I wrote this to a woman that I helped out in S.D. I wrote this the night before I left her in Nebraska with her family. A litte background on this woman... She was the Daughter of the Chief Americanhorse of the oguala nation. After hearing the story of why she was in S.D. away from her family due to one of my own nation. You see a Norther Cheyenne, which later I found wasn't very respectable anyhow, had basically treated her badly, made her give up her tradition, family, kids, and dumped her. So her family was strickly against the Northern Cheyenne nation. So it was my honor and my duty to sober this woman up, watch over her and deliver her back to her family. For she was once a holder of a sacred pipe, a sundancer, and daughter of royal blood. I was hoping to restore the honor of my people to this family. to end that story... it worked and I recieved many gifts and sat in thier sweat lodges for three days. anyhow...
I couldn't sleep and I was awake watching over her as usual... Guess it became a habit. Even though I got her back safely I still felt like I had to watch over her... ah... hard to explain. Anyhow, this woman and her family was really pushing for me to marry her under the pipe after the sundance. I kinda entertained the idea but at the same time I was held back... In other words it just didn't feel right even though she done a whole lot for me. It was later that she tried the "get jealouse of me" letter thing in order to get me to return... which kinda hit me with a low blow... I have another song around here about that though... Anyhow instead of leaving this letter next to her in the morning I kinda felt like that would be rude so I took it with me and decided to just get back to her when I was ready... anyhow this is that song I wrote....
TRAILS END
Many nights I held you close to my chest
For I guarded you night after night doing my best
Never sleeping for fear I would wake to lose you
Sweet Constance why did you do the things you do
Yes I loved you with my heart like a brother
It scares me when you said your gonna take me as a lover
As I write watching over your sleeping body Im tempted
To honor your wishes but my heart is still the same reluctant
(cc1)
'Its trails end'
For tomorrow I must leave
'Its trails end'
Please don't forget me
'Its trails end'
sweet sister let me go to see if anything is left
honor your tradition and remember our paths once met
if I return alone then Im honored to take your hand
but there is another I feel deep who wants this man
For even though I found you lost and turned around
I really am not worthy to wear you offered crown
for my vision is still incomplete and I must seek them
I will pray for you for I know you will find love again
(repeat cc1)
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WROTE BY: NIGHTHORSE