1. Monolith (no
lyrics)
2.
Dig
I would love to beat
the face,
Of any mother fucker
that's thinkin' they can change me,
White knuckles grip
pushing through for the gold,
If you're wantin' a
piece of me I broke the mother fuckin' mold,
I'm drowning in your
wake
Shit rubbed in my face
Teething on concrete
Gums bleeding
Dig bury me
underneath
Everything that I am
rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was
slowly changing
I struggle in violated
space,
Sell out motherfuckers
in the biz that try to fuck me,
Hang from their T's
rated P.G. insight,
I ain't sellin' my soul
when there's nothing to buy
I'm livid in my space
Pissing in my face
Fuck you while you try
To fuck
me
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am
rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was
you ain't fuckin' changing me
Let me help you tie the
rope around your neck,
Let me help to talk you
the wrong way off the ledge,
Let me help you hold
the glock against your head
Let me help you tie the
rope around your neck,
Let me help to talk you
the wrong way off the ledge,
Let me help you hold
the glock up to your head,
Let me help to chain
the weights onto your legs
Get on the plank fuck
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am
rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was
slowly changing
Wish you were
committing
Suicide suckin' on a
mother fuckin' tailpipe
Dead man dangling from
a tight rope
Limbless in the middle
of a channel bob away
3. Internal Primates
Forever
Cop provisions feed my
addictions mistakes I made then
I opened up the holes
and they crawled in,
Now when it's time for
the feed they won't let me forget,
They ride upon my back
and they'll fuck me with their need,
My invisible enemies
all my monkeys
Their coming they're
coming their coming they're coming to take me away.
Disgusted with my
position so submissive I am the only way we get away is give in sharpen up the
razors stab the needles into pipes to kill cravings so sick of this in me can't
stand the want to need can't get free always got a grip on
me
There's no use to fight
this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation obedience subservience leads to
substance
Do you want more give
it to me
Leave my motivation to
chemical dependency no room for patience
Don't want it need it
come on right now
(chorus voice
2)
Everything I've become
now is everything I didn't want to be
Every time I try to run
away I fall on my face they drag me back
Every time I try to run
away I fall on my face
Help! They won't leave
me alone
If I would have known
back then what I know now I 'd take it back
If I would have known
back then what I know now I 'd take it back,
I'd take it back I'd
take it all fuckin' back
Stay away stay away
Hold me I'm shaking
violently
Pull me out of my
covering
Mold me into a new man
Lull me into a deep
sleep
There's no use to fight
this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation obedience subservience leads to
substance
Even if you want you
can't stop
Internal primates
forever
4.
-1
Losses, losers and
more, gain of life's pleasures cohorts listen behind the doors to a life
meaningless less than 0 in me all my walls falling down pains aloft misery
I'm sure that the
lessons were learned I'm sure that the punishments went well deserved by the
pawn in the plan taste of shit bitterness walk from me everything systematically
Come on youweretheone
youweretheone,
To dredge up shit
inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm
supposed to be
Tell me who I'm
supposed to be
Tell me what it takes
to ascend
Tell me what it takes
to live
Patience, pleasures and
rewards, come in due time stare at the sun I'm bored in a life meaningless
soaking up all of me like the cross you worship life is loss look at me I'm sure
that some day we'll wake up I'm sure that some day we'll wake from the dream
Of success and
focus...tunneling to the light glowing deep inside of me your taunting I wake
up
Come on youweretheone
youweretheone,
To dredge up shit
inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm
supposed to be
Tell me who I'm
supposed to be
Tell me what it takes
to ascend
Tell me what it takes
to live
Tell me
nOW!
Tell me
nOW!
Pain misery distress
dismal know where depressed idiot failure
In
me......calling......loser......man I'm the
Loser......loser.....loser......in
me......who I am....in me....
Don't feel sorry don't
feel sorry for me
Don't need your
sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside of
me,
Don't need your
sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside of
me,
Don't feel sorry don't
feel sorry for me
Come on
I know youweretheone
youweretheone
Numb to feelings inside
of me why I've seized my vision
Don't need you to tell
me who to be
Don't need you to tell
me what to be
Don't need you to tell
me how to ascend
Don't need you to tell
me how to live
5. Death
Blooms
Cold seems crippling
lame meander through corridors aroma's thick with age mark off the day
reflections of my life are fading
Pull me out of body
don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and
rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's
collapsing don't want it cast into,
Maker take the body
don't want it wants me
Past has found its
place salvation is no more will god accept my peace bleached will pardon me
reflections of my life are fading
Pull me out of body
don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and
rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's
collapsing don't want it cast into,
Maker take the body
don't want it wants me
I just want to run fly
kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that
crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery
I'm sick and tired of
embracing reflections of past time receive me or cast me away
...god please take me
away
resistance futile
suicidal ideas I will crucify my own being satisfy selfish needs fuck the
deities justify my own right to what's waiting for me
On the other side the
time has come lock and load I'm coming I'm coming I'm coming I'm coming home
Pull me out of body
don't want it don't want in,
Pull me out of body
don't want it don't want in,
Pull me out of body
don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and
rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's
collapsing descending don't want it,
Maker take the body
don't want it wants me,
Pull me out of body
don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and
rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's
collapsing descending don't want it,
Maker take the body
don't want it wants me
I just want to run fly
kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that
crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery
The darkness overcomes
soul soars to the other plain
Existence past the door
I sail through purgatory's bay
I asked a god for
poison cradle me sown to my dreams souls searching death blossoms where clouds
lie over me held in god's hands death blooming
Dark for fear of
failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting roiling hate death grip
in my veins unveiling rancid petals flowering forth foul nectar the space
between a blink and a tear
...death
blooms.
