| Lament of a NiteAngyl |
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| 9th of December, 2002 |
| This is the woe of a forgotten entity, heard throughout the years Never forgotten by man was I forever here Giving eye to all, yet no-one really saw me And is this my thanks after I named all the stars? And there was Carfin Redhair; Princesslike, proud and pageant Untouchable it shone amongst the numerous others Its brightness was immeasurable, even so that it blinded me Whilst I walked on the path it led before me And there was Gonore Stoneheart; Hard, silent and unmovable from the skies It made me wishing I was lost, never to be found again Whilst I tried to be the coming of its night, it remained the dawn If dreams really could come true, then why can't I be with you? And there was Gil-Galad Sylvaenor Starlight; Bright, small but yet it bore the energy of a thousand suns Three hundred and one souls it had traded, yet never one so pure as itself What a feanor it was to hang so high in the sky Then, I reached too far, and a little farther it became And there were more yet, but my heart grieves too much At only looking at those stars My world now is like steel and glass, so strong yet so fragile And no starlight could shine through, neither Moon's No love is left in me, and I left my love Guess I'm born with this pain, because it always was been there in me But then again, what else can you expect from such a being as I am? Surely you are afraid of me, as I am of myself With these thoughts, do not envy me! There is no damnation that my soul hasn't taken yet And the burden of many a year lies heavily upon my back And I must bear it alone, and no-one rests by my side Should I have foreseen it? Should I have heeded it then? My guess remains great and my answer could not be found in those stars The graciousness of many a Sun shielded my sight from them And their radiance troubled my mind, and I sought refuge in loneliness I've fought with myself within and I cannot say I've arisen victoriously Maybe I rose with something that clung itself onto me It's strange to think why I should question myself For such stars of magnificent beautiness Then I wish I could hear the bells of fortune chime for once And let my heart be gladded, and praise! Tomorrow may bring yet that new hope I desperatly long for I've searched in my heart and found a dwelling And I've looked over the edge What an immeasurable depth and darkness I beheld! My, I realised everything now; I could love, yet not be loved |
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