Looking back there are things I would of done different but I am not complaining . My journeys have led me to meet some of the most special people in my lives other than my faimily.
Here are some of my inner thoughts .
Have you ever stared at yourself in the mirror and asked the question ?Who are you??
Tried to figure out what is you purpose in life or why things turn out the way they do for you and better for others.
If sometimes people misinterpret you and form bias opinions with asking for verification.
Who you are is a reflection of yourself, an individual totally different from the person next door. Things happen by chance there is no such thing as destiny. If there was such a thing we would have found it by now. We can try and pave a way for ourselves, doing things that we believe will benefit us in the long run. Sometimes it works; sometimes it doesn?t. Chance, if we don?t take chances we will never get anywhere or advance. It is a necessary part of life call risk.
Impressions what people see is what they believe. We are blind, we often misinterpret people based on prenotions of what we believe is true. That is wrong unless something is visibly or mentally clear we should not label a person or race. No one man is the same, If your brother is a murder that does not make you a criminal also. Think outside the box or else your mind will be always trapped.
Time. What is time? Can you control it? If you can control it please show me how. Why do we always say ?We have time?. If we have time then why can?t we stop the day, make it long or the night short. Is that time? No it is not. It is part of our daily life cycle, things that happen everyday. The fact is we don?t have time, it has us. We have to fit our schedule to time?s routine. When is time for us to die then we die, we have not found the ever elusive fountain of youth. Live each day as the last, never put of something that could be done at that moment because we don?t have time.
Love hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. What is Love? I have never really felt it before. I have never felt the absolute feeling that overwhelms you when you are in love. I do not know the urge to give it all and not hold back; the freedom to be myself with that woman, to let her know the inner me. I have always held back things because I must. If I give it all to someone I don?t love that I am cheating that person of my gift to her ?True Love.? So I trek on, old, weary but yet determined to find that true love.
This piece was written before, just a piece I kept:
And Now I Know.
Through the years,
I thought I knew what I wanted.
I had perceived thoughts, hopes and wishes.
Which at times had cloud my judgments; have led to wrong decisions, all of which I bare full responsibility.
I cannot take back the pass, but I can do better with the future.
Meeting you has been one of the best moments of my life.
Now I know what I want.
But, this is not a one way street, and of course there is traffic and speed bumps ahead.
As I said before ?What I want may not be what you want?.
But there is still hope and prayers.
You asked me how I know.
My heart and mind tell me so.
There is no doubt in my mind of how I feel.
I am relax and at ease with you.
I have never felt that way before.
I know that everything comes with a cost.
A cost, I would gladly pay given the chance.
Why you may ask.
The reasons are: I have never met anyone who has captivated my heart and mind, as you.
Your personality is spellbinding, aurora is mystifying.
In my eyes you are a precious gem; as rare as a black pearl.
There is not a day passes that I don?t think of you; nor a night passes, that I don?t pray for you.
I just hope that time and good luck plays me a good hand this time.
I have a lot to lose and even more to gain.
Cont'd: And the Search goes on and onnnnnnnnnnnnn.