6. Golden Ratio (no
lyrics)
7.
Cradle
Breathe...
Push...
...I lost you, you were
my god thought what do I do now
you were never there
for me never there to carry me,
26 years looking back
that time is gone it was you I believed in look what you've done to me realize
what you've done to
Me
I can't see going on in
this darkness I'm blind beneath my cradle the bough has broke, I exorcise my
loss your lie the punishment
It takes time to try to
mend the wounds of all the suffering,
What do I do now all
I'm asking from you please send me a sign to guide me through the times that lie
in front of me I'll get by myself
Look at me now, a piece
of shit like you.
Look at me now, you
left me so fuck you.
Everybody leaves me,
everybody's gone.
Watch my father leave
me, there's nobody left.
Feels like I've never
been loved.
Everybody leaves me,
never gave a shit about me.
Everybody's gone, I'll
rot in my head alone.
I don't give a fuck
about you, go the fuck away .
Fake being, inside of
my heart you are the liar.
Innocence
displaced.
Been
left.
Here I stand now and
I'm alone,
With no one to comfort
me.
One set of footprints
in the sand.
No one to take my hand,
I'll .
I'll walk through as
long as I need.
I'll drift through my
life though I'm alone.
Outgrown the cradle
that once housed me
And I've found that all
I need is
Me.
Found I've never needed
you to push through
All the shit that
stacks up inside of my life.
Endless plight that
circulates through my body.
I'll keep stumbling,
beating, pummeling
Teething on the rind
and renounce my being.
I can't see going
on.
I can't
see
I'm so tired, of trying
to mend the wounds of all my suffering.
What do I do
now?
All I'm asking from you
please,
Send me a
sign
To guide me through the
times that lie in front of me.
I'll get by
myself
I can't see going on
fuck it.
8. Nothing To
Gein
Cold and silent, soiled
face I will wash it all away,
With my
love,
That's all she's ever
needed, from me
It's my time, to
mother,
One of my own in my
life,
I am so alone, left
with no one
In my life, I'm so
alone
Life
submissiveness,
Hypnotizing the
ignorant a little boy's best friend's always his mother,
At least that's what
she said,
Life of a simple
man,
Taught that everyone
else is dirty,
And their love is
meaningless,
I'm just a soiled dirty
boy,
I'm just a soiled dirty
boy,
Sheltered life
innocence,
Insulated memories,
spark reflections of my head,
Duality in my
consciousness,
Caught in the war of
hemispheres,
Between the love lost
in my head,
Mommy do you still live
inside of me,
I'm so lost in my life
without any guiding,
Protected me my whole
life from everything,
Nailed shut the doors
to the shrine,
To screen your dead
eyes from me and my sickness,
Mutilate and sew my new
clothes for masquerading,
Aprons of flesh corpse
scalped hair with skin upon my face,
Deliver the remains
from her womb of earth,
Prep the rack and tie
up for new love's rebirth,
Covert understanding of
novice surgery,
I'll focus
concentration and only take just what I need
For sickness I'm
masticating,
Dancing and
masturbating,
Celebrate in fields of
night with skin upon my face
If I soak my hands in
others blood am I sick,
If I wash my hands in
others blood am I sick,
If I drench myself in
others blood am I sick,
If I bathe myself in
others blood
Blame mother for the
sickness,
Mutilate and sew my new
clothes for masquerading,
Aprons of flesh corpse
scalped hair with skin upon my face,
Dance and masturbate in
night light by myself..
