| This is my place to dump things that come to my mind. It is also a Tribute to a very Kind and Gentle Fellow, whose Wisdom and Total Acceptance of all of us in these Hallowed Halls, is a Legacy for All to Share. Some of these writings are his. Some by another Immortal. Some by friends I hold very Dear. I simply needed a place to put them. Might as well share. You never know, what might make someone dream. I will forewarn, some are, lets say, descriptive, to put it mildly. This site is ongoing, in its construction. Things will be added as they are written. Please enjoy a break from reality as you know it. Welcome to the Surreal. Forever Yours, Flame (Carrie Lynn) |
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| Never, is just a matter of Time. A place long forgotten, waiting silently for a sign. While mist surrounds thought, dreams dance beyond true. I hunt by the moonlight, searching for you. I've kept to the shadows, like Fey from the Hills. Survived endless years through Strength of my will. Now here You stand awoken at last. Your eyes how they're shadowed from Pain in the Past. The Years they surround you, a Cloak made from Grace. I lift my hand slowly, caressing your face. Where have You been? My Beloved speak True. What is thy Hell, that You have walked through? "Never again will I see you." has been crossing my mind. Now Never means Naught. A small matter of Time. Flame copyright2007 |
| ~What~ What would you say to me, were I crying in the Night? What would you say to me, to turn Darkness into Light? What would you think of me, lying before you on the floor? What would you think of me, if I told you I want more? What would you dream of me, if I danced before the Flame? What would you dream for me, knowing the world isnt Sane? What would you feel for me, did I stand before you broken? What would you feel for me? No words have yet been Spoken. What could I say to you, knowing Nights are hard to bear? What could I say to you? Your heart is one thats rare. What should I think of you? I feel your pain from here. What should I think of you? I know not what you fear. What should I dream of you? What Passions will you share? What should I dream of you? As your hands caress my hair. What should I feel for you? Your words they make me weep. What should I feel for you? My heart is yours to keep. Immortal Flame copyright2007 |
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| ~Please~ I have been forced to stand my ground. I have always relied upon myself. How can you Break me? I have always taken care of myself. I am stubborn, obstinate, willful, strong. How can I Submit to you? I am wild and restrained. I have cultivated total control. What will you do to tame me? I wish to give it up, if only for a time. I wish to kneel before you in trust. Please can you break me? I wish to offer up respect, I wish to give you my control. Please teach me to be Submissive. I want what only you can give. In Bondage do I seek relief. Please, I beg of you, Free me. Flame copyright2007 |
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| Immortal Samjaza~~Between Immortals~~Immortal Flame |
| In Loving Memory of the most influential Gentleman, Writer, Poet, Friend, Confidant and so many other things.. |
| ~Master Mungo, we Miss You~ |
| Sing a song of Sixpence, the Villagers are dead. The silence from it rends the night. The streets now paved in red. It started at the midnight hour, the screams of pain,,,despair. The bodies now lay broken, their blood is in the air. Open are a small childs eyes, his neck slit ear to ear. Laying in his mothers arms her face still froze in fear. Whats left of one mans body, lays lonely by the dyke. Dead eyes stare in watchfulness, from heads upon the pikes. What happened in this tiny town, blood trickling in the streets? Was war that came here from below, that demons will repeat. Heed ye all and heed ye well, when Flames rise in the night. Hell's Gates shall have been opened. The Demons given Sight. Immortal Flame copyright2007 |
| ~Nightmare Rhymes~ |
