Rachel J. Millar

This Thing Called Love

Love is so simple, Love is so hard.
It can make your heart tingle.
Or make you so mad.
Want to knock someone out.
Or grab there face and hug.
What is it, this thing called love?
You have different love for everyone in your life.
Different for your son, your mother and your wife.
Friends and family even your ex loves.
It's so hard to understand this thing called love.
Give your love out, take love in.
Be careful with your love.
But don't keep it all in.
I'm not really sure what I'm trying to say.
Except to just love everyone in your life everyday.

No Regret

I sit and think and wonder why,
Why you always make me cry?
What is it, that you do?
That I can't get over you?
You've shown that you don't care,
But that doesn't take me anywhere.
I saw you that one day.
And yes you did just walk away.
A peice of you has left my heart.
I guess this is my brand new start.
Getting over you has been hard to do.
Now I know it's something I can get through.
There will always be things I won't forget.
And I really have no regret

Sad And Alone

I hate to see you sad and alone.
Just waiting by the telephone.
For a call from this guy.
Who just might make you cry.
I hope he's not playing with your head.
You deserve more than one night in bed.
Your life is so confusing for you.
Your not sure just what to do.
You need to get away from your "life".
He always seems to pick a fight.
He says you can go and get out.
I wish you would without a doubt.
Start your life all over again.
Your worth so much more than what your in.

Half Of An Angel

You said maybe we're both half of an angel and once we're togther we could
fly. Well now I feels as if one wing has broken, the angel may never fly, be
wounded forever. As the one half looks at the other in confussion it wonders.
Will things ever be the same? Will the wound heal, and be able to fly,
someday?

When Will This All Go Away?

Something inside me won't let you go.
I know you still have to grow.
I wish it hadn't ended the way it did.
Us seeing or talking to you, you forbid.
I think of you everyday.
When will this all go away?
I really still want to be your friend.
I know that won't happen in the end.
Where ever I go I look to see you.
That's something I shouldn't go through.
I just wish I could get you out of my mind.
But I know that will take time.
I forget what you look like a little bit each day.
I just wish I knew when will this all go away.

All Pretend?

So this is what it's come down to be.
There won't be a you and me.
Not a friendship, not even a call.
Should've I expected anything at all?
You've thrown away a real good friend.
Your message got threw, I know it's the end.
There's not enough room for me in your life.
Your coldness has hit me just like a knife.
If you didn't want anything to do with me,Why didn't you just say?
I guess I'll have to deal with just staying away.
Maybe I'll see you somewhere, someday.
Will you say hi or just walk away?
I beilieved you when you said I wouldn't lose you as a friend.
Maybe all you said was just all pretend.

My Love Will Always Change

We've done so much in the last five years.
We've laughed and had tears.
Tears of joy, tears of sadness.
The day we got married I knew you were mine.
Always until the end of time.
We've changed so much, but stay the same.
I look forward to seeing you at the end of the day.
Our lives are so hectic all the time.
But we always let our love shine.
I feel your love through your hand.
We know where our love will always stand.
When we go to bed at night,
We kiss and turn out the light.
I want you to know your in my heart.
You take up the biggest part.
My love for you will always change.
But it will also stay the same.
Growing more with each passing day.
And filling me more in everyway.

Leneah

I sit and watch you play.
You amaze me everyday.
I see you learning with everything you do.
I hope you know how much I love you.
I see your daddy inside of you.
Your so curious and want to know.
I love being able to see you grow.
I'll be here for you everyday.
Helping you in anyway.
I love you so very much Leneah.

See Right Though

"Friends" I have that use me so
Why can't I just let them go?
I try to see the good in you
Now I can see right through
The person that you said you were
Is now just a clouded blur
Your fake little smile
You try to seem cute
I wish I could give you the boot
I feel sick when I think of what you've done
Get the hint and go away hun.

This Little Girl

This little girl inside of me
Wants to come out and be set free
Jump rope and play with dolls
Dress like Madonna and act like a star
Put on tons of makeup
And paint my nails hot pink
Listen to loud music and jump on my bed
My childhood is still in my head
Talk on the phone for hours about nothing
Okay that's something I still do
Have cold pizza for breakfast
And pretend I have the flue
What I'd give to do it again
To be that little girl
Now I have my own little girl
To do it once again

You

It's been so long since I've seen your face
I still long for your embrace
Wishing you were here to have some fun
Wondering what your life has become
Hoping to see you somewhere
Do you have long or short hair?
Do you look the same or a little older now
Those beautiful eyes of yours
Who is the one that your heart is for?
I hope your happy, but wish you were with me
When will my heart be set free?
Things around me make me think of you each day
Even when I'm away
Knowing we would have a blast just doing what we'd do
Times were always fun when I was with you
So here I am still holding onto your love so tight
Not letting it go, knowing everything will be alright
Wishing you were here holding me in the night

