They say I might die
I guess nobody knows for sure
So for now I'm alone
Left to my own thoughts once again
They scare me;
They scare me more than anything
More than someone saying I might die
God, I don't want to die
What have I done to deserve this?
Was it my fault he took me to that mountain?
What could I have done differently,
What can I not do, not fix if I die?
I could leave you here
I want to cry for you, not for myself.
Will you be alone here?
I can't help dying, I don't want to go
Don't want my heart to stop beating
But they're doctors, not magicians
They can't do anything
Damn it, why can't they do anything?

You interrupt my thoughts
As you walk through the door,
And I pretend to be asleep,
Just to see what you will do
Oh, God, you're crying.
I can see you silently scream at my side
As if someone were tearing out your heart
And I can't do anything
I am suddenly paralyzed with grief
Oh, God, I can't move
And I want to comfort you but I can't
Please, God, I still have one more request
If You can't give me my life,
Then let me die now in his arms
Lord, I love him
I don't want him to hurt like this.

I hate for you to suffer at my side
I find the strength to put my hand on your head
And as I drift to sleep, I know
I know that I will wake up tomorrow
I know it will be alright
And maybe I'll live long enough,
Long enough to tell you the truth, that I love you

The truth.
What has this search for the truth brought us,
Anything but pain, tell me
Tell me that I'll be alright
And I'll believe you
I'll believe anything that you tell me now
Especially if you tell me that you love me
Because I love you.

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