Knowing Myself (2)(15/9/2003)
In this holiday I realized a seriousness of
gradual diversion in life styles among my friends.
Some are searching for their own life. Things
should be excited, enjoyable. There should be friends around for sharing their
life.
Some are focused on local city life.
Some have to work and earn for the family, sacrificing
many of their own things.
Some have to earn while they have to let go nearly
all their church life.
Some search for real love, the one really
suites, but is still not satisfied.
Some have no planning for their life…
Everyone lives in a way with a certain reason.
Human justification is subjective. I try to be sympathetic to their reason but
didn’t succeed in all cases.
If they can do that, why should I insist that
I must have time to go to church before I take any job? Why should I insist
that I must have time to take care of brothers and sisters? Why should I insist
that I must have time to take care of my family? Why should I insist that I
must teach all I know and play all I can? Why should I insist that I must
practice till perfect? Why should I insist that I really want to continue my
study? Why should I insist that I must not waste money on useless things? Why
should I insist that I must not let myself to consider seriously about a
relationship before I really know how to love?
More the one people think that I’m too
limiting myself. But what is the wrong of doing so? Knowing more about God,
growing through His guidance and guardians, taking caring of friends and family
(not the kind of mall-cinema-dinner way of caring), trying my best in my jobs…
All are things I enjoy… Isn’t that basic to practice slowly and accurately
everyday? But most people didn’t listen – as well as many other basic simple ‘dos
and don’ts’. That’s why I want to show them this is a practical and effective
way of being.
I’m not trying to show what is right or wrong.
If one thinks so, these are really the right things for me.
Life is so short, so fragile. No one can
predict what will happen next second. May be, a plane will crash down. May be,
a car accident. May be, Jesus will come back… There are too many reasons for me
to live right.
Honestly I always feel tired with all the
rules I set for myself. But it’s all the people around me and the Lord who
showed Himself to me for His might and mercy in my life which be my reason and
goal. I pray for my endurance and faith to keep myself focused enough in circumstances
that I’m going to face.