This is a song I wrote while wondering if I should make a phone call toward the beginning of the break down of my marriage. The situation was I was wanting to run then but something held me back... In a basic sense this song is about doing battle with my ownself while I had feelings of falling out of love and I had no idea why. Of course today I know exactly why but that is another song... I think... *searching through archives*

STARING AT THE TELEPHONE 



In my heart I have forgotten you
I don't know why you did what you do
Now I am standing here feeling down
even the silence mocks me with a certain sound
I'm wondering if I should be the one to blame
I don't know if I am a fool in shame
I pick up the phone and slam it back 
I am now feeling like a card with no stack

(cc1)
Now I am staring at the telephone
The feeling is cold and feel so alone
I am Staring at the Telephone
The feeling is cold and feel so alone

I feel empty and I know you want to try
But I never been one to say a second good bye
The pain grips me from a long time past
Guess I should have known it would never last
why did you have to kill all that I had left
the things that should have never slept
what I need has become what I now grown to hate
I just can't handle being in this mind and state

(repeat cc1)

I want what you took I want it all back
forever now lost in the darkness and black
I think I want to try again and fight the pain
but I know I will travel back from where I came
Let this heart be still for it is sacred to me now
I started over and I look back and wonder how
The walls have fallen and nothing is there
where are those times that we used to share
even my memories are now gone its all blank
if I pick up that phone would it be a mistake
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WROTE BY: NIGHTHORSE

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