あいの惑星
I Don't Wanna Grow Up!
Age is a number with a preconceived notion of how we are supposed to act.
All kids are in a hurry to grow up. They want to live on their own, make their own decisions, do what they want to do. I did too, and I still do to a certain extent. I want to be by myself in that I want to do whatever I want and live how I want to live. But the burden of paying bills and getting a job and getting my lazy butt to the store just intimidates me. I would rather be a kid forever than to have to do all that stuff. After I hit age 14, I stopped looking forward to my birthday. 15 and above is too old. It's that time of age when you get your permit to drive, think about college, and all that junk. When I used to click people online, I was barely a teenager. I would talk to people who were 16 and 17, and think Wow, they're old. I couldn't imagine myself that old, and I still think of myself as being a pre-teen. I look the same and act the same. I have grown a bit wiser, but besides that, I'm the same as I was years ago, and I plan to stay the same.
Another reason I don't want to grow up is because people change with age. People in grade school are mean without care. Then when they get older, they realize the error of their ways and expect to be forgiven by those who they have hurt. I don't appreciate this. I don't think mean people should be forgiven. I think they are the same evil people they were as children, they just mask their feelings to be polite.
Speaking in more teenage terms, they all cuss and do drugs and go to parties and get drunk and speed and get in stupid short-term relationships with strangers they claim to love. Then when they get a little older, they think, Oh, I was stupid back then. Hey, guess what? You're still stupid. The smart people who didn't do those things back then are still smarter than you. You were a stupid teenager, and now you're a stupid adult. No difference at all. But ya see, you people don't see that. I just know when I go to college, some boy is going to ask me out, and he'll seem all fine and dandy, but I'll ask him ~ his past, and twill be littered with evil doings, and because of that, I will tell him no. People don't change personalities with age. They are the same person they were at birth. If a person is weak enough to engage in peer-pressure activities like the ones I mentioned above, they are not worthy of being my boyfriend. Lol. Note.
So that is why I'm not looking forward to graduating from high school. That's why I'm not happy to go to college and be out on my own. Tis a scary world out there, you know.
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