| I am half in Darkness. Wanting to embrace, yet still frozen in Time. My tears run down my face as Flames. Even in my most carnal of times, I still wait.The carnal times, no matter their ferocity, are empty. I hide and wait in the Shadows, watching the time pass as eons come and go. I watch the Night turn ever so slowly into Dawn. So many have crossed my path and yet, here I wait. Tired and alone. So many years No one notices through my laughter and jests, that all I wish for is one. One true, one honest. Just one who sees the many colors of the Flames. What a Flame would give in return, only happens in the dreams of men. Maybe, this is the dreams of all Earths Flames that burn through the Darkness. Ever burning, never ending. Only the gods are aware of the Flames. Only the Gods are warmed and Cherish the Flames Eternal Light. Only in Darkness do the Flames live and breathe. Only in Darkness can a Flames true colors Illuminate all who stand before. Only in Darkenss can a Flame show one the way. Only in Darkness can a Flame Rise, create Heat, Create Chaos and yet calm the Chaos surrounding. Without Darkness, there is no Flame. Darkness feeds the Flames in so many ways. Just as Flames feed the Darkness. Eternal. Flame copyright2007 |
| When you speak, There is an echo, that reveals the fathomless depth of your soul. The darkness is simply BeAuTiOus... Its radiance defies the light itself... It restores... It makes mine whole... I'm reminded of Victors Resurection & Pedogy.... (The Stillborn spawn of Dianna & Apollo) The transition from Night into Day, The first Time Eternal Darkness embraced Eternal Light. MY NIGHT FLAME... Immortal Samjaza copyright2006 |
| ~(Whisper) Night Flame~ All night long, I thought about you. I'm even dreaming while awake, lost in hot pink thoughts of you. No matter where I go, no matter how near or far, I cant stop hearing the beat of your heart. I can picture us together, in a field of hot pink iris's. I can feel the heat and the power of our passion. As you take me into your arms, the world fades around us and I am lost to the taste of your sweet lips. My fever for you is burning me up inside. I can see us... you and I. As night falls, so cold and dark, I'll be thinking of you again. Nothing can cool this heat I have for you. Nothing you can say or do will make these hot pink fantasies fade... Immortal Samjaza copyright2007 |
| ~(Whisper) Samjaza~ Always do I think of you. By candlelight, by flame. My eyes, so full of joy stare up into your eyes. I submit to you my Beloved. I could not do so to any other. I would offer myself up to you, carress your face, kiss your lips. I want only to wrap your heart deep inside to keep you safe. I want to see your eyes smiling down at me, while I lay under you. Wrapped up tight in your arms our bodies reflecting the flames. The night can never be cold and dark Beloved. While you still breathe my name, as I whisper your name. Hearts beating as one. Immortal Flame copyright2007 |
| ~My Dark Beloved~ My heart whispers softly. Stilling its beat within my chest. My eyes bleed the Flames which are the very heart of me. Yet still I seek Thee with every darkness that rises. Desperate, I pass from Flame to Flame seeking the Essence that is you. You promised never to leave me. Yet you have been taken from me. Through the Mortal Realm I search, alone and bent by sadness and grief. My strength is slowly passing. Yet here I stand, quiet and watchful. My Soul screams in Mortal sorrow, I cannot Feel you, cannot see you. I had stood before you, touching, yet never having touched you. I watched as you fell from Grace. My arms stretched to catch you. I cryed to the Gods to save you. Still I hear the echo of your Pain. Still I hear the echo of your heart. That is the sound which draws me, with every dark hour passing. So cold and lonely is the sound. Haunting my every waking moment. I stop the ember glow of my heart so that you may hear its whisper. Breathing my plea across space and time. "Please,,,Pleeeeaaasse..." You Promised me. Let me save you! My heart whispers softly, quietly,,, dancing across the Flames of your Soul. Immortal Flame copyright2007 |
| ~Do Not Fall~ My Immortal Beloved, why do you weep? My heart is yours. The Blood falling softly down from my fingertips, I cherish each drop. I would hold you close, I will catch you mid fall. If you would but allow me. I would stand before you through the darkest of night, to protect and guard you. My arms long to shelter you, to keep you safe and loved. Feel me on the breeze, see me in the Flames. Allow me to light your way. Do not Fall so far below. Use my strength to stand, use my Love for guidance. Hear my whispered Plea to you. "Please, do not leave me." You are never alone, I am always here Beloved. Your Immortal Flame copyright2007 |
