Love in Pain

It hurts so much
But you don't care
My love for you
Is without compare
Yet all you want is
To be left alone
To sit melancholy
On your ice-cold throne
I just want to
Love you
Love you like I
Know how to
But you won't let me in
How I hate this painful thing!
Why do you make me love you so
When all you want is me to let you go?

---the 31st of December, 1996

Bittersweet Love

Bittersweet love
I've had enough
What should make my
Life so bright
Is turning it
As dark as night

I don't know what to do
Again and again I am
Fighting with you
Why are we unrelenting?
Why is there no
Understanding?

Broken promises, vicious lies
Every time a little bit dies
This little boy just sits and cries
He can't take any more

Hard to live with so much pain
Enough to drive a man insane
Every time indifference I feign
Anger so hurting to contain

Sometimes
Just sometimes
I wish
I could hate you.

---the 9th of January, 1997