Nothing is left for me
to gain they're coming to take me far away,
Chorus
Life of a simple man
taught that everyone else is dirty and love is meaningless
I'm so
soiled
Soiled
9. Mutatis Mutandis (no
lyrics)
10. Everything And
Nothing
We swallow the
spit,
Steal acceptance lend
denial,
Telling me that my life
is free and boundless,
Then I'm forced to stay
between the lines,
They construct death to
demolish life,
Plant the seeds to
harvest loss,
Found empty truth is
full of lies,
We're hoping for
despair,
Starvation's
gluttony,
Subtle chaotic
peace,
War divided
unity,
Pro life, pro
choice,
Blinded
insight,
Left wing, right
wing,
Black,
white,
Leaders
following,
I am everything I am
nothing,
Stop fuckin' with me,
I'm the accused I'm not the enemy
You're so confused no
way you could enlighten me,
No freedom trapped in
slavery, deceitful honesty mother fuckin' human not a
machine
Lay your hands upon
me,
In search for answers
inviting,
Constant struggle
inside me,
Guide me through this
nothing that's everything
I am everything I am
nothing
11.
Severed
And we hide
behind,
Lies, anger, Hate they
shoo love away,
Build shells of
ourselves outside,
It shelters body from
cold reigns of reality,
Come on, Step out, of
your rind, assemble strength, focus,
Release and run to me
you can never look back to the visions from the past they fade and wilt in
time,
You've got to just
trust me to hold your hand through,
Then I turn and walk
away,
Eclipse
you,
And bleed you strip you
of your states of ain soph aur,
Eclipse
you,
I spit up on my plate
and I push everything away,
I
need,
And we sever all
ties,
It creates disruption
midst circle of friends,
I become the
sacrifice,
Spare your life and
leave me to my misery,
Get off the cross, and
save yourself, run away
Run now get away from
me if I can get my grip I'll pull you down into the hell I call my head you'll
never get away
I sit down in my ugly
place and build walls out of fragments from my past of all the people that I
needed and loved that walked away,
You've got to just
trust me to hold your hand through then I'll turn and walk
away
I walk under the clouds
of gray,
Sphere of storms in my
head,
I'm trapped again in
endless rain
I divorce the thoughts
of you I love with me,
I divorce your
innocence and my guilt,
I divorce the lying
sellout confidence,
I'm divorcing every
mother fuckin' thing
I divorce the love bled
meaningless,
I divorce the makeshift
harmony,
I divorce the taunting
acts of violence,
I divorce the pastime
of jealousy,
I divorce
control,
I divorce the
faith,
I divorce the
virtue,
I divorce the
rain,
I divorce the
excuse,
I divorce the
greed,
I divorce the
need,
I divorce iniquity in
this mother fuckin' bullshit life,
Just want it all to go
away,
Just want to run away
to die, take it, myself, my life
Text book fucking
mental, off me and pitch me in a hole
I'll always be your
shadow,
And veil your eyes from
states of ain soph aur,
I can't be the hero
anymore,
I spit up on my plate
and then I turn and walk away,
I spit up on my plate
and I disrupt the family,
I spit up on my plate
and I sever the entity,
And I feel your warm
sun on my face
Separate
.
Eclipse you and bleed
you strip you of your states of ain soph aur,
I need
you,
It's always been this
way, I push it all away,
From
me
12. Recombinant
Resurgence (no lyrics)
13.
Prod
Emotions inside us
troubling,
The hatred inside us
escalating,
The sickness inside us
keeps us weak,
The masses inside of us
suffering they are bleeding,
The calling inside us
sick with greed,
The voices calling to
us deafening we're not listening
Cannot receive the
obvious
Line up cattle and cut
the necks
Swat at the flies omit
disgust
The leaders inside us
posturing,
The pollution inside of
us suffocating me,
The science inside us
menacing
The will that's inside
of us its dying end is coming
Cannot receive the
obvious
Line up cattle and cut
the necks
Drain us of life and
cleanse the mess
Wash me off inside,
wash me off inside
We're killing ourselves
killers
Goddamn we fucked up
the circumstance,
Too late to save us
from ourselves,
Callous minds against
trust and confidence,
Too late to give a damn
now
Too late to save us
from ourselves, too late to make it all go away,
Too late to beg pardons
from the mother, too late to give a damn
Now we'll sit and wait
Wait wait for the
coming. of the end
Wait for the coming the
killing the ending the plight of man
Deserving no mercy
expelling by god's hand,
It's okay the ending
it's over no more pain .
Emotion the hatred the
sickness the calling
14.
