| razor laying in the scum infested shower, not moving as the blistering water smacks my chest. the blood soaked razor in my hand as I cut myself. bleed motherfucker, bleed. I have earned this pain. dirty. as the blood pours from my self inflicted wound�I feel cleansed. why did I let it happen? did I want it? I lay the blade on the tub and watch as my blood runs down the side. this is my penace and yet I wonder what I did wrong. will it ever end, when will I have paid for my sins? Written by John Lane Schultz January 27, 2002 |