Well,where do I start,my name is Norm,and im 45 years of age,two years ago I was chatting to a woman that I had met through some people I knew,while we were chatting the usuall was happening,a cup of tea,and a couple of joints,then Leslie {the woman I had met} started to talk about Jesus and God,and to my suprise I listened,and I mean I listend,because when I was a younger man in my ignorance I used to say I was an atheist and beleived there were aliens and we came from monkeys,oh my,how messed up I was,I took to the words Leslie was saying and they really sank in,because shortly after that I was trying to get hold of a Bible,I wanted to hear more I couldnt get enough,I would read the word of God for hours on end and then have a short rest then into it again for more hours,I felt a peace coming over me that I never new befor,even though my life was going to the pack { so i thought } I still had this feeling of a sort of peace,its hard to explain.
I was in every sense of the word a heathen,I smoked cigaretts,I smoked pot,I also dealt pot as well,sold it to people for profit,I drank alcohol,I looked at porn on the internet and watched porn video's,I sware and cussed horribly,and was always chassing woman,and lusting after them with out concience,i had a very bad temper and used to hit people,and thought I was just it,well I found out that I am nothing,im a spec on the beach with alot of other specs,and was shown my world could be crushed as easily as any one elses,I wasn't as secure as I thought I always was,9 months or so into my walk the Lord decided that I should stop smoking cigaretts,I had smoked since I was 12 years of age,this evening I wraped my lighter and cigaret papers in the tobacco pouch and put them in my draw,I didnt smoke all that evening,I awoke the next morning,got up,went to my draw took out my smokes and threw them into the rubbish bin and that is where they stayed a couple of weeks latter my brother was over for a visit and was smoking,I asked for one and lit it,one puff,the taste that I had in my mouth was so discusting I neally vomited,I havnt touched a smoke since,that was over 18 months ago Praise God,the alcohol fell away really easy,I wasnt much of a drinker any way,the last thing to go for me was the pot,the evil one really had a hold on me with that one,or so he thought,the Lord put it on my heart to give pot away also,so on that day I got my bag of pot,looked at it and stapled it to my calender on the date I was giving up,then steven my brother came around,so you know how it is when you are in the world,one more for the road,so I took it of the calender had a session with my brother and put it back on the calender and havn't touched it since,that was over 8 months ago now and im still going strong,Praise the Lord for being so strong and yet gentle and loving and compassionate and for taking mercy on my wicked soul and giving me another chance of becoming a person of light instead of walking in darkness,as we all do when we are living in the worldy ways,my life has become extreemly easy and free since I came to the Lord,He has taken all the darkness away from around me,now all I need to do is keep walking strong in the Fathers light,that is a daily battle,for the evil one is constantly trying to get me and others back into his fold,he hates it when he loses one of us to the light,because he gets weaker with every one of us who come to the Father and Jesus Christ the evil one gets weaker and weaker.
I have slowed down on my reading of the Bible and on my prayers some,but my faith and my love for the Father and His son Jesus Christ has not faded one bit,since coming to the Lord I have noticed my freinds have stopped coming around to see me,and have stopped ringing me as well,(I now know they weren't true friends)even my own family have stopped seing me except one of my brothers still visits and see's me once a month or so,I see no one else ,its wonderful because now i get to spend more time reflecting on how blessed I am that the Lord has washed away all my past sins and allowed me a new life in Christ Jesus,I have all I need now,I have the Father and His son Jesus Christ at my head running my life,and I have met some really nice fellow christians also since turning to the Lord,what more could I ever want,I feel I have all I need and if more is given,then Praise the Lord for His kindness and great mercy . . .
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