"Becca"

This girl I've know for a while,
I knew her when she was a child.
Everytime I see her here,
She makes me grin from ear to ear.
That little girl has gone away,
A woman is showing in her in everyway.
I'm seeing the person she's going to be,
Wild and happy and feeling free.
I feel so young when I'm with her.
How do I let my sister grow?
At times it's like seeing my teen years in from of me,
With stories that she is telling me.
I love her very much, and want her to know,
I'll help her along the way to help her grow.
She's in my heart and there she'll stay,
As she's growing everyday.

"The Me Inside Of Me"

The me inside of me I know.
She's kind of cute and wants to grow.
See the world but stay right here.
Happy and sometimes sheads a tear.
The world around her goes so fast.
She holds her breath then takes a gasp.
Where this life will take her she doesn't know.
Get up now and let's just go.
Let's see this world and see it now.
Jump right in and join the crowd.
She's finally learning what she's always had.
Those simple things that make her glad.

"All He Does"

My dads so wonderful with all he does.
He cares for me and shows his love.
I just want to let him know.
That I love him so.
When he hugs me I feel like I'm small.
Like times I was with him at the mall.
He'll always be my first true love.
There's nothing like a daddy's love.
I'm like him now in many ways.
I think of him everyday.

"Love Will Stand"

We've done so much in the last five years
We've laughed and had tears
Tears of joy
Tears of saddness
The day we got married I knew you were mine
Always until the end of time
We have changed so much
But still stay the same
I look forward to seeing you at the end of the day
I know you feel the same way
Our lives are so hectic all the time
But we always let our love shine
I feel your love through your hand
We know where our love will always stand
When we go to bed at night
We kiss and turn out the light
I want you know your in my heart
You take up the biggest part
My love for you will always change
But it will also stay the same
Growing more with each passing day
And filling me more in every way

"In Love"

There's something about the way you love me
So pure and true, what else could it be
The way your eyes crinkle when you smile
Your kisses on my neck that drive me wild
The feel of your hand on mine
I wish we were together all the time
Your cute little laugh that gets me right here
I'm so much in love with you my dear

"Crying"

Crying, what does it do?
Help? No. Solve anything? No.
All it does is make you think even more.
The pain deosn't go away.
It just lingers.
The more you cry the worse you feel.
But when anger and crying is the only emotion you feel what do you do?
You just can't keep that inside,
You'll go crazy.
So you have to cry to relieve yourself.
But do you really get relief?
You have to try and deal with what is wrong.
Even though it's your heart that's breaking.
And your mind wondering,
What's next?

"My Day Is Soon"

The goals in my mind seem so far away.
So out of reach.
So much to do.
So long to wait.
Take care of things now.
Time will be mine soon.
Drift through the days,
Sometimes if there a dream.
Someday it will be my day,
To show what talent I have inside.
And that brain that is acheing to be used,
Will finally be challenged and opened up to soak in more.

I'm Your Wife

I look at you and fall in love with you all over again. Your handsome face so full of love. I know now how much you love me. I guess I always knew. Your so important to me. What would my life be without you? I'm so glad I will never have to know. I'm so lucky to have you in my life. I'm so glad that I'm your wife.

A Change

I look all around me, and I see you.
Your everywhere I turn.
Your face is in everything I do.
Your style is in everything I have.

You have changed my life so much.
No one has ever been able to do that.
You've changed my out look on life.
And my love for it.

You have brought life and light were there was dullness and darkness.
You've given me color and compassion, style and beauty, where I thought I had none.
You've changed "her" into a better me.

Time To Rise

A bunch of birds are chirping away.
It's the beginning of a brand new day.
Another kind chirps in.
The day will soon begin.
The sun peaks threw the window into my eyes.
The cold crisp air is everywhere.
You lay and stretch your sleep away.
Wipe the sleep from your eyes.
Come get up it's time to rise.

Awoken

The air so clear, the stars so bright.
Two lovers in the deep dark night.
They see each others images.
They try to touch.
Something's in the way.
They don't know what.
The shadows become darker.
But their bodies become closer.
There hearts falling into one another.
They run toward each other.
The passion grows deeper.
Almost touching, the heartbeat becomes stronger.
Just before the urge to touch is satisfied.
The dreamer awakes with a rapid heartbeat,
Knowing that her love that she just dreamt of is out there,
And is hers, all hers.

Copyright Rachel J. Millar 2001. All rights reserved.