I was kicking back with a friend who has talked me into forming another band. He is one hell of a drummer but somewhere along the line he broke all the rules. I mean for me drummers always kept a certain beat, but this guy went off on a trail that I never seen before. It reminded me of a tap dancer. but it was a drum. it sang to me somehow. I always kept saying I am not doing this... but after hearing this something inside me said I have to give it a try. yea I have alot to lose by going off but somewhere inside me I snapped. I found myself saying too hell with it, I cant just turn around anymore. I have to do this. Even though I thought I was going to be in alot of trouble for agreeing to form a band again. in a strange way i found that it was sort of expected somehow. I was accepted and actually congratulated for saying "I am doing this." *shrug* I am excited and I got to looking back at being so confused and stressed about this decision. I wanted to capture that feeling before I lost it. thus here is the song that shows what I was feeling before I realized... That in the end. I was just mind fu**ing myself. I would have lost a part of me. thankfully I didn't... we all go through this... so here it is. The next chapter of my methodology.

THE STRESS AND CONFUSION 


the first time I agreed but the second time I stumbled to the ground
I didn't want to see anymore but somehow I forced myself to look around
I want something but I am afraid of the price that must be paid 
its not that I don't want it it is just I fear what I will have to say
even though I want this so badly it hurts somehow deep inside of my mind
if I find it within to make the jump I still fear that I am left behind
so here I am sitting up here watching all life down there below
time seems to go forward but I often wonder why does it go so slow

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can I have it or should I take second best
am I losing my mind or should I accept less
I want and I need but I am tearing myself apart
wanting so badly its tearing out my heart
The stress and confusion
The stress and confusion
The stress and confusion
The stress and confusion

living in the past all things seem to always be on the go
I look around and everyone seems to be kicking back and enjoying the show
but my feelings say the last time I have tried I was never heard from again
and the fear grips me and reminds me that this is now and it is still then
now that I look at me i want to make that stand but still its just fear
I am yelling screaming inside of me but does anyone out there hear
I am my worst enemy and it preaches that I am always down and losing
I know I am better then this but still its just the stress and confusion

Its so cruel to see what I lost
Its so cruel to see what I lost
Its so cruel to see what I lost
in my world of stress and confusion
Its so cruel to see what I lost
Its so cruel to see what I lost
Its so cruel to see what I lost
In my world of stress and confusion
ressurection!!
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WROTE BY: NIGHTHORSE

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