The cold night swirled
As I opened up to you.
My dark heart sang
Verses of endless joy.
Through the days
Our love did dance,
As I proclaimed to you
What you had felt for me too.
Nights of autumn changed
And blossomed something new.
Days of endless rain
Formed another tune.
How my heart did sing;
Counting fewer passes
Where I know,
Rain was once
An only friend.
On and on then,
The days did go,
The seasons began to change:
Light started to fade,
And nothing stayed the same.
Then,
Lies all filled
The heart you made.
Far cries felt
Nothing on my burdened mind.
New days still were
Old ways
Only missing a start.
Bright eyes would vanquish,
Turning blessings
Into foe.
Yearning one more chance,
I cried myself away.
Watering eyes
Turned my heart to grey.
Shattered tidings
Threw my heart astray,
All but leaving my mind together.
Forgetting battered feelings
I turned my life on its way.
On came the day,
I knew it had to change.
Building a new trust,
I wouldn't be torn again.
I ventured on once more
Through the mind that could not say,
"Your heart is ready
And worthy once again."
In your arms
I grew too deep,
I made the tears
Shift away,
Distant from here
And all that's new.
Felt as nights,
As we proved our hearts could stay.
Through my fears
Of losing what we started,
I found my ways
Weren't so weak-hearted,
As the likeliness of my love
Was there and raging,
Though it was never stated.
From my past
I grew to now,
Pusghing through the dirt
I stuttered,
Wasting the chance I never had.
All the night
Has passed me to this point,
That nothing new
Could show its face,
Proving my tired efforts
Were anything less
Than a massive waste.
Broken fragments
Reflected aging moments
Directly in my way.
I could toss the happenings
Off to the side,
Neglect and lie
And show the past
It's not still inside.
But,
The passings
Come and whither,
Rest and grow,
While I shiver.
Wrecking cruelties
Dawn a void;
A gaping hole
They call my heart.
Now,
I've grown on my own,
Not a soul
To set me free.
I grow and age
Just with me.
I cross our times
Through my mind,
Chasing them now,
I ask in pain,
"Were these moments
Even mine?"
I bathe and cry
In my own sorrow,
Growing strength
To find the one,
The one to be-
In my heart,
And loving me.
Love will always mean,
Causing pain,
Or setting free.
