As any father would I miss my son something feirce... Facing a reality that says I can take my son and raise him the way he is suppost to be raised or choosing to not be part of his life is a hard choice. Some would question the not being part of his life... You see I want my son to grow up knowing full self realiance. I have two choices teach it to him directly by example or teach him the power of driving instinct. I know that my son will seek me out sooner or later as he will his people. This is something I cannot explain in general terms. It is my strong belief that Native America grows with an identity. That identity is instinctivly in grained in our souls as a people that structured thier whole political and tribal relations solely on family. Its that instinct that tortured me all my life and gave my true family all the assurance that one day I would return on my own. Which is true... I did return to a family that smiled and said we have been waiting welcome back. I know my son... I have known him long before he was ever born. And as I face my choice I rest assured my son will find his paths... kinda like the saying "you can take a boy off the street but never take the street from the boy."... The same is true for my son... but there are something I would like to say to him... probaby the hardest thing for me to tell him is...
DADDY ISN'T COMING HOME
I remember the first time I held you as proud as I could be
The first time I talked to you and you looked around for me
I watched you grow and I remember the first time we played
And the day I told you the story of creation laying in the shade
I let you get away with things to teach you to rely on yourself
To build a spirit stronger then mine and thought as well
I hear your cries in my blood late in the night time air
My son stay strong for life is not always that fair
I know your fight all too well for its my footsteps
That I left for you but a trail that is hardly ever kept
(cc1)
I would have made an easier life for you
But under these circumstances what can I do
I know you search for me and wait for me so
But I'm sorry my son�
Daddy isn't coming home
There are a few things I want you to know my son
Sometimes its better to let go then watch something come undone
You don't always have to fight to win a war
Some victories of wealth are well worth waiting for
Follow your heart and not what others say you should do
Never let them bring you down never let yourself be subdued
Honor that which is inside of your body and soul
It's the circle of life your forever ending goal
Trust nothing that seems unlikely apart from your dad
And for God sakes don't pause your calling as I have
(repeat cc1)
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WROTE BY: NIGHTHORSE