| ~Once Fallen~ I had a nightmare. I went to heaven and you were there. Your lips spoke soft sweetness. Your touch a cool caress. I lay lost in your magic, My heart beat within your chest. I think of you each morning and I have dreamt of you each night. I think of your arms being around me and I cannot express my delight. From above it seems so safe here. Such a shame to just Fall kicking and screaming into Darkness. Still, it's your name I call. There is warmth on my face. Its your light in the breeze as the curtains playfully sways. I here your voice saying, Please... I swore never to fall again, but I am quickly on my way. You hold a heart in your hands that has yet to be given Well, until today... Now the blood that drips from your fingertips Is mine... Night Flame My Beloved, Our souls ectasy echos infinitely intertwined... If I was your boyfriend, would you run to me if somebody hurt you? Even if that somebody was me? Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be... Please...Please...Pleeeeaaassee...me (she said) Immortal Samjaza copyright2007 |
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| ~Unending Funeral~ Welcome to Auschwitz, the ovens are still hot; They burn with a pain we forgot. The walls still echo with forgotten song, Melodies supressed for so long. We may still remember; we may still learn: We can hear the songs and feel the burn. In this funeral of so many years, We learn from the flow of tears. Dr. Awkward Copyright 2007 |
| ~My first Moment of True Magic~ I remember when I was a boy of 8, I was walking home from school, because back in those days you could let a child walk home and not worry about his being shot or whatever. The day had been rainy and cold and I was never the healthiest child, so twice as miserable for me. But there I was, clutching my books to my chest under my coat and making my way home. I looked up and saw the sun, dim behind the clouds and summoned up all of my strength. I had been reading a book on Egyptian Mythology and decided to see what would happen if I addressed the Sun King Ra. I stopped in my tracks and turned my face to the sky. In my boldest voice, I prayed aloud to the sun, "Great Ra! Sky Father and bringer of Light! This poor wet soul asks for you to turn your shining Face to him and drive away the storm. If I could, I'd burn myrrh to honor you, but I dont have any." As soon as I was finished, the rain stopped and the clouds parted. The sun shone on me alone in a huge beam and I felt more loved than I ever had before. In shock and awe, I made my way the few more blocks home and just as I got to the door, the rain started back up with a vengeance. The key to this story, is to honor the things that bring you joy whenever possible, just as I burn myrrh whenever I can, in thanks to a ten minute break in the rain, way back in 1971. Grimm Brightstave Copyright 2000 |
| ~For who so ever~ For who so ever is afraid of the lightning. Still your quiet fears, it illuminates the darkness. For who so ever is afraid of the thunder. Listen with your heart, it speaks to your soul. For who so ever is afraid of the wind. Open wide your mind, its whispers are a song. For who so ever is afraid of the rain. Embrace it with your soul, it is the bringer of life. For who so ever is afraid of the children. Ease your troubled thoughts, their spirits guide your dreams. For who so ever is afraid of the wilds. See with more than eyes, it stands for freedom. For who so ever would protect these things. Know the Spirits sing aloud, they live on in you. Carrie CR2006 |
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| ~Illusion of the Dragonfly~ Reality is not real and life is only a mirage... Dragonfly calls to me Whispers my name in the middle of the night He shows me a Vision of the past of the place of how it used to be the place of joy and happiness the place of harmony the place I long for We live in the Deam of the Dragonfly who whispers my name in Dawn's light He shows me a vision of the present I am surrounded by darkness But I catch a growing ring of light..... Is life an Illusion..?! Circles of neverending time touch We are one and the same, yet... we are different We know of where we come from but not always why we choose to go Dragonfly calls to me and whispers my name when the sun sets gold in the sky He gives me a vision... One of Joy and despair One where the Light shines brighter One I have longed for Who is to say what is real What is the dream of the masses What is the illusion of the Dragaonfly What reality is mine... (C) 1992 Wendy Anderson |
| ~Child of Fire, Child of Ice~ Locked up inside the closet Dark. A child of two, it found it's mark. I felt a presence, my thoughts grew dim. My soul cried out, as I welcomed Him. I felt the dark inside me me swell. When finally freed, I hid it well. From then no light, no laugh, no song. I did not exist, I did not belong. I live in shadows, I rarely weep. My own council, do I keep. A child of Fire, a child of Ice. Was Born upon a Blackened Night. Flame (C)2002 |
