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CHAPTER 2 Alexis walked in and slammed the door behind her. "How could he say that to me? What a jerk! "Who ya sleeping with" That Ned Ashton is the most stubborn, arrogant, pig headed, Mic Jagger wannabe, sexy as hell, passionate, loving man I have ever met with dimples to die for. Come on..Alexis get a grip girl, he don't love you anymore, so don't put yourself through this" Alexis placed her hand on her stomach. "Ned Ashton if you only knew how much I want to tell you that Sonny can find himself another lawyer, and he could have this stupid penthouse back with the guards that just stand around doing nothing but imaging me in my teddy! He could baby-sit Zander himself, I just want to be happy and with you! I just wish I could tell you that. I love you so much and want us and everything to be all right again" Ned stood outside of Alexis' penthouse. He knew he should apologize, he shouldn't have said that to her. He knew that Alexis would not just jump in bed with anyone. It took him almost a year. Ned raised his hand to knock, put he heard Alexis voice inside. She sounded like she was talking to someone, so Ned turned and headed for the elevator. Before he stepped on he said "I will Love U Always." then the doors shut. Ned left for his North American tour the next day. He miserable as ever, not really caring about singing or being with the band, he just wanted to be home with Alexis. He just sat in his hotel after every show lonely, while the boys went out drinking partying He sat in his hotel room scribbling lyrics on a piece of paper and strumming his guitar. 3:00 am on the clock Lullaby music box baby please don't cry, let's let mommy sleep tonight.. Ned thought to himself '"were did this come from". Ned sat in his hotel room for the rest of the night thinking about all the great times he and Alexis have shared He sat there humming and strumming his guitar thinking about the first time he told Alexis I love you. ****** Flashback ****** Ned: (becoming more serious) You know, I don't think it's about literacy. I don't think we're any less literate than we were. Well, maybe our grammar might be worse... But I looked across that room, at that crotchety, closed-off old man, to whom I so often feel superior to, and I had to concede that, at least in his letters, he is my better. Ned: (continuing) Not in how he expressed himself, (Alexis nods) but in what he dared to express. (he pauses and turns to her) Things I should've dared to tell you long ago. Ned: There are probably a thousand ways to say you love someone. You can say that she's beautiful and hope that she understands you don't mean the obvious by it. You mean the color of your hair, and the curve of your shoulder affects you the way music does. (a pause) That the sight of her entering a room makes you think forbidden thoughts. (smiles) And you feel blessed among mortals that they're not forbidden to you. (a pause) Ned: You can tell her that she's healed something in you (he's beginning to really feel what he's saying) that you thought was forever beyond reach Ned: (continuing) You can tell her that she makes you feel, for the first time in her -- (his voice catches on his words before he continues, his voice slightly ragged) for the first time in your life... easy in your own skin. That who you actually are, with no hiding or dressing-up, is all you need to live today, tomorrow, and all the days after, as long as she's there. Ned: Or, or... you don't worry about what it means, you just say it. Because in the calmness of your head, and in your heart, it's the truest thing that you know. And it's time that I say it. Ned: I love you, Alexis. ***** END FLASHBACK ***** Ned "I still love you Alexis" Several weeks have past Alexis has not told anyone about her pregnancy and Ned is still on tour. Alexis bedroom Alexis jumps out of bed and flies into the bathroom throwing up. "Just kill me now and get it over with, I can't take this anymore. I am sick every morning, I am moody, I cry at Hallmark commercials, my clothes are getting to tight, I hate Sonny, I hate Zander, I hate this penthouse, this floor and I hate throwing up!" Alexis got off the floor and stomped into her bedroom and flung herself on the bed. "Damn that Ned Ashton, this is his fault!" Alexis said as she laid there. She thought about the night she got back from Jakarta when Ned told her that all she ever wanted was here for the taking all she had to do was hold on and don't let go. ***** Flashback ***** Alexis: I wish we could go away somewhere. Ned: You just got here. Alexis: No, I mean somewhere where we can be together in front of people and not have to please everybody else. Ned: (still caress Alexis with the rose) Well, the secrecy won't go on forever. Once I put Junior in his place at ELQ, we can let everyone know that we're together. Until then, you're my secret weapon. But after that... Alexis: (completely serious) What? Ned: I want you ensconced in my bedroom every night and in the boardroom everyday. Alexis: What would your family think about that? Ned: Well, they'll wonder what took me so long -- and what took them so long. Except A.J. of course. Alexis: Belonging to a family has always been a dream of mine. Ned: (kisses Alexis on the forehead) Well, you'll have it. Is there anything else you want? Alexis: To make somebody else happy. Ned: You've already done that. Or don't I count? Ned: Everything you've ever wanted is all here for the taking. All you have to do is hold on to it, and don't let go. Alexis: Okay. ***** End Flashback ***** "Everything I ever wanted was to be with you Ned. We can have that family I have always wanted with me, you, and now with the baby.. our baby. A baby we conceived out of our love for each other. Ned Ashton I love you and I always will" then she fell into a peaceful sleep dreaming of the life that she wants with Ned and their baby. |
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