| And even more poetry... |
| 2000 So much love I give to you, But always you decieve. I wish just once you could say, You love me so I can believe. I need you now, Yet you don't seem to care. You're supposed to be my Dad, But you have never been there. |
| 2002 You always ask me what I think, But you wouldn't understand. You ask me how I feel, But it wouldn't matter. Why do you waste your time? I can only hurt you. Don't tell me how much you love me, I can never feel the same. You will never understand me, You could never understand all of me. You think I am just like you, But you are so wrong. I can't be with you, I can't be near you. Please give up, Give up on me. |
| 1-27-02 What is the problem? Is it your job to control me? I can think for myself, I can take care of myself. I'm not your little girl anymore, I don't need you making my decisions. Just let me go. I can't take this pressure, I can make up my own mind. I don't need you to hold my hand, I'm smarter than you think. You won't allow me to make my own mistakes, I can't take your pushing me. This isn't your life, This isn't your body. LET ME GO. |
| 2002 I try everyday, To kill this pain away. I just want to feel, Decent and real. My head begins to spin, As the world ,as I knew it, caves in. Oh my god is this really me? Is this what I turned out to be? I think I've gone insane, My tears falling like rain. I lay here locked away in a cage, Feeling so much rage. If only I could... If only tou would... I molded my life to be like this, All of my past, I miss. I wish I could go back to how it was, That's impossible because, I made it so, There's nowhere else to go. |
| 2002 I sit here waiting, Day after day. Wondering why, You had to go away. Of all the things I want to change, It all remains the same. I want to cry, Everytime I hear your name. My world is so different now, Without you here with me. I wish for you to come back, So happy you could make me. |
| 4-8-02 What I thought, wasn't true. Now I'm left, Not knowing what to do. You were gone, But now you're back. Now I'm where I started, From gray to black. You left me once, And then again. With me not knowing, Why or when. Now nothing, Makes sense anymore. You've walked right back, Through my front door. |
| 4-8-02 Lost, broken, confused. Forsaken and abused. Nothing to say, No reason to stay. Just a memory, just a thought. Forgotten all that I was taught. Used up and gone, Unable to move on. Falling away, Life turning gray. Dying inside.You fucking lied. It's all over, Forever. Safe and sound, Underground. |
| 2000 Why did he let me go so quickly? Leaving me all alone. I thought he was a true friend, But I guess I was wrong. I tried not to ever love anyone, I promised myself not to. But the one person I let in, Caused me nothing but pain. Now here I am, Lonely without him. And he has already forgotten all about me. He has a new girl now, I wish it was me. |
| Don't ask me why I do the things I do, Or say the things I say. After all that has come to be, You made me this way. |
| All of this poetry was written by me, Jacki. Any person who copies it is violating the law and can be charged with plagiarism. If you have any questions, comments, or if you want to tell me how bad it sucked please email me. |
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