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| ~Someone~ I stand alone upon the shore, waiting for a sign. Looking for a heart thats true, one that I'll call mine. Someone that is strong enough, to get to what's inside. Someone who is brave enough, to find all that I hide. One must have some patience, to look and really see. Whats hidden in my deepest depths, to find all that is me. One must have the strength alone, to stand against my pain. But if you truly love me, there is heart to gain. I built these walls so long ago, time made them strong and true. I cannot tear them down myself, the task is up to you. There is one gift I give you, the only one I can. I'll give you every chance there is, to come up with a plan. I'll trust your word, upon your life, I'll trust in you to stay. I'll trust in you to never change, this has always been my way. But hurt me once or lie to me, you'll watch my light grow dim. The walls will grow back twice as high, I wont be seen again. I'm tired of the pain and grief, I've stood alone too long. I need someone to trust and love, to know that I'm not wrong. Flame (c)2002 |
| ~ All Hallows Eve~ Blackest night upon us creeps, the moon glows eerie red. The clearing fills with thickest fog and whispers from the dead. The outline of surrounding woods are barely in our sights. The echoes of the dying screams fill our hearts with fright. We've run as far as we can go, our legs are leaden fire. From our homes were forced to flee through forrest, muck and mire. They crept upon us in our sleep, into our village fair. Intentions were to kill us all, no mercy, no one spared. The soldiers were a gruesome lot, with glowing eyes and fangs. They stood well of seven feet, their growls through village rang. Their weapons stank of age old rot, their fur of deaths decay. The horns upon their heads were theirs. Their faces sickened grey. They circled round on silent hooves, prepared they were to feast. They lit their torches on command to chase us out with heat. As flames rose high into the night, smoke rose and filled the air. From their homes the people ran, knew naught the danger there. The first that fell into the night was my wife and neighbors son. Their heads removed from swords held high, before they thought to run. Some demons bent their wills on death, some demons built the flames. They placed still living on the spits, their screams of burning pain. A few of us have made the break and fled into the night. We hear them seaching for us now, by scent and not by sight. We sent our children that we had, into the river deep. To ride the night into the dawn, to keep them out of reach. We pray to Odin, that they fair and pass the message on. We turn to face the coming storm, we know that they're not done. We'll battle on and take a stand, though our fate is sealed this night. Our hearts are pounding with our fear, at least we stood to fight. The only sight to greet the dawn, is smoke that rises slow. The demons have retreated now, into their Hell below. Carrie Lynn (copyright 10/2007) Happy Halloween :) |
| ~The fading Litany~ Open my eyes as sunlight breaks, touch feet down to the floor. Touch not upon just how I feel, close dark inside my core. The haunting dreams that come to me, are fading fast from view. I try to keep my saner thoughts though distant and too few. Stand up and reach for softer things, like laughter, love and light. Greet the day, as were it the first, hold fast to what is right. I know that should I pass this day, my presence would be missed. But passing time is harder now, cant seem to mind my list. The one that tells me everyday, why I should make it through. to greet another coming morn though lonely and confused. Smile soft at those that call me friend, arms wide to those I see. push past my lack of hope and faith, give them the best of me. C.Lynn (c) 2008 |
| ~St. Patricks Day Blessing~ My friends this day, to you I give, a Blessing strong and true. May luck and peace be yours to have, may riches you accrue. May in your deepest, darkest hour, a hand for you to hold, appear with heartfelt light and love and warmth to stave the cold. May all your hopes and dreams you have, come true down through your days and just for fun I hope the beer, flows freely down your way. Happy St. Pattys to you...:) (c)Carrie Lynn2008 |
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