the camera and said things I never
thought I would say, begging to be the bitch for another
man, to perform any sexual act he desired, to surrender
mind and body for his enjoyment. After he let me ramble for
a while, he then told me to start fucking my ass again. The
dildo had remained in my ass since I came, now I started to
move up and down on it. Having cum recently it wasn't as
easy to fuck myself, but to please my Master I made sure I
showed him how much I would do for him.... I started to
fuck my ass hard! After a few minutes, my ass relaxed and
it started to feel good again, of course, that's when he
told me to stop and stand up while he turned the camera
off. He motioned me over to the computer and told me to
connect and open my web browser. He typed in the link he
wanted, warpmymind.com. He indicated which files he wanted
me to download; TrainDeepThroat, TrainCumLover,
TrainAnalOrgasm, TrainToPlease1, TrainToPlease2,
TrainCrossDress, TrainFemGuy, TrainWoman, TrainCorset and
DegradeWeightLoss. He told me download them and asked if I
knew how to burn CDs. I answered yes and then he told me he
wanted me to listen to each one of the files 2 times daily.
Although I have fantasized for years about exactly was
happening, I started to wonder if it was something better
left to my jacking off fantasies. Sensing I was at that
point of using my safeword, he gently guided me down to my
knees, leaving to retrieve something from his backpack. He
returned, handcuffing my hands behind my back, he then
stepped in front of me and shoved his crotch in my face. He
let me suck him for a few minutes before he spoke.
"Keep sucking, look up as I talk at you. It's a big step,
you wrote me that this is something you wanted. You wanted
to give control to a man, to be his bitch, isn't that
right" he asked as he pulled his cock out of my mouth.
"Yes Master" I answered, scared to admit it but also scared
not to. He put his dick back in my mouth for another couple
minutes.
"Do you want to be my bitch" he asked, "to follow my
orders?"
"Yes Master."
"Good." He say the notepad on my desk and got ready to
write in it.
"listen to the CD 2 times a day" he ordered as he wrote,
indicating the hypnosis files just downloaded. "Keep
yourself shaved smooth from your waist down. And start
wearing panties 24/7. Buy different styles and colors,
choose your panties according to the upcoming activity." As
he was writing in the notepad I assumed that what he was
talking about was wearing cotton panties when exercising,
but when I'm with him they better be sexy ones. After he
finished writing he turned his attention back to me where I
was kneeling with my hands handcuffed behind my back and put
his cock back in my mouth, but just the head of his cock
then he told me to close my mouth and look up.
"After drinking those beers, I need to piss. I want you to
drink it, don't spill any" he said looking down at me,
watching me sink a little deeper into my submission to him.
He then started pissing. I have drank my own piss many times
in my solo-sexual games, it wasn't the taste but the force
of it that I struggled with. Once I figured out to arch my
tongue to deflect the stream I could swallow all he had to
offer. He then picked up the notepad again.
"Write 'i love to drink mens piss' one hundred times." He
then got dressed, put his stuff back into the backpack. As
he was taking the handcuffs off he warned me that he would
stop by tomorrow, and that he wanted to see how much pain I
would take for him, telling me he wanted to see me suffer.
Just like when I gag on his cock down my throat it makes
him harder, watching my body jerk in pain will do the same
for him. He turned and walked out, leaving me on my
knees..... until I jumped up and started to burn the CD
while I jumped in the shower to shave.
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Sorry.... this isn't a true story, it's just a *little* bit
of what runs through my mind while I am jacking off. Do I
wish this was a true story, yes! How far would I go, I'm
not sure. I'm not sure of the point where fantasy and
reality meet, that's the point I want to experience.