This song came to me while sitting down at the table discussing my divorce with my ex-wife. Its like I was sitting there voicing my concerns when a strange question came about. My ex asked if there was a connection still between us, and apologized for the hell she put me through. It took me by suprise because I didn't really know how to respond. It was one of those questions where in my situation I should have had an answer right up front. Instead I was lost for words because I wanted to answer truthfully but I didn't have an answer. It was like I was completely neutral on the subject or I went blank or something. This sort of bothered me because nobody just plain forgets feelings especially in this story. Then I remembered a long time ago I really prayed hard that everything be lifted from me. Well it must have happened and if so then it was for a purpose. so in my own mind it occured to me to say "I forgive you" would mean digging up something laid to rest. thus... this is a time where forgiveness becomes a sin...

WHEN FORGIVENESS BECOMES A SIN



I look out into the darkness and sometimes I wonder where the hell I have been
The changes in my soul the light in the mornings is the first time I have seen
I don't know where I am going but I know that I have never returned
But the things I see now I don't remember those things that I burned
How did it all get this crazy where did all the gleam and memories go
There are things about me that even I don't know
I remember it had to be pain as long as that time had gone
I don't even remember why I even wrote that last song

(cc1)

On the long road home that never seems to end
You forget why you may have left 
But if you search for answers now
You may just be selling off the rest of your soul
So don't make me remember don't ask me to give in
When forgiveness becomes a sin

I like to think that destiny had a lesson to teach me but you know
Now that I have the answer I am not even sure I am coming home
Besides the question has long been lost in the fabric of time
And I am seeking a new life one I can truly say is finally mine
When I stepped upon the hill I prayed that it all be taken away
How the hell was I to know that there was power in what I say
Fate had a different plan for me this is all I can say I understand
I have many visits to make on the road of life and I am just a simple man

(repeat cc1)

they say hind sight is twenty-twenty but some things are to be left alone
like the places I seem to forgot the farther away I have roamed
maybe I built a wall but something inside me says this isn't the case
Something I don't understand somewhere in time has taken place
When the wind blows it gently whispers something into my ear
Take care to not open a door that may want to pass by you near
Count a blessing that says never to make the same mistake again
For sometimes in life forgiveness becomes a sin

(repeat cc1)
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WROTE BY: NIGHTHORSE

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