Pharmaecopia
Does your god come in a
capsule,
To sedate you tear the
walls down,
Headless prison
cannibals chew,
to consume you bring
the alien,
Halcium and
morphine,
5-methoxy-n,
n-dimethyltryptamine,
Psilocybin, mescaline,
aspirin, histomine,
Brushite, darvaset,
valium, caffeine, cannabis, and LSD,
Ayahuasca, harmine give
it all to me I want it
These are just a few of
my favorite things X 2
Trisolam and zanex,
serotonin, mdma, ibogaine, dopeamine,
Tetra-hydro-chloride,
atenolol,
Amanita
muscaria,
Boric oxide,
arrabinitol, psilocin, and flamizine,
Cylotec and
harmaline
Give it all to me I
want it
Does your god come in a
capsule to sedate you,
Tear the walls down,
headless prison,
Cannibals chew to
consume you,
Bring the alien
You can't kill
me,
I'm already
dead
Inside my
hole,
Inside my
head,
We just beg for any way
to be sedated,
It's all about
escaping,
Numb to
me,
Numb body from this
hell,
I can feel them
pushing, I can feel them pulling
I can feel them
holding, I can feel them moving,
I can feel them prying,
I can feel them prodding,
I can feel them
breathing, I can feel them digging
I can feel them
stabbing, I can feel them scoping,
I can feel them living,
I can feel it,
Consume, take in,
plunging, plumbing,
Instruments prying,
aliens inside me,
Tooling the
machine,
Intoxicating,
Feel it unfolding,
riddles in me
It's all about
escaping, we just beg for any way to get away
Who do you bow down to,
does your god come in a capsule or on a plate
They're trying to
sedate you, swallow self and bring on the alien
You tried to kill me,
I'm already dead to this world
I'm already dead to
this world
15. Under My
Skin
Nailed inside my
head,
Fuck this I don't need
your shit,
All the lies deceit and
arrogance,
Talk your shit like my
life is some kinda game,
Like you fuckin' know
me,
Just go far away and be
small,
Run far away and be
small,
Go lie in a hole and be
small,
Thorns, splinters,
pushing,
Under my
skin,
They want
in,
Sharpened tongue to
penetrate me,
If you really think you
got what it takes to be me,
Then walk a mile in the
skin of my head case mental being,
So you want a piece of
this life that belongs to me,
Well make a cut on the
line and take a deeper look inside of the freak,
That is me, fucker,
come on,
Disturb, search me,
prying up all my scales
To get in lance the
core to penetrate me,
So you want inside of
me,
So you want a piece of
this,
So you want to tear me
down, for your own selfish wants and needs
Disturb, search me,
prying, up all my scales,
To get in, lance the
core to penetrate me,
So you want inside of
me
So you want a piece of
me,
So you want to drag me
down,
For your own selfish
wants and needs
You were there like a
punk,
Just to get in my
face,
Wanted in me wanted to
be
Till I gave you a
taste
Don't need your goddamn
pressure
Frontin' stress I'm
superman motherfucker
Without the "s" on my
chest
Trying to step in my
circle I'm leaving you purple and black
On your back drop your
ass like a heart attack
Rippin' through your
life like a motherfuckin'
Hurricane fist full of
Novocain for the pain
You're nothing in my
life in my head
You're nothing in my
life in my land
Nailed inside my
head
You're under my fuckin'
skin!
I have cleansed my life
now of the people who pry
And threaten place
always in my face I think it's time for them to
Go away always in my
fuckin' space,
Always in my scene
always in my sight,
Always in my
way
You're dead to me punk
ass fuck .
There's nothing left
16. (k)Now
F(orever)
Frozen moments in
time,
Stopped
hourglass,
They predicate, what
you will know,
Dispositions lie
within,
And so do
we,
Don't want to
run.
Don't want to
hide,
Renounce the prayers
for inspiration,
If you dictate what I
will be
Then smash my face upon
the concrete I'm weary,
I feel the stares
piercing,
So sorry to soil your
precious eyes,
Reflections spoon-feed
you,
The bitterness and
disgust that is me,
If you choose to reach
out to lend to me,
I'll chew off your
hand
I'm not beggin' for
your fuckin' change
I'm not beggin' for
your fuckin' change
I'm in touch with
myself,
All alone within
myself,
All one.
Alone
Do what you will make
it the whole of your law,
Burn down the faith
that shadows life
And take a deeper look
inside of what makes you
Pull down the shades
internal light can be blinding
Brilliance
I'm not begging for
your fuckin' change,
I'm just begging for a
fuckin' change,
Complacence quenched of
me
Lineage is ending
I am that, once was me,
rising upward, guts wrenching
Sculpted cold,
blistering, break the mold, sever me
Cut your throat, be the
martyr, bitter pills, that we swallow,
Take me, chase me,
swallow with me
Know, now, know,
now
Inside of truth, coming
to, close to me, ground consumes and embraces me
Now forever
Born
again,
I'm
repositioning,
Self inside to self
non-dimensional,
Lost to
being,
I've recognized the
cause,
Existence to come,
alive now forever
I am once
was
...that is
me
I am once
was,
That is
me
I'm broken altered
vacillating force,
Round square corners
circles dance around wet figures,
Prisoner of time I'm no
more,
Insight will guide us
through the majesty of nothing,
It's like I'm touched
with love by angel girl,
Let bastards rot in
time for all their evil,
Let bastards rot in
time for all their evil,
Let bastards rot in
time
17. Lethal Dosage (no
lyrics)