| MIND'S EYE (Cont'd) |
| Accomplished Dream I do not know if I can say that I still know how to feel. My heart no longer belongs to me. I no longer want to obey. You seem as tired as I. I thought there was more, And now I do not know if I am capable of believing. I feel so alone, And they say solitude suits me well. Sometimes I make plans. Sometimes I want to go to a distant country, And return to being happy. I do not know how to explain what happened, If everything I dreamt was really my dream, If my desire already came to be. What do I do now and where will I go? Boys And Girls I want to find myself but I do not know where to look. Come with me to search for a calm place, Far from this confusion, Far from these people who show no respect. I am almost certain I am not from here. You shall see how it really is and will always be. It will become more complicated, And at the same time different. I am tired of knocking and noone answering. You left me feeling so cold. I do not know what else to say. You helped me see to live is good. I think that the imperfect do not participate in the past. I need oxygen. I need to have friends. I need to have money. I need affection. I thought I loved you, now I think I hate you. |
| Love Lost I have accustomed myself with your voice. I have accustomed myself with your face. I have accustomed myself with your appearance. They split me in half, And now I search for my better. When you are not here, I miss myself. I miss my body close to yours. My heart is crude and poor. I do not know the ways of the world. Hurry to me, for I do not know how to wait. I have accustomed myself to your voice. When I am with you, I am at peace. When I am without you, my spirit is lost. Serenade I am a sentimental animal. I easily become attached, To that which arouses my desire. I try to obligate myself, To do that which I do not want to. You will soon see what happens. I think I understand what you wanted to say, But there are other things to be said. I obtained my balance courting insanity. Everything is lost, but there remain possibilities. We had an idea, but you changed plans. We had a plan, but you changed ideas. It is already over! Who knows, maybe another day. I use to dream, now I cannot sleep. When was the first time we competed? What noone perceives, is what the world knows. I am no longer interested in what I feel. I do not believe in anything except that which I doubt. You wait for answers I do not have. I wear a stupid smile, and it seems to be the solution. |
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| I still want you. I still love you. Now that we are friends, I don't know how our lives will follow a common path. You have your education. I have my work. Time will dictate our destinies. I wish you were here. I wish I was there. I still have vacation. Send for me when the time is right. Kisses and hugs. Forever yours. Always and forever. You are never forgotten. How long has it been since I last thought of you? I checked your profile the other day. I checked it the day before that. I can't seem to forget, And do not want to write a letter, That will not be answered. I miss you. You say you miss me. When will it be that I will see you for the first time? You are too far away to hold. Y am I such a fool for you. O what a wonderful time spent chatting with you. U are to me what I can only hope I am to you. |
| I was impatient. I gave up hope. I never stopped loving. Love hurts when every song reminds me of you. I no longer listen to the eighties. Country and alternative are filled with broken hearts. Why did I push you away? Why was I so selfish? You needed me to be there. I wanted you to be here. In the mix of it all, I lost the only true love I ever loved. I miss you. I want you. I love you. I want you to want me to want you. I need you to want me to love you. Have you forgotten the months we shared? They were few but meant so much to me. Had I not given up hope, Would you have remembered how much I love you? I want you to be happy. I want you to achieve all your dreams and goals. I can only hope, Our paths again cross. My only hope is that the crossing is in person. My friend you will always be. A friend I hope you will have me be. And someday maybe we will be something more. You are a cool ass chick! |
| Breaking Up: Hard To Do? For Cindy |
| Hapless Romantic |
| Before I knew her, I loved her, Everything I aspire to be, The endeavors I accomplish, These very few things speacial about me, For her I do them, And she is discomfited still, With my lacking of who I am not. Confused as to 'why' I persist, Knowing she will only hurt me horribly, I always see a light, No matter what she says, Nor what she does, All because of love. |
| I read of three loves, Philo, Agape, oh Eros! And am told there exists a fourth, What is it like not to feel anything? Affection exists in some, But it seems ours has become an unnatural one. Aside I should put my heavenly girl, She who wants me not, I must grow up, Forsaking my immature idealisms, But I cannot change who I am, I cannot change how I feel, Change is only for those things I do. |
| Endings come and endings go, Awaiting us is an ending, And like all unhappy endings, Ours will be a tragedy, A comedy of my own device done cruelly. |