I admit I have a very highly addictive lifestyle. but even I hit an area that nothing seems like it should. Sometimes the glory of adventure loses its momentum. The things I rather be doing sometimes seems too far out of reach and the alternative only fills the void inside to a point. In my eyes staying dormant is more harmful but makeing a jump or change is just as equally destructive. I prefer to always be in a do or die situation but sometimes it becomes a damned if you do and damned it you don't. so one night I grabbed a bottle of my fav. whiskey and drove out of town and stopped. Guess a way of asking myself in a do or die type scenario. its like I could throw the bottle or throw the keys. its like I could start driving but where would I end up? or I could just drink until I wake to return where I don't really want to be. Its a tough decision and one I am finding harder harder to make.

WONDERING WHY NOT ME


I adjust my mirror and say this time is a go
where I end up probably no one will ever know
there is still apart of me thats torn up inside
no matter what I do that pain will always be mine
Then I got this feeling that I never had before
and I turned off the car what am I doing this for

(cc1)
There has to be a thousand different places I could be
so I am wondering
Wondering Why Not Me
There has to be something I can do to call it more redemption
so I am wondering
Wondering Why Not Me

I threw the keys as far as I could and picked up a bottle
Cant even challenge myself to hear that last call
here I am getting slower what happen to the man I know
I don't even want to hear the talk about getting old
The last one to say this was really never heard from again
I like to think and toy with the idea now and then

the choice between the keys or the bottle
getting harder to choose
the choice between the keys or the bottle
getting harder to choose
the choice between the keys or the bottle
getting harder to choose

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WROTE BY: NIGHTHORSE

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