nomad
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1:35 PM
Listening to "buffalo Tom"... they're good.
I miss that whole era. Ya know, the Grunge era. There was somthing about the music. It was so raw... Not just like Nirvana grunge, witch was alot more punk bassed but the softer shit too. Music that sounded like they wrote these fucking great songs on an acustic guitar and through some raunchy ass destortion on it and belted the fucker out . I loved that. Why can't things like good music and interesting idea's just be? Instead they turn into a "style" and fade out in the hearts of the masses with the rest of the trends.Even not being trendy is a trend these days.
(Trends: Aditudes people take or just thing's people do to feel more exepted, cause those are the things they see other people doing. Following the geral course)
I like the fact that people "raised the bar". It just pisses me off that what they have done now becomes the trend or expectation.
anyway I'm done bitching. have a nice day...
It's a cold, clowdey day. listening to Radiohead. A really inovative band. Really beautiful stuff. Emocional and abstract. Good for today... It's one of those days that just dosen't fit... Or maybe it fits to well... or maybe... Maybe... Maybe I should just stop analizing everything into the ground acting as though there's a true reality to the world, or the universe for that matter. And who's to say that everything isn't just some elaberate obsticel course with moments of realization and so called understanding thrown in there just to fuck with us so we keep jumping through the hoops? Thats why I cant usually digg on religion. People saying they have the answers and everybody else is wrong. Beleifs or Ideas are one thing. Your intitled to that personal freedom I suppose. I personally have verry few true belief's. I know I believe that everyones core is the same but with diforent baggage. I know that as far as existence goes I exist in my own head and thats enough for me... I used to "believe" in love... but that's another story altogether. One that I still am contomplating.
anyway. I... I think that I....... Whatever...
Peace & unity,
--Jesse
1:49 PM
If life made any fucking sence people wouldn't tamper in eachothers lives. It fucking pisses me off. I'm tired of bullshit. It seams to happen with people who should no better. People who no what it's like to have there lives tampered with.
I have verry symple ideas about how I wish to live my life. I wish to comunicate through art, help and connect with people. If I could make a living doing this that would be great. I'd like to change something... I'd like to have some purpose. I'd like to have love and friends... All the other bullshit is fucking trivial. In order to live a fulfilling life as a human there are limited neccesities.
---